1. The Blue Camaro

DAMON :

Even while on the phone with Stefan, he was still hearing her.

Her laughter, her giggles, her amused tone while she was playing and flirting with Enzo.

Enzo, his former best friend. And not so long ago, their former ennemy.

What a change, huh ?! Suddenly,Enzobecame her best friend, her lover and he, her ennemy.

They had exchanged roles.

And it was annoying him. No, wait : annoying was an understatement. It was infuriating him, making him as furious and heartbroken as he was when he discovered Katherine wasn't in the tomb. Seeing her happy with Enzo reminded him of what he had with her, before he decided to dessicate. It was an odd feeling, knowing he was no longer her best friend, her partner in crime, the one to make her smile and laugh.

He felt left out. Like a stranger thrown for the first time in the middle of a group of friends. More like in the middle of a « lovey-dovey » couple. And he hated that. He hated being the third wheel. Having to witness their displays of affection, feeling awkward and uncomfortable.

He was supposed to be the one making any other person who was witnessing his relationship with Bonnie , feel left out. Not the other way around. He should be the one having Bonnie's complete attention, not that dude.

After everything they had gone through, the development of their friendship, and all he had done for her, it was hard going back to the start. Where she hated his guts and didn't give a damn about him. Because over those past few years, he had grown to love the witch unconditionally. He loved her so much that he could give his life for her : hell he even gave up his life with Elena, the supposed love of his life, to save hers ! She had dug her little way into his dark and cold heart. And she had opened it, leaving him bare to her. Mentally naked.

Maybe that's why her disregard, her indifference towards him, felt like his heart was breaking into pieces.

- Damon ?! You okay there ?! , Stefan's worried voice got him out of his thoughts.

He had forgotten he was on the phone with his little brother, trying to explain to him the situation with Rayna and her visions problems. He quickly gathered himself up.

- Hum...Yeah, peachy. Just got disturbed by Bonnie playing teenage girl with her knight in shining armor. , he answered sarcastically.

- She seems happy with Enzo. It's good, she deserves it. , Stefan replied sincerely.

« Of course he would say that : Stefan being his touchy-feely self shouldn't surprise me », Damon thought, annoyed.

- Are you freakin' kidding me ?! , he groaned. They make me wanna bang my head on a wooden wall on fire , and then stake myself with one of the remaining pieces of that wall. , he stated.

Stefan laughed and replied :

- Well, at least she found someone to make her happy and protect her while you were gone. You may have not expected that person to be Enzo, but he was the only one there for her when you dessicated. Her relationship with Enzo might be the only thing keeping her determined to live. So, that's a good thing, brother.

- Still, he was the one to give her these pills, Stef. Without checking for side effects. I wouldn't call poisonning the woman you're in love with a good thing. , Damon pointed.

Stefan sighed. From the other side of the phone, he could feel Damon's anger and disgust towards Bonnie and Enzo's relationship. And being his brother, he could also tell Damon was deeply hurt by the treatment his former best friend was giving him.

- Damon, you've been dead for 3 years, you abandoned her : what did you expect ?! You chose to leave her life, and Enzo chose to enter it. And from what I've seen, he's not planning on leaving anytime soon, so you should get used to it. Call me back when you know more about Rayna and those visions. , and he hung up, knowing Damon needed some time to digest the truth he had just told him.

BONNIE :

Sitting on the couch with Enzo's head on her laps, Bonnie was listening to him playing guitar. Every now and then, she would stroke his cheek, his hair, and smile at him lovingly. She felt peaceful. He genuinely made her happy, and she loved him for that.

But he was still on her mind. She hadn't been paying attention to him until he had left the small house, with this look of heartbreak and hurt on his face. She knew he had been watching them, and she knew he felt left out and ignored. That was exactly her intentions. Hurting him, like he did to her.

But she couldn't help feeling guilty. And it was annoying her. She was angry at herself for feeling any ounce of guilt towards that asshole. He had abandoned her, left her life as if she meant nothing to him. As if walking out of her existence was the easiest thing to do for him. So, she shouldn't be feeling this. She shouldn't be feeling anything for him, but anger and hurt.

Seeing him again, after all this time, was like emerging from the sweet side of her life and being thrown back into the dark side of it. All her demons were resurfacing and laughing right at her face, saying : « Huh ! Did you really think you could be happy for more than 3 years in your life ? Did you really think you could erase Damon Salvatore from your life, forever ? Well, not that easy sweetie pie ! ».

