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Warnings: Possible M/M Content, some Star Trek stuff including Klingonese, No Like No Read
Title: Soul of the Badger
Author(s): Jazzy and Jazzy2may2
Betas: none currently, hope to get a beta or two eventually.
Rating: PG for now may change later
Pairing: Uncertain at the moment, still thinking it through. I am a SS/RL fan but I also love and adore LE/SS as well. Maybe I will make it a triumvirate. I don't know and can't say at this time. So right now, no, there are no pairings currently for this story. As they age they will pair off eventually.
Genera: AU, Marauders Era Hogwarts, Humor, Angst, Possible M/M Romance, Possible F/M Romance
Summary: Severus Snape and his mother had plans, ambitions, until a certain Sorting Hat interferes. Has there ever been a Dark Hufflepuff? Well, there is now. Warnings inside.
Soul of the Badger
Part One
In the beginning it was a cold and bleak day, as miserable as any other day. For severus it was an average day in Spinner's End. The rain came down in sheets. The smoke from the factory polluted the air and made it dismal.
Severus Snape was now eleven years old and he was going to be boarding the Hogwarts Express. He looked forward to escaping the refuse that was Spinner's End. He looked forward to starting a new life side by side with his best friend Lily Evans from two blocks down.
The young muggle-born witch and he had become the very best of friends during the past 4yrs.
They met each other on a warm summer day in the park close to Spinner's End. Severus had been hiding there in the scant foliage of bushes and wild flowers from his abusive father and escaping his mother's sharp tongue and piercing eyes. Severus had watched the two sisters in secret a few times before but this time he was witness to the younger sister's accidental magic. She was a sprite of a girl, full of joy and fun, laughing green eyes, and magic played off her as easily as breathing. Bursting forth from his hiding place in the bushes, Severus finally made their acquaintance and as usual due to his social awkwardness and unfortunate personality he insulted them however Lily had befriended him anyway, forgiving him immediately. How quickly the time passed and now here they were old enough now to board the train bound for Hogwarts.
Eileen Prince Snape, was a sour woman who had lost much of her pride along the years married to a drunken muggle lout. Life had been hard on her and Severus, with a husband that had gone from loving and decent to hard nosed, angry, and abusive in the twelve years since Tobias Snape had married her. He had grown to fear and hate his own son as well as the wife he professed to still love when he wasn't in a terrible temper and ill from drinking.
They were born with magic at their finger tips and singing in their blood. His mother taught him the ways of the wizarding world and their customs, taking pride in how easily Severus absorbed the knowledge and magic she showed to him. The Prince line was full of powerful wizards and that Severus would be just as powerful as his ancestors. He showed signs of brilliance and genius especially as he had manifested his magic before leaving the cradle. His mind had been ravenous for learning; no muggle school had been equipped to deal with someone as strange and hungry for knowledge as her son. She believed that her son would achieve greatness and do great things proving to the magic world that though his blood was tainted his magic was not.
He would do very well in either Slytherin, her own house, or her Mother's house, Ravenclaw.
She had ambitions more for her son then for herself. She was hoping Severus would see the opportunities before him and seize them with both hands to create a better life for himself than the one she had provided for him. She hoped he would remember her when the time came, and would ask her to join him by returning to the Wizarding world once he had his life set up and a shop ready for the two of them.
She had hopes they would open an apothecary shop together to call their own. A brewers delight, a heaven for potions master and assistant. She knew her son would be a master and herself his assistant she had some talent but no where near his. She would enjoy caring for the shop while her son brewed and would become renowned for his talents.
With a wave of her wand Severus' duffle bag, worn and used from when Tobias was an active soldier, was packed with shrunken books, potions ingredients, cauldrons, shoes and hand-me down rags from her own closet. Severus was lucky to be so thin and able to fit readily into her old school robes. Everything they owned was either from her childhood or from second hand shops, they had bargained for in Diagon alley and the poorer districts in the wizarding world.
Severus stood for a moment longer looking his home over carefully, memorizing its dilapidated slumping shape with peeling paint and dirty windows. He wanted to remember where he had come from and that he had no plans of returning to such a life after Hogwarts. He had plans for a real future; rich and glorious away from his Father, away from the muggle world and far, far, away from Spinners End.
He would miss his mother and he supposed on some level he would indeed miss this rabble of drafty crooked boards and cracked windows. He would not miss his father or the hatred in his eyes. He would not miss the beltings or the abusive vitriol that poured from his father's curled sneering lips his words like acid meant to melt Severus down to an inferior puddle of goo to stomp through, like a patch of mud. No he would not miss his father, not at all.
