Alphonse,
I'm sorry for running off before I got the chance to talk to you properly but I really couldn't stay. I don't know how much Edward told you about my situation if anything and I know I have always been particularly tight lipped on the subject. Probably, now more than ever, the less you know the better.
I am writing because I just wanted to thank you for everything you have done for me. You, Envy, Mustang, Hughes and Edward changed my life in more ways than I could possibly have imagined, especially Edward, and for that I will be eternally grateful.
Please don't think that I don't care or that I don't value your friendship or that what you have done for me has any less meaning by me telling you that I have to leave and go back, because it doesn't. I just can't bare the thought of anyone else getting hurt because of me. I guess you could say I care to much... either than or I'm just a coward. I'm not sure...
I could fill pages and pages of reasons why I'm going back and why I think it would be best for all of you if I just stayed away from you but I feel I would just be repeating myself. All I want to say for now is, once again, I'm sorry for everything that happened and how things turned out. I'm not sorry that I met you but I wish it had been under different circumstances. I wish it had been earlier because then, maybe, I could have been happy and could have stayed with you all. Please don't come looking for me, I've already caused you enough pain and trouble. Just know that I am so grateful to have met you and I will never forget what you have done for me.
I wish you all the happiness that life may bring you because you deserve it. All my love, thoughts and memories,
Kaoru
Hi this is Holly! So a little while ago Pandora and I decided to write some darkfics for each other. That being said, this is the level of dark I'm talking about: graphic descriptions of rape and sexual abuse (multiple instances), graphic descriptions of violence (multiple instances), major character death, blackmail/coercion and an abusive relationship. So yeah, it's going to be a wild ride - just letting you know what you're in for with this fic.