But on another side, seeing Damon again felt good. It felt familiar. And she couldn't deny the fact that he was the most important thing in her life at one point. She couldn't forget about him that easily. Maybe her brain had succeeded in erasing him, but not her heart.

And we all know who's stronger between those two. Her heart was holding onto Damon as if her life depended on it. He was bringing some sort of protection, of reassurance, that she needed.

Of course, Enzo brought her all of that : but we all know that Damon is much more passionate about his feelings. And she needed that passion, this possessive and overprotective side of Damon. Even though it was too much some time, she loved that about him, because she lacked it so much during her younger years. She had been denied so much affection before, that when she had developed that special bond and friendship with Damon, she had clinged onto that side of him. And she missed that, her heart missed that.

Suddenly noticing that Enzo had stopped playing guitar, she looked at him curiously :

- Why did you stop playing ? , she asked.

- Well...You seemed quite out of it for a moment, here. You okay ? , Enzo answered, a look of true concern on his face.

Bonnie sighed while stroking his hair absently. The conversation was coming, she thought...

- Yeah, I'm fine. I was just...thinking about the devil out there. , she rolled her eyes, trying to look annoyed, and convince Enzo that she was still extremely pissed at the blue-eyed vampire outside.

But Enzo knew better. During those three years, he had learned to know Bonnie very well. And he recognized that tone in her voice , that said she was feeling guilty about something. Didn't take a genius to know who was haunting her thoughts and why. Even though he hated Damon right now, and the close relationship she had had with him before, he knew Bonnie needed to talk to him. Really talk to him and pour her heart out. She was that kind of people that wouldn't let go of her emotions and anger until she had had the opportunity to express it fully. The fastest it was done, the better for the couple.

- Love, I think you should go talk to him. , he stated unexpectedly, with a serious look.

- Sorry ?! , Bonnie exclaimed, looking at him as if he had grown two heads, eyes wide.

Enzo sighed and sat up beside Bonnie, which was easier to be able to talk to her seriously. He gently set the guitar down and took Bonnie's hand in his. Bonnie looked at him all the while, curious to know what had led him to speak that statement.

- Listen. I know you're pissed at Damon, right now. And you have every right to be, after what he's done. Hell, I'm mad at him too for hurting you that badly ! But I also know that, as long as you won't speak to him, and I mean express yourself, you won't be able to move on. You need to face his explanations, love. For your own good. , he replied with his british accent.

Bonnie looked at their joined hands, kind of surprised by his words. She wasn't expecting that. Not from him, at least. She thought he would be the last one to tell her to talk to the person who hurt her the most. But, yeah, Enzo was that mature and that amazing. Of course he would put his insecurities and anger aside concerning Damon and her, and make sure that she does what needed to be done for her to be happy again, and over that madness that Damon had caused.

She looked at him in the eyes and smiled lightly, rubbing her thumb across Enzo's comforting hand.

- You're probably right...And I want to do it, I want to try and make things better with him, but at the same time, I don't. I'm just...so confused right now, it's killing me ! Why did he have to come back now ?! , she groaned and then sighed, rubbing her free hand against her forehead.

Enzo stared at her passionately, wanting nothing more than to ease her pain and anger. But all he could do was reassure her, trust her, trust Damon (that was the hard part) and hope that this conversation would make things better. At least for Bonnie. He didn't care if at the end, Bonnie decided to stay away from Damon, or be his best friend again : as long as she was happy with the decision, that's all that mattered to him. Her happiness. Bonnie's well-being would always come first, no matter what his personnal insecurities or fears were.

- The only way to not be confused anymore is to have a conversation with him, love. You need answers. Besides, he's still trying to save your life, and as much as he's annoying the hell out of me, you can't ignore that fact. Just sort things out before it drives you completely crazy. , he pointed, kissing her hand.

- Right... You're right. Guess I'm going now, then. It better be done now, so that I can forget about this faster. , she answered with a weak and not-so-enthusiastic smile.

Enzo just gaver her an encouraging smile and nodded.

- Thanks for the advice, baby. You're amazing ! I love you. , Bonnie thanked him, kissing him lightly on the lips.

- Anytime, beautiful. Now go, before he comes back.

Bonnie nodded and sighed heavily, before standing up and walking to the door. She quickly glanced one last time at Enzo, took a deep breath, before opening the door and stepping out to join Damon.

