Doing It Different Chapter 1: Aquarius, a fairy tail fanfic

Aquarius

A/N: The song used is a version where there is nothing but the choir being played with a piano.

Have you ever tried so hard to forget something that all you end up doing is thinking about exactly what you want to forget? That was what stage of life I was in right now.

Aquarius.

God Aquarius. All the memories that I could conjure up started to fill my head. It was like a bad rerun of déjà vu. Over and over I saw myself destroying her key. I choose Fairy Tail over her. I really am a monster. No! Stop I couldn't keep myself in a pit of self-loafing. She wouldn't want me to be like this. Needed to get out. Maybe go to the guild. I got out from my hiding place that just so happened to be my blankets. Walked to my closet to find an outfit that would emit a feeling of comfort and happiness. I could not let the guild know I was in pain. They would just baby me to no end. Just after attaching my keys to my belt. I looked down at the broken key. A single tear fell down my face. I put it in my pants pocket and was just about to lock my door. When I heard a voice be hide me that cleared their throat. I turned as fast as humanly possible. There stood Laxus. Wait what? Laxus was standing at my door with an expression I thought that I would never see. He was nervous. The great and mighty Laxus Dreyer was nervous of me. No that wasn't right he looked more nervous to be around me. Why?

"Um.. Hi Laxus.. what are you doing here?" I asked in a voice that I hope didn't show my curiosity. He stood rigid giving me enough time to look him up and down. He wore his signature outfit. Black pant, purple bottom up shirt, and head phones. No fur jacket in sight. He looked up and I froze this time. The look in his eyes was positively astounding. He had a look of what could only be described as complete love. That was the same papa gave to mama. Natsu gave to Lisanna, and many more couples of the guild. That look was directed towards me. Uh. "You've been crying." His voice was deep with concern. What? Oh crap my eyes they must be a little bit puffy. I laugh nervously and look down. Did you know that shoes could be so intriguingly interesting?

He touches my chin and makes me look up and into his eyes. Suddenly I fell in to a trap that I never thought I would be in. I looked in his eyes and thought about what would it feel like to lose myself in them. They looked so honest. As if I could tell him all my secrets and he would never tell, not to anyone. I realized that my head started to instinctively move closer to his, and his to mine. "Lucy…" he called my name and I thought that I would just melt. "Yes Laxus." It came out as a whisper. Crap could I be any more obviously ensnared by this man. He stepped away from me. My heart shattered. "Mira sent me to tell you that tonight they plan on having karaoke and that you must attended to perform." He speaks in a clear cut voice. That break through my delusions. Of course this amazing specimen of a man would never want me. I nod and start to walk to the guild. I hear Laxus's footsteps catch up with mine. He grabs my arm a turns me to him. "That's not all I came to say," He states, "I also wanted to tell you that... umm… that." He stuttered. I grabbed his hand and he looked into my eyes. The same feeling came back from before. "If you have something to say Laxus all you have to do is say it." I say in a comforting voice. He closes his eyes leans down to lay his forehead on mine. "I love you." He says in a hoarse voice that hold so much emotion. I'm in shock. I have no clue what to do. I back away and say, "Laxus I have no clue-" he cuts me off with his words. "I don't expect you to answer right away I want you to think about it." He rushes to put out the next sentence. "Lucy after all this end of the world business I thought that I would never get to tell you." I shudder his voice changes to that of complete honesty, "I never want to lose you even if that mean that you only stay as my friend." He steps closer to me and leans down towards my face. My heart starts to pump blood so fast through my veins that I may just faint. He kisses my cheek and walks away near the back entrance of the guild. As I can no longer see him my legs give out. Do I love him? I mean yes I had the biggest crush on him during the Tenrou Island fiasco, but I thought I had moved on after seeing him and Mira so buddy buddy. Men are so confusing. I stand back up and walk to the door of the guild and take in a deep breath. Right after opening the door. A table is throw in my direction, but my reflexes get the better of me. Immediately dodging by dropping to the ground in a semi form of a push up. I stand right back up and see that Grey and Natsu are at it again. Erza was on the spot in an instant. Breaking up the fight with a simple bang of both their heads together. I went over to the bar. My eyes were drawn to the second flight and they were met back with a heated stare that could only be Laxus.

