It's not easy being invisible. I know that sounds like something everybody thinks in a place like this, but I actually think I am invisible to most students in this thrice-damned school. Even in my own house, no one pays me any notice. Ask someone - anybody - what I look like, and I am sure they will ask who you are talking about. But that's just how it is being Daphne Greengrass. And on the off chance that someone is paying me attention, they will believe I am deliberately staying out of everyone's way. Just playing the role of the 'Ice Queen'. Ha. What kind of an 'Ice Queen' am I? It's no fault of my own that I have no friends. They could approach me if they wanted to and I'd welcome them. I'd welcome anyone willing to give friendship a try.
I don't know whether to blame myself or father. He always told me to stand down, to follow along and watch, conform so that you can learn weaknesses. I could have refused, but I did not. I just went along with it, the very thing he ordered me to do. Did he mean follow him, or others? Or both? I could not tell, I still cannot. I just go along with the flow, always on the edge, waiting for something to pull me out of it, some grand adventure to define me and make me visible to the people in this school.
I do not know who I am any more. The mask is up when I am at home too, even with Astoria I am not myself. I'm just a blank shell for anyone to project a personality in to. Is that right?