BAMON :

It didn't take her long to find him. He was sitting in the driver's seat of his blue Camaro, listening to whatever song that was playing on the radio. He seemed to be thinking deeply, with an intense look of concentration. She started to walk towards the car slowly, before stopping in her tracks. She really didn't know what she was going to say to him, and she feared his reaction. Funny, because it should be him who should fear her reaction.

« Come on Bonnie, just get it done with ! Just enter that stupid car and see what happens. You'll see how things go. You have to do it anyway, so pull yourself together ! » , her inner voice motivated her.

She approached, uncertain of the continuity of her action, and watched as Damon's eyes settled on her, his vampiric ears having heard her coming.

In one swift movement, she opened the passenger door and climbed in. He instantly turned off the radio.

For several seconds, Damon just watched her closely, impassive, as she shifted uncomfortably in her seat, not knowing where to start. He finally decided to break the silence after nearly one minute, impatient and curious to know what had brought her into his car. Her joining him was the last thing he thought would happen after that speech she had given him on loving Enzo and hating him with a passion.

- So... Finally decided to reconsider that « I-hate-you-more-than-anything-now-and-I-don't-want-to-talk-to-you-ever-again » thing ? , he asked with a smirk.

Bonnie rolled her eyes. Ironic, as usual. The man can never talk seriously, without throwing his sarcastic and ironic sentences.

- Don't take your dreams for reality. , she answered back, glaring at him.

- Then what are you here for, Bonbon ? , he tried again, doing that famous thing with his eyes and eyebrows, which was getting on her nerves.

- We need to talk. , Bonnie stated, finally looking at his blue orbs.

Again, feeling that this conversation was going to be very emotional and sentimental, which he abhorred, Damon tried to lighten the mood and make it much less dramatic than it was.

- What ? You mean you didn't get in my car so we could run away in the sunset and escape from Mister Pills over there ?! , he smirked suggestively.

Okay : that was going to be way harder than she thought, Bonnie told herself. Not even five minutes that she was in that car, and there he was, already annoying her and irritating her. He really was a piece of work !

On the other hand, Damon was nervous. He knew he was pissing her off right now, with his shitty attitude, but he couldn't help it. He could feel her heart beating faster than usual, and that meant Bonnie was dealing with important and serious things right now. And in all honesty, after what she had told him earlier on, he had had enough. Enough to be seen as the biggest asshole of the whole universe. He just wanted to be given a chance to explain himself, his decision. There he said it : Bonnie had hurt him. She had hurt his feelings, badly. And he just didn't want her to add some more on top of it, and emplify his despair.

- Enough with the irony, Damon. I'm serious. I just want to understand. I'm fed up with this situation, with fighting with you any chance I get, fed up with being upset. And mad. And pissed. And angry. Well, you get the picture. , she said, looking dead serious.

Damon sighed, seeing that nothing he'd do or say could avoid this needed conversation. So, moving to face her completely, he questioned :

- Okay. Let's do it, then. What do you want to know ?

- I want to know why. Why did you dessicate ? Why did you abandon me ? Why was it so easy for you to walk out of my life ? , Bonnie confessed, hurt evident in her voice.

The blue-eyed vampire took a deep breath, looking for the right words to make sure she understood him, before speaking :

- Remember that day at The Armory, with your dear Enzo and his plan to give me as a dinner to Lockwood ?! , Damon questioned, locking his eyes with her green ones.

Not understanding what it had to do with her questions, Bonnie nodded anyways.

- You saved me on that day, Bon. You chocked off Enzo's hand, remember ? So you could open the door, for me. , he continued.

- Yeah, well... If only I knew what you were gonna do to me later on, I would've left you there. , she huffed.

Damon just glared at her, annoyed she had interrupted his speech.

- No interruptions, Missy, thanks. You wanted answers, here they are, so just shut up and listen ! , he stated, watching as she stopped herself from replying. Good. So, as I was saying, I was able to get out of that room, thanks to you, and live another day in the sunset. But, you also got hurt badly on that day, by Lockwood.

Bonnie stared at him as he looked away, thinking back to that day where he had truly believed Bonnie was not going to make it. She noticed that look of pain and sadness in his blue eyes, as if what he was telling her and remembering was the hardest thing to do for him. She got even more confused. She thought she didn't matter to him, that's why he had dessicated, right ?!

