I need more Klefan. The end of 3x09 broke my heart.

I don't own any characters they are all from TVD, just Valerie is mine.

Enjoy, I'm no native speaker, so sorry for the grammar faults.

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Chapter 1 : Emotions

Stefan has been driving every single day since they had left Mystic Falls. Somewhere in the less inhabited world in former times called Wild West, he was about to cross Wyoming, long roads, nature and country folk, not many people lived here, besides the tourists in the Yellowstone National Park, there were always quite places and even more when the tourists were gone. Stefan had spent the last month there, enjoying the wildness with all its creatures; they reminded him of his own nature. Animals had something pure predatory insight of them to which he could connect more than to any human at the moment. Drinking and stopping was something he had trained over the time. Usually it worked probably granted his age. It felt safer, not drawing too much attention with missing people. He didn't want to be found not from Damon nor Elena, but first and for most not from Klaus. Sometimes he was still losing himself and he still didn't know why, but it wasn't happening so often anymore and he knew when it would happen.

It was getting darker outside when his phone rang, Katherine, their daily check to make sure the other was okay and to exchange news.

"Hello, Mrs. Pierce, so nice to hear from you." He used their code to say he was fine.

"Oh, Mr. Salvatore, nice to hear your voice." She did the same, but Katherine tone changed, her voice became serious. „You need to talk to me Stefan. "

She wasn't stopping. Probably she was bored from her toy-boys and needed something to do."No, I don't, because I don't feel anything."

"That's where you are wrong Stefan. Let me think didn't your emotions for your brother and your hate leaded you here in the first place." Katherine underlined her point.

"Well, I don't have any emotions anymore. " Stefan shook his head; hopefully she would soon find a new boy-toy who would satisfy her more than the current one.

"But soon enough you won't be able to flip the switch," Katherine insisted" it gets more and more difficult. Emotions will swap in and you need to be able to deal with them if you want to survive." She desperately wanted to save him, he heard the concern in her voice. "Otherwise you are going to make too many mistakes and this will end up deadly for Damon and you. "

"And you Katherine. Self protection had always been your biggest motivation, right? " and now she believed he was a danger to that. Great, he didn't want to hear this crap. He couldn't deny that her words made sense, but he wasn't ready to let it back in, surely he had plenty of time and most important he didn't want to talk with her, so he changed the subject. "Have you heard from Damon?"

"Maybe…" Katherine sighed and made a histrionic pause. " …well, I'm not sure if you are ready for what I have to say."

He was or? She was trying to play his emotions and he detested her hypocritical way of getting his interest, but something insight of him was afraid. He made it stop, immediately, realizing that he had allowed emotions to come in.

"You are not answering, which shows you are clearly affected Stefan." Katherine commented with a satisfied voice.

"No, I'm just waiting for you to spill out what you wanted to rob under my nose all along." His tone was harsh. Damn she got under his skin and she knew it, but it was all he had to protect himself from her.

"Oh, your beloved brother and you ex are making progress if you want to. I think she starts reconsidering him as a boyfriend. They go out and shared their first real kiss yesterday at her porch. " Katherine stated proudly.

Stefan body was standing completely still; this was no surprise. He had seen the jealousy in her eyes when Damon flirted with Rebekah, so he knew it would come."I don't care. They are singles and can do what they want."

" Well, you know" Damn her, she was preparing another attack and he hated it. " I'm not sure if I should tell you that, but you formal girlfriend wasn't so honest with you or maybe she was. Did she tell you what happened or did your beloved brother do that."

Annoyed from her games, Stefan let out a groan, "What is the mind-shattering story you are going to tell me? " A year had passed since he had left Mystic Falls with Klaus, so if had happed more this wouldn't come to surprise.

Katherine continued "Fine, you remember the night when you went to Klaus and sacrificed Elena and your life in Mystic Falls for Damon's life. Well, while you were away drinking blood, Elena spent her time comforting Damon. " Katherine explained.

"Nothing new Katherine, because I send her there."

"You are really a bigger idiot than I ever thought you were. When I arrived Elena was lying next to him in his bed, very close and very cozy. "

Stefan gulped, this couldn't be true. Damon had been locked up in the basement. Why should Elena have let him out? Rose had almost killed her. This made no sense at all. But his thoughts were interrupted from Katherine's voice.

