Hey guys, this is going to be a multi-chaptered fic. The different chapters come with a (in my opinion) fitting song, that expresses the way the characters feel.

Neither PH nor the songs are mine...

Chapter 1 features All the words by Kutless.

I am no native speaker, but I hope you will enjoy the fic nonetheless.

All the words

All of the words in all of my life that could never explain and never describe/
All of my love, which is nothing to hide so I lift up my hands and I worship/
I worship You.

Sometimes I still can't believe it's really you, standing there with blazing green eyes and hair gleaming like the sun itself, no even brighter, to me at last…

Sometime I just wish that I had the courage to speak freely to you, just once, only once…

Since I'm well aware of my feelings for you I'd like to know your heart as well. But I will never ask...(since I already know)

All those words piled up in me over 10 long years, years full of visions of your smiling face, your kind but yet mischievous eyes…

I'll never forget how it felt when you were taken from me and oh the joy when you came back…

First, I didn't want you to know who I am, I thought we could maybe have a fresh start, not as servant and master but a friends and then maybe later I'd have told you my true identity.

But I'm fine with being your servant, really. I'd be fine with anything as long as I am allowed to stay by your side. I'd even put up with that baka-usagi for you. Nonetheless, I wished she would have just stayed where she belongs. Since you came back with her…

You're still talking to her over there at the window, laughing ,smiling, stroking her head... Why can't it be m- ...

No….

It's not my place over there in the light with you.

The shadow fits me well enough, since you told her she is your sun…

I never told you that you're mine…

Sometimes I can hardly breathe, when I look at you, sometimes it feels like my heart stops when you're just saying my name.

When I see that baka-usagi talking to you, I dream of kicking her straight out of the house and I am not the violent type.

When I see you wandering about from time to time, with that forlorn look into your eyes, I feel like running to you, taking you into my arms and…..

I will give you my everything, without you asking for it. Just your presence puts together my broken self and lets me forget that I'm nobody. Someone without a past, lost in a maze full of broken memories. But as long as I am by your side I have a future to fight fo,r even if I can just watch you and bathe in the light that is Oz Vessalius.

And from time to time I even allow myself to imagine how you would react if I said all those words to you…

But…but then I watch you more closely and I see the truth.

You hug her when she is lost in HER broken memories.

You show her a side of you that I don't even know of.

I saw you risk your life for her more than once and the light in your eyes when you watch her smile.

And I always remember how you said that she is your sun.

But even if I have a reason to scorn her I can't, since she is the most precious thing in the world to you and I have sworn to myself to never make you sad again, to never again bear to be separated from you.

As long as I can be at your side, I can bear anything. I am not going to fight for your love since I'm fully aware of the fact that I have already lost.

Because you said to that you do not regard me as your servant, but as your best friend, always….

Have a nice evening!

Ary