- You almost died on that day, Bon ! I thought I was really going to kill that wolf ! But I didn't : first, because I knew you wouldn't want that, and second, because I had to take care of you and I could handle him later. I tried giving you my blood, thought everything was going to be okay, that you would open your annoying little judgy eyes, say « thank you, Damon » and then get up so I could speed us out of here. , he explained passionately.

The beautiful witch softened at the mention of him not succombing to his « killer-mode » like he would do with Elena, for her. He seemed genuinely touched by this episode, and she couldn't deny the fact that it warmed her heart.

- But you didn't do any of this. You just layed there, unconscious, not responsible to any of my calls, nor my vampire blood. I freaked out, I panicked. You weren't healing, Bonnie ! I thought you were dying ! So, I did what was left to do : I took you to the hospital, hoping they could help. , he said, eyes getting intense and a little wet, Bonnie noticed.

She was a bit taken aback by all of this feelings Damon had felt that day, and that he was willingly sharing with her. She knew it took a lot of him to open himself like he was doing right now. So, she calmed her anger and hurt, feeling like it was legitimate in front of an emotional Damon.

- By the way, you weren't healing, because your boyfriend out there, had injected some weird crap in you, that disabled any magic. I had to wait til it was completely out of your system to heal you. I stayed the night, making sure you were healing, once it was done. , he shook his head. You can't even imagine what it was like to see you on that hospital bed, unconscious, because of me ! Because you had put your life in jeopardy to save me ! It wasn't supposed to happen, you were not supposed to die, or get hurt, for me. So that's when I made my decision : I thought the best way to prevent anything from happening to either you or my brother, the two most important persons of my life, was to take myself out of the equation. This way, none of you would try protecting me, you wouldn't risk your life for me. I was your biggest danger, to Stefan and to you. , the vampire finished,staring passionately and intensely in Bonnie's hazel eyes, hoping she would understand his reasons.

Bonnie felt her heat skip a beat. And then beat like crazy. She was overwhelmed by Damon's confessions, drowned in his words. She could feel the pain, the sadness, the anger, the fear radiating off of him. It was resourceful, in a way. She couldn't believe that was his real reason for dessicating. Because it was even worse than what she had thought. It meant that, even while caring about her, like he claimed, he still had find the strength to abandon her. It meant he had abandoned her, like every single person that had claimed they loved her had done : her mother, Jeremy, her father, her Grams, and now him. She honestly didn't know what to feel right now, what to think of him and his actions, what to say, or how to react. She was completely and utterly lost.

Taking her green orbs away from Damon's intense stare, Bonnie exclaimed :

- Wow. , she swallowed hard. So, that's it ? You dessicated to protect me and Stefan ?

- Yep ! Pretty much selfless from me, huh ? Guess I owe you that ! , he confirmed with a wink.

- No, that's still selfish Damon. Because you thought about you again, about the guilt you would have felt if anything had happened to one of us. And you chose to escape that possible issue. And you also didn't think , for one second , about the impact your decision would have on our life. Our advice didn't matter to you, once more. You didn't care how we would feel about your choice, you did it anyway : you took this decision alone, without consulting me or Stefan. So again, Damon, you acted like a selfish bastard ! , Bonnie gritted behind her teeth. She still didn't understand him.

Seeing Bonnie's not-so-positive reaction, Damon got fed up and tired. He had just poured his heart out to her, and it still wasn't enough. This woman was driving him insane, he swore. It was the first time he opened himself that much about one of his decision : he never explained himself , usually. To nobody. Because he felt like people didn't deserve nor need to know why he was doing what he was doing. If he wanted to do something, then he would, and he didn't care about anyone's opinion about it. But with Bonnie, it was different. He admired her, he respected her, he adored her. He wanted to stay in her good graces, show her he could be good. She inspired him, she genuinely made him want to be better, for himself. So, he had to explain everything to her, because he needed her to understand : he needed her to see he loved her. Even though he had a hard time actually saying it.

