Part One
He stood in the hospital, the baby in his arms, the little girl, so helpless, so innocent. He looked down at her in his arms, everything else didn't matter, he was totally immersed into the little girls face, every time she made a movement he recorded it in his mind, like it was the top story in his world for news. He smiled a bit as she pushed her hand up to his chin, looking briefly at him with her bright brown eyes, so like his. He took her hand in his, so that she didn't scratch him and also because he just wanted to feel her, even if her whole hand only wrapped around his little finger.
"She's so like you." a voice said from the woman in the hospital bed.
"Is she?" he replied, as if he couldn't see how she looked just like him and how gentle her personality was, just like his. "Yes." the voice said from the bed, nodding, her eyes welled as she watched them both standing at the end of the bed, sideways to her. He couldn't take his eyes off her, he was totally engaged in her personality. He'd do anything for her, anything at all, but he couldn't be her father, that was something he just couldn't be.
"I'm sorry, I'll try and visit." he said, placing the girl back in the little tank like cot the hospital had provided and covering her up cosily. He kissed his fingers and placed it on the girl's nose, running his finger through her hair once and then walking to the chair beside the bed. He put his coat on and then his scarf and gloves, leaning over the bed a little to kiss the girl in the bed's lips. He smiled a bit, "Well done, you did well. I'm just sorry." he nodded and exhaled a breath. "Right, I'll come again soon." he said, the girl nodded.
"I understand, Remus, don't worry." she said, some of her dark curls falling from her ponytail, and she turned away. Remus left, he was already out of the door by the time she was crying, he knew she would. He arrived back in his flat, putting his wand in the inside wand pocket of his jacket. He put his hand over his mouth, his eyes welling up and he sniffed, taking his hand away and looking up at the ceiling, taking a few deep breaths. He took his coat, scarf and gloves off and left them on the back of the chair, going into the kitchen and making himself a cup of tea. He didn't fancy going back to Hogwarts yet, and it was a good job that he didn't have to go, as it was half term.
He ate alone as usual, went to bed alone, and spent the next two days alone. He then decided to go back to the hospital, to see the situation as to when the two were going home. During the birth there had been some complications, so the Healers had wanted her to stay in for a few days afterwards. Remus arrived on the ward dressed pretty much as how he'd left a few days earlier. He walked in, kissing the girl's lips and then picking up their baby.
"When are you both leaving and where are you going to?" he asked her, not looking at her, but he didn't blame her, how could he blame her for getting pregnant? It took two to tango. He sat down on the edge of the bed facing the girl, but looking down at the little baby in his arms.
"I'm not sure." she said to him, watching them. "I did think maybe we could stay at your place, if you've got a spare room we could stay in there, we won't make a noise, except her, she might cry occasionally, but I won't, you won't know I'm around-"
"Course you can." he cut her off, "You can stay as long as you like, just don't tell anyone, as you say, to anyone else you muct be unknown." he said, looking at her as he said the conditions, "I'll answer the door, owls, get the shopping, you can do anything else except go outside." he said worriedly.
"Of course." she nodded, smiling a little at him, "Don't worry... Remus." she said.