Severus hugged his frog. It was a handsome magical toad, large and warty, raised from spawn that Severus had caught and tamed and trained himself. He wished he could have had a cat or an owl but he supposed a Toad would just have to do until he could save up enough for an owl.
He was nervous to leave his mother behind. He felt guilty that he was allowed to escape this prison but not his mother. He didn't want to leaver her here to face his father day in and day out all alone.
His mother's black weary eyes fully focused on him, she did not smile, she only stood there meeting his eyes and she said, "Don't worry Sevvie. Just do well on your studies. Make a name for yourself in the Wizarding world then come home for me. I will be happy to help you in your potions shop some day. Do me proud son. Work hard and make the right connections and you will go far, so much farther then I ever have or ever will. I look forward to that day Sevvie."
She looked him up and down in his school robes, as if taking his measure then she corrected her self by telling him, "No, you are no longer Sevvie, you are no longer a baby but a young man, today you are Severus, taking his first step into adulthood and into a bright future. Don't let me down Son I am depending on you."
It was a heavy weight on his shoulders but he would willingly carry such a burden if it helped him to further his mother's and his own goals. He told himself to not forget Lily she would be there with him too. She will help you. She's your best friend. She wants to see you succeed as badly as mother does. He smiled his slight shy grin, hiding his crooked teethe behind thin lips and dark hair the same color as his eyes, black like coal or a raven's feather.
He was a mixture of both his mother's and father's features. Neither of them were much to look at. Plain in looks, hag like. However, if they had smiled or had a different personality they could have pulled off an exotic beauty. His nose was too large for his narrow face, a stubborn chin, wide dark eyes hidden under long fine silken hair that grew greasy much too quickly to be natural, it was an unfortunate trait of the Prince line. One Eileen had also suffered but for the grace of expensive hair products or luckily enough potions she brewed herself.
She had been sheltered in her home at Prince manor, pampered and loved, but held to strict protocol and decorum - the same standards to which she held Severus to. If she had been able to and had not alienated her parents in taking off with Tobias Snape she could have raised Severus in some luxuries but instead they had lived in poverty and worse. Lack of hygiene and hair products the least of their concerns most days in this muggle hell she had carved out for herself and her son.
A boy should never smell of flowers unless they had come in from the garden. His mother believed a man should smell nice but not feminine She believed that very firmly and would not permit Severus any leniency in this matter and so he had not been permitted such hair products, whether self brewed or brewed by his mother and sold to neighbors for barely a pence worth.
Though he did wish often that he'd been allowed the hair products anyway so he could have squeaked by with less harassment for his greasy locks. Unfortunately it just wasn't meant to be.
Severus was lanky, long and slender as his mother was; he seemed destined to grow tall and willowy if the mal nourishment didn't take hold and stunt his growth. On a man such slenderness was attractive but on a woman though, it was a very sad figure for a female. Eileen had suffered for her bone structure, sharp angular facial features, her too lean tall thin frame and tiny chest. School had been a cruelty all its own. She had run away from it, thrown it all away for a muggle man in royal army uniform.
It seemed the kind of romance in fairy tales or romance novels went on about, unfortunately being a witch, a true witch, with true power had brought her happy ending to a terrible life of heartache, physical and emotional pain. Pain she would not wish for Severus to suffer.
He had been a good man at the time. He hadn't been handsome exactly but there had been something striking about him. Something which she couldn't have denied, Tobias back then had confidence and charm in spades. It had felt like being struck by lightening when she had first met Tobias. Love at first sight. Back then, when she had first met that wonderfully handsome devil she never would have believed him capable of the cruelty he showed her and their son now days.
She hoped Severus would find an advantageous match in Slytherin or Ravenclaw. She wished him love but wanted better for her son then a love that as quickly as it had come upon her had died as quickly a death at her husband's rejection.
She counted on Severus's sharp mind to catch himself a fine wife, though he had a sharper tongue learned at his mother's knee and from his father's temper. A temper he was misfortunate enough to have inherited from both of his parents. But still she hoped and prayed he would find a partner to carry through life with, someone to give him a family, and a home free of fear and violence.
Coming back from her thoughts she asked, "Ready to go Severus?" she smiled briefly on her gifted son, her only child, a rare warm smile overflowing with pride that had an obvious affect.
Severus straightened his shoulders and stood more proudly. "I am mother."