Groaning, and releasing a long breath, Damon finally lost his cool, fixing her hard :

- DAMN IT BONNIE ! Do you REALLY think it was that easy to let you go ?! That it was that simple to leave your life, and abandon you ? Do you really think I genuinely wanted to do that ?! Well, let me tell you : OF COURSE NOT ! It was the hardest thing I've ever made in my life. The hardest decision I've taken through my entire existence, human and vampire. It broke me, Bonnie. But you know what broke me even more ? The fact that you could die. So yeah, I made a mistake, because I should've stayed by your side and fought with you, but what's done is done. I can't change it. So all you need to know is that I did it because I cared about you, because I couldn't handle the thought of you dying because of me. That's what you need to remember, because if you want to hold onto that anger, then I can't do anything to change that. I explained myself, I told you why I dessicated, I opened my heart to you : now it's your turn to make a decision and either forgive me, or forget about me. I can't do more. It's up to you.

And on that, he opened the door and got out of the car, heading to the small house.

He had had enough already. He had opened himself too much, and he couldn't do it anymore. What he had said and revealed to her was already a gigantic step for him. So now, Bonnie had to take upon herself, and do the other half of the work. Because they couldn't get past their argument if she didn't decide, at one point, to reconsider her anger, and choose to make things better. It was not going to work if he was the only one willing to repair their broken relationship. Now, he just had to wait for her to come around, hoping that she would accept to give him another chance.

Surprised by Damon's speech and sudden exit of the car, Bonnie stayed still. She was a little bit shaken after what he had said , for her to react immediatly. But as she saw him making his way over the house, she got out of the vehicle too, catching with him. It wouldn't end like this : he had had the opportunity to explain himself and talk, so now, he was going to listen to her. Because she had things to say too. And important ones.

- DAMON ! Wait ! , she screamed, catching his attention as he stopped and turned around. We. Are. Not. Finished. I listened to you all the while, I let you explain yourself. So now, you're gonna do the same and let me tell you what I feel. , she ordered, daring him to try and walk away with her eyes.

Knowing better, and curious, Damon didn't move one muscle. After all, she was right : he also needed to know what she was feeling, what was making her so angry, what had caused her so much pain.

Lifting his eyebrows, searching for her eyes, he simply nodded. He said nothing, urging her to go on. That's what Bonnie did, after seeing he wouldn't be going anywhere.

- I'm not gonna beat around the bush : what you did felt like you were spitting on our friendship, to me. I felt like everything we had gone through, since you arrived in Elena's life, meant nothing to you. I felt like I meant nothing to you. I figured if you could walk that easily out of my life, then it meant I wasn't that important. And that's what hurt me. Because you were the most important person of my life at that time, Damon. I would've done literally anything for you. And I genuinely thought that you would be the last person to abandon me. Being friends with you made me change in a good way : you challenged me, pushed me to be more selfish, to allow myself some happiness. You were the first one to protect me and put me first... You were here for me, and I needed that. So when you dessicated, it all came crashing down on me. It was like a big slap in the face, you throwing my friendship and love for you right back at my face. It's a horrible feeling, worse than anything I have felt until then : even worse than my mother abandoning me a second time. And then the fact you just said goodbye in a letter, like it was no big deal and like our friendship didn't deserve more than a few words : that did it for me. So to shut off all these unbearable emotions, I chose the easy way : hatred. , she finally let out.

Her eyes were wet, and a single tear was rolling on her right cheek. Sign that she didn't allow herself to cry in front of him, which crushed his heart even more. He didn't know what to say. Bonnie's words had broken him. He couldn't imagine what she had felt. Well yeah, he could : because that's probably what he would have felt if she had abandoned him, or worse, if she had died. But how could he make her feel better ?

Guilt and pain obvious in his voice, the vampire whispered whole-heartedly :

- God, I'm so sorry, Bon...

The gorgeous caramel-skinned woman just nodded while whipping her tear and let out a small smile :

- I know. , she confirmed, before taking a breath and staring at her former best friend. But I need time. , she finally said, tearing her eyes away from the vampire that was slowly starting to make his way back into her broken heart.

And, walking past him, she headed towards the cozy little cabin, without another word.

- Just so you know : I'm willing to fight for your forgiveness, even if it takes a while. , he precised, watching her back attentively.

The witch stopped for a second, without turning around, before continuing her path. Once she had reached the door, she quickly got inside and searched for her boyfriend, Damon's intense stare never leaving her back all the while. But he still had missed her small satisfied smile, at his statement.

****************** TO BE CONTINUED ********************

Thanks for reading ! So, what do you think is gonna happen next ? Feel free to leave a comment and let me think what you thought about the writing, the story...etc. Know there's more to follow : it will be a very short story with maybe 1 or 2 more chapters. Sorry for any mistake : english is not my first language !

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