Dear all,
This is my first fanfic. Be nice please. R&R. Constructive comments are welcomed. Please note that the following chapters will be much longer. The prologue is written from Kagome's view.
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha.
PROLOGUE
I loved him and I still love him.
It was undeniable. He had somehow crept his way through my heart. I didn't expect it of course, it just happened. And maybe I'm supposed to regret it, as they say. But I don't. And that's what's sad. I don't regret all those things he said to me, all those things he's done to me, I don't regret knowing him…or even loving him.
I had met him over the Internet. Crude, I know. He was just someone there, someone that an acquaintance had me introduced to. And I didn't even know the acquaintance that well. But of course, that didn't matter. I thought that I wouldn't get to know him well either. But obviously I was wrong. Wrong to assume, I guess. I blame that fuckin' assignment…for lack of better word. Why I picked him of all people to ask I did not know. Maybe it was because I thought I wouldn't find a need to speak to him afterwards. Pfft. Predictions were never my thing.
I did end up talking to him afterwards though…rather he ended up talking to me. Very often. And I was attracted. I didn't know what he looked like then. I might've been attracted to his personality. I don't know. Maybe it was the fact that he was such an enigma. And I couldn't help but reply each time. I found my hands typing away, paying rapt attention to that conversation and that conversation mostly. And we grew to know each other well. We didn't realise it, but soon we were telling the other secrets almost…things that we would never confide in someone else. I pushed that thought away in my mind. I convinced myself that that was only because I was sure that this person who I knew over the Internet was no harm…even if I did tell him. I wouldn't really be seeing him in real life… right? Wrong.
We began to exchange details. First it was just the suburbs where we lived, and soon this turned into phone numbers, our crushes, our schools…And we were fond of each other…if fond was the right word. We became someone the other could trust. We were friends even.
I was excited to say the least. To have someone who I could trust but I hadn't seen before. Talking to him became an addiction. A healthy addiction. I was still doubtful of course, I knew that he might easily be untrustworthy. But then again, the thrill of it all overrode my rationality like always. I was dumb and naive. Because I know that even now if you told me you loved me…I would believe it. No matter what.
And my heart wrenches when I think about it. It was wrong Inuyasha…I was wrong to ever have loved you. But no matter what my mind keeps telling me, my heart is attracted to you. Have you cast a spell on me? You were so close...yet so far apart from me. Even then.
You've caused me so much pain. I would hurt myself over and over if you asked me to, if you wanted me to…Inuyasha.