Everyone always says I'm unhappy

A/N: Hey everyone! How are you? Good I hope! So as you're waiting for the next chapter of Ghosts of the Past I thought maybe you'd enjoy this. (It's not very good though) Don't own Beyblade.

Everyone always says I'm unhappy.

Am I?

It's been so long since I was happy that I can honestly say I've forgotten what it feels like. But when I watch the others I can try to imagine what it would be like.

To let go of my past, to forget all about what's wrong with my life, me, and the world I live in. To just live in the moment and enjoy it. It sounds easy enough but I've been trying for years now and have yet to succeed. At points I've come so close I could almost feel it; a sense of warmth and peace, to only have it slip away like sand through my fingers.

Others make it seem so easy and I wonder if maybe there's something wrong with me. Should finding happiness be this hard? Am I really so jaded that I'm incapable of it and will never reach it?

Tala seemed to be having the same troubles as me, but lately something changed. There's a light in his eyes and his laugh no longer holds the bitterness that it once held.

How did he do it?

I'd give anything to know his secret, but I'd never ask him. He'd probably laugh at me and if he did it on his own then so can I! I won't let him show me up, hell even Bryan has gotten better.

His eyes are no longer blank. Although sadness can be seen in them, they also hold a fiery determination. He's found something to drive him, to help him keep going until he's gotten past everything that haunts his mind.

He's almost there he's so close to reaching it: happiness.

Everyone is moving on while I'm still stuck in the past, and now I'm being left behind. But I won't allow this to keep going on; soon I'll catch up with them.

It might take a while, but I'm willing to keep trying until I get past this and move on. I'll keep going and one day I'll leave this all behind and it will become a distant memory. I won't give up until I reach my goal. And one day I will.

But until then I'm free to pursue,

this illusive thing they call happiness.

Don't forget to R&R

Yours truly,

ForeverFalling