"Good."
With a wave of her wand and the image affixed fully in her mind mother and son apparated with a crack of displaced air and energized power, swirling into the other space, stepping through from one place to the next, where they landed in their determined place, the platform 9 and ¾. At the train station students and parents apparated much as they had, or scurried hurriedly using muggle transport and their own two legs to enter the platform area.
The Hogwarts express had not changed one iota from when Eileen Snape, Eileen Prince back then, had been a firsty and was about to take her first ever ride on a train. She had been a shy girl back then, terrified but crafty and cunning otherwise she never would have been sorted into Slytherin. She'd had dreams back then, ambitions! Now all of her dreams and ambitions lived on in her son, and he far more then she, had the talent and power to make it come true, all of it.
"Be well son and do well. I have to go. I wish I could stay longer but Tobias has a schedule and I am to stick to it or else." She gave her son a quick peck on the forehead then quickly apparated away leaving her son behind and alone feeling adrift in a sea of anxiety, bumped into and harassed by other first years and upwards, all these kids and parents saying goodbye to one another or kids meeting up with new friends from school or teaming up with allies they had grown up with.
It seemed as if Severus was the only one alone on the platform. He hoped he hadn't missed Lily or that Lily hadn't changed her mind and wouldn't show up for the Hogwarts Train or hoped that Lily wasn't running late and would miss the train. He had wanted to ride the train with her. He hadn't wanted to be alone. He had wanted to be with his best friend. He had wanted to feel her joy and see her excitement. She was so full of thrilling emotions. She made him feel less like a wraith and more like a living breathing very real young man.
He wondered if this was what love was? And if so it was very different from what he felt for his mother. He wondered if this was the kind of love that declared itself and demanded marriage and if it was that kind of love; wasn't he far too young to be experiencing it?
He knew Lily didn't feel the same for him that he felt for her. She was his best friend. She called him her brother. Perhaps someday she would feel something more for him? The same things he feels for her, perhaps? If he had trusted in divination he would check the cards, stars, lifelines, tea leaves or even a crystal ball to find the answers to his questions in. However as young as Severus was, he was still far too practical, far too cynical, and did not believe in divination at all.
He did not think divination was worth a single thought over. Divination was a bunch of charlatan sleight of hand junk that only truly dull witted dunderheads or the truly naïve and foolish believed in, and Severus Snape was neither of those things.
Pensive he continued to wait for any sign of his friend's arrival. Gloom surrounding him like a fog in the early mornings. Suddenly his Toad, Maximus, or as Lily called him, Maxy, gave a loud trilling sound, almost a frog song, the kind they sang to attract a mate, but which was Maximus' call for Lily and for Severus' attention, as a strong soft girlish body slammed into him.
Said body was shouting joyfully. "SEVERUS! I found you! I found you!" Lily smiled widely, full of happiness.
There wasn't any guile at all in Lily. Her emotions, her expressions, her thoughts were always loud and clear. He knew she would not end up in Slytherin but he did hope she would at the very least go to Ravenclaw or the Gods forbid, Hufflepuff, but anywhere was far better than that appalling brawn over brain, glory seeking hounds known as Gryffindor. Lily was brave but she had a clever mind and Severus hoped it was her thirst of knowledge that won out over her appalling fearlessness.
The Evans' were an understanding and kind family. They had willingly opened their arms and hearts to their daughter's emerging magic and had welcomed Severus as well as supported his role as friend and guide to Lily in this new world that was solely theirs, Lily's and Severus', theirs alone. The Evans could not join their daughter in understanding or in growing of magic. They were muggles and had very little to zero magic ability within them. Lily's mother was very loving but she could be stern or even cold at times.
Mister Evans was a jolly man, a very laid back yet hard working man who loved his family more than anything in the world. He was careful of Severus, of Spinner's End folk, and cautious of magic, but that did not mean he didn't like or even trust the boy. He did. Mr. Evans liked and trusted Severus.
Petunia Evans though was a whole other matter altogether. She was mean, judgmental, all about how people see her and judge her. She was always calling Lily a freak and pushing Lily away from her. Hurting Lily's feelings on an almost daily basis, sending her in tears to the park where she would then cry on Severus' shoulder for hours until Severus thought of some game or other to cheer her up and bring her out of her sadness.
Mr. and Mrs. Evans smiled and hugged them both, making up for Severus' mother's swift departure. The Evans spent until the last minute with the two children making sure they had everything packed and they were aware to send them mail every week and that if anything happened they could rely on mama and papa Evans to take care of things. Lily had an Owl she had gotten from Aelops' Owlery, a snowy owl with large amber eyes.