"The usual Lucy," my eye tore away from Laxus with the interruption from Mira's question. "No thanks I actually came over here to ask about what I've heard," my business tone kicked in for a, moment, "the word is that I'm supposed to sing a song tonight," I say with a look up at Mira. "So Laxus did tell you good," she said in a calm voice but if you looked her in the eyes you could tell that she went all match maker mode. I nodded and waited for her to elaborate why exactly, but before she could say a word she was interrupted by a voice. "Girl we all know you got a set of pipes on you," Cana says with a slur. I replied with, "Although that may be possibly true why don't you just get someone else to do it." Mira grinned, "Oh I could but no one's as good as you on the piano," I sat there shocked singing was something that almost all my girl of Fairy Tail knew, (singing in the shower duh) but I kept my piano skills on a low low so something like this wouldn't happen. I huffed in frustration and walk over to my table with Erza so that I could think about what song I would be playing later tonight.

Late into the night the party at Fairy Tail was loud as usual. The many array of people song their hearts out. Mira had called me to the back stage that was twice the size since the last rebuilding. "Why am I doing this again," I said to Mira as she dressed me up like the others, but with an outfit that fit my body. The dress almost brought tear to my eye. It was a simple design lace sleeves that connected to my shoulder that had a plain blue color. It made a super low cut between my boobs. It went down to my ankles but there was a slit in the middle. None of that mattered to me really. What did was the mark that stood so boldly in the middle. Aquarius. Her symbol was stretched over my waist in white. I looked up to see Mira smiling. "How did you know." I said in an extremely low voice. "Natsu told Lisanna that once were he went to visit you. You were asleep crying and on your night stand was her key." She said with a voice that made me feel like she was trying to sooth all my worries. "Do they know?" I asked well holding back tears. She shook her head no. "Only a few do," she sighed, "Lucy tonight I wanted you to sing because we both know that you went through a ton during the battle. You lost so much." She kissed my head and hugged me. "So tonight sing for her. Sing as if your words were what she would be saying. Don't hide from us we're your family always remember that."

She let go of me and I walk on to the stage. I looked out to the audience and spotted Laxus. He wasn't in the first row but in the way back. I could still see him and it brought a smile to my face when he noticed me looking at him. His face lit up and he smiled back at me. "Tonight I'm not going to sing for me," my friends looked confused, "Tonight I'm going to sing for a very close friends who without her I would not be here today. This is for you Aquarius." I said as I sat down at the piano. My hands were shaking. Breath I could do this right? For her. Was the last thought on my mind as I laid my hand on the first note and the words mixed with the sound that controlled my body.

I'm coming home.

Tell the world I'm coming home.

Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday.

I know my kingdom awaits.

And they've forgiven my mistakes.

I'm coming home.

Tell the world.

I'm coming.

My hands moved across the piano in a pace that was slowly soothing but yet still fast. The words spoke clear and powerful. My mind seemed to lose itself as it drifted into thought of her and the memories we shared. The feeling of my hands seemed almost automatic. Like my body already knew what to do and I could truly lose myself in my thoughts of happy times

I'm coming home.

Tell the world I'm coming home.

Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday.

I know my kingdom awaits.

And they've forgiven my mistakes.

I'm coming home.

Tell the world.

I'm coming.

It all came back the feelings, the pain, the tears. I could feel it all. Like I was reliving it this time, and again I still the same thing I forced all my power into her key and it shatter along with my heart. Was that why I was so scared of the idea of loving Laxus? I couldn't seem to control myself the tears started to fall. I had done that to her. She could no long come here. Forever trapped in the spirt world.

I'm coming home.

Tell the world I'm coming home.

Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday.

I know my kingdom awaits.

And they've forgiven my mistakes.

I'm coming home.

Tell the world.

I'm c-coming.

The tears started to affect my voice I felt like I was drowning in my own personal tsunami. I cracked at the end. I just couldn't take it any more I stopped playing the piano right as I was supposed to start the singing again. I tried my best to contain all of the pain. I felt a hand on my shoulder and turned. Laxus swiftly took me into his arms and started to circle my back. It was at this moment I remembered where I was. The warmth for him radiated off him in waves. "Baby you don't have to be strong we all are here for you," he said in my ear then kissed my forehead. Looking into his eyes I thought this couldn't be a better time. "I love you to," I said to him and before he could reply the most surprising thing happened. Natsu stood up and started to sing although his voice not the best he still tried any way and soon after him cam Gajeel and then Levy. All at once the guild started to sing.

I'm coming home.

Tell the world I'm coming home.

Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday.

I know my kingdom awaits.

And they've forgiven my mistakes.

I'm coming home.

Tell the world.

I'm coming

It was in this moment that I realized I wasn't the only one who was hurting, but I knew that we all had each other forever and through any battle. Laxus looks at me and I now that I can and will love him for the rest of time.