Always Waiting

One-Shot, Niley

Suckish, but hey, I had fun. First one-shot on fanfiction. Nominate me for NJK awards! Link in profile!

I wish you didn't leave.

I wish you loved me enough to stay here.

I wish that you had kept your promise to be there for me, no matter what.

Well, guess what? We all dream. We all have wishes. Too bad none of that would be true. Too bad.

I guess I should have known better, better than to fall into your tricks. You were every girl's dream, how could you not be mine? Those eyes, so full of bliss and wonder...so caring and taking in. Well all I can say now is...

Yeah, right.

Like you ever cared. Like you ever needed me as much as you needed your money, your fame. Or maybe I was blind to what you really were. Maybe you were loving and sweet. Can you come back and explain what you were, Nick? All I want is you, and I don't care how you treated me, because I know you love me. I know you still do, and I know you always will, even though you aren't smart enough to figure that out. And guess what? I love you too.

So, tell me why you left.

Tell me why wherever you went was more important. Where in the world are you now?

London?

Paris?

Rome?

Or are you officially gone. Like, GONE.

I guess it is something I will never know, because you probably won't be able to tell me if you are dead. You won't be able to tell me if you are alive and well, either.

I hope you've found someone better than me. I hope you found someone that you don't love so much to let them go, because whoever it is, they don't deserve it. They don't deserve to feel so much pain that they cannot even cry. They don't deserve to wait like me. Because I am special. I am special because I am yours, and no one else's. The hole in your heart can never be complete, because the only thing that is missing is me.

Too bad you don't know that.

Too bad you don't know what you're looking for, because I would tell you, if you came back.

I would tell you what you did wrong.

You never kept your promise.

And unlike you, I will keep my promise.

I will not move on, because I'm waiting for you to tell me that you are better than anyone else I could want.

Waiting.

I won't get angry, because I'm waiting for you to come over and let me smash my fists against your chest.

Waiting.

I will not buy clothes you disapprove of, because I'm waiting for you to shake your head and tell me to put it back.

Waiting.

And I won't let my tears reach the floor, because I'm always waiting for you to reach over and wipe them away.

Always waiting.