The two first years, childhood best friends, boy and girl, held each other's hands neither of them willing to let go of the other as they embarked on their new journey and new life together. In Sev's hair road his large toad proudly and proprietarily, while his wand was in his hand ready in case of anything, Severus' other hand lay in hers, fingers intertwined, with her Owl in its cage in her other hand.
It seemed at first a dream coming true. Everything was going to be different. No more father to terrorize him or beat him or lock him out side the house in a fit of temper. He'd be treated as any wizard child would be and not be treated as odd, strange, or different. He truly believed he would be treated differently from the way he had been treated all of his life by his angry muggle father, muggle relatives, and by ignorant muggle children in his neighborhood or in his few years in muggle school before his mother took him out of school and turned teacher to him full time.
Those ignorant muggles had called him names, picking on him for no other reason than the mere fact that he had magic or that he was a little strange. Here in the wizarding world being strange was the norm. He didn't expect wizard children would bully him because he had greasy hair, dark looks, and carried himself in a way to minimize being noticed that meant hiding in plain sight, using shadows to cover him from ugly hateful gazes.
Lily smiled excitedly as they made their way onto the train, she tried to get Sev to loosen up and be less shadowy. She tried to reassure him that there was no need to hide here. Lily tried to bolster his confidence and reassure him that this wasn't Spinner's End and this train didn't have his father on it.
What she and Severus had not been expecting was for two loud brash boys to come upon them and much like their muggle counter parts they chose out of the two of them Severus to pick on. Severus would remember their names for all time as James Potter and Sirius Black. His arch-enemies and rivals.
They could plainly see something was not normal about Severus, that he seemed dark in a way they could not understand, even though one boy had come from a Dark home, all he could think of was it was obvious the boy was a dark wizard, especially when he was talking about being sorted into Slyerethin. Because Severus was talking about Slytherin house and Ravenclaw. But mainly they had taken offense to Severus because he spoke proudly and warmly of the reviled Slytherin house. The house was known for its dark wizards and most recent evil incarnate, Voldermorte.
When Severus would have taken them on alone his best friend reminded him tersely in Klingonese: "a warrior does not let a friend face danger alone"
"Heghlu'meH QaQ jajvam" ("Yes, and today is a good day to die")
Lily stood up made comments about people who shouldn't interrupt other peoples conversations, Severus stood up to back his friend in case either of the two tried something on Lily. Together they managed to get the two Gryffindors-to-be, to leave them alone for the rest of the ride to Hogwarts but there were moments when the two boys would start making fun of Severus and even of Lily, which Severus and Maximus wouldn't stand for. But Lily held him back from actively throwing hexes and jinxes at the snide toe rags, Sirius Black and James Potter.
Severus would remember them. He would hold their names engraved on a list in his heart, where vengeance was planned, and would be served quite cold.
Revenge is a dish best served cold – Klingon Proverb.
TBC
Author Note: In honor of the Star Trek fan that I am and have made Severus Snape and Lily Evans into, they will quite often be quoting or speaking from the books listed below. ^_^
Okrand, Marc (1997). Klingon for the Galactic Traveler: The Klingon Way: A Warrior's Guide; and The Klingon Dictionary and other website like Wikipedia The Ferengi Rules of Acquisition
All Copyright of Pocket Books, Simon & Shuster, Paramount, StarTrek, and Gene Roddenberry.
Some general background about StarTrek: Star Trek was telecast on NBC in the United States from September 8, 1966, through June 3, 1969…. So I figure since both Lily and Sev are children of the 70's it is quite possible for them to be sci-fi fans, huge fans of star trek. I do not know when Star Trek found its way to England but for this story it came out about the time of Lily and Sev's childhood. Sev would sneak over to the Evans' house and watch StarTrek with Lily and her Dad. :D
Though Klingonese did not come into actual existence until 1979 and more dominantly in the 1990s, I am going to pretend it came along at the same time as the show.
I LOVE ALTERNATE UNIVERSES and this story is all about the alternate universe. I can pretend things came along earlier or later then in our reality.
AU baby, long live the AU. :D
NEXT CHAPTER COMING VERY SOON
also in the works: A Blind Severus story, Part Two of A Slytherin's Worst Nightmare, and a Hufflepuff Draco Malfoy story.
Thank you for reading. sincerely, Jazzy and Jazzy2may2.