" She was telling him how much she liked him just the way he is and kissed him with teary eyes, believing she would lose him forever. "Bewildered from her words, he tried to process what she had said to him. Suddenly he felt a tear running down his jaw, but he wasn't crying. He touched it, it was blood. Irritated he went into the bathroom and watched in the mirror realizing he had bitten his lip too harsh. His face was paler as usual when he cleared his jaw, starring at himself, the hurt was undeniably visible and deep, if this was true. Somehow he had the feeling it was. He had to say something, anything.

" Better that I'm gone, nothing I would ever do again." He spat out, unable to prevent the sound of disappointment and hurt shining through his voice. The warning had been there, but he had ignored them all. Strangely, a part of himself was relieved, relieved that the waiting was over. It had always been a unsolvable situation and he had known it somehow and he wasn't still sure what he really felt, but he didn't allow more feelings for now.

" I'm here for you if you want to Stefan. Think about it. " Her voice was soft and sincere and with that Katherine hung up.

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Weeks had passed and Katherine was driving Stefan insane with her questions. She had been terrorized him to talk about Damon and Elena. In a way he began to be thankful for it, because surprisingly it started to work, but she wasn't stopping which drove him insane. His phone was vibrating and he knew what would come and unfortunately he couldn't ignore it, part of their deal was to make sure the other was okay. This was sucking and of course she was enjoying her investigation in Stefan's mind.

"Hello Mrs. Pierce, so nice to hear from you. " He pressed out as polite as possible.

"Hello Mr. Salvatore. Where are you?" Sure she was alone, she wasn't even mentioning it anymore. Stefan sighed. He had achieved they would only talk about important things alone and so he tried to be in public as much as possible, but now he was alone. Damn, she had called earlier than usual. "On my way to a bar." This wasn't a lie, because he had planned to go.

"So you are alone. Great" Katherine knew him to well.

"Katherine. I'm not in the mood for any further Damon or Elena talk, okay. I know I feel betrayed and I'm hurt and disappointed. Can we skip it today?"

"Oh, I didn't want to talk about Damon and Elena anymore. You're surprisingly okay with that." Katherine explained.

"Great. So what it up with you and the boys?" He teased her.

"Nothing serious. I still miss you, you know. " She made a pause. "Today I wanted you to tell me what you were hiding from yourself. Tell me about the 20s Stefan." A sigh of annoyance and disapproval was hearable, so she had hit something.

"It is not important, just my memories came back. Okay"

"Oh, it is important otherwise you wouldn't dream about it. So ?"

Great why had he mentioned that in the first place, so he would give her a summery nothing more. " Just how I lived, what I forgot, that's it. I'm not going to do another session of Dr. Psycho Pierce. Not necessary. Thanks."

Katherine's eyebrow raised and she tilted her head. Why avoided he to talk about the 20s. This was clearly no good sign and got immediately her interest. Something or someone was haunting him. "If it's not important, you can tell me and I won't disturb you anymore. I just want to make sure you stay on the rail. Can you blame me for that? I'm concerned about you." She cooed in a sweet innocent tone.

Stefan kicked against the wall in front of him. He hated her way of building her path. He had trusted her with Damon and Elena, now she believed he would tell her anything. Maybe he should tell a little to make her stop, it had and hadn't worked before, but he was getting better at it.

"So…" She insisted. Damn him, the silence had been too long. "Why don't you tell me how you meet Klaus and Rebekah and how you three hang out together?"

Stefan did and after giving her some details about how he met both of them and how they hang out together to the end where Klaus compelled him. With that Stefan hoped she would stop and so she did for that day.

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But the next day the inquisition continued. After two more days Katherine had learned all about Stefan's habits, routines and places he went to.

She seemed contend." This covers with my own investigations back then. "

"Great, can we skip my past now? I would like to learn something about yours?" he needed to make her talk about others things.

"Okay, but I have one last question." This was so Katherine. "You mentioned once a dream and a kiss with a woman named Valerie, but you never mentioned it when you told me about the 20s. " Damn him, he had told her about the kiss because she had been in one of his dreams along with Damon.

"Oh, it was just a gambling night with some guys. It was a challenge because the price was a kiss from the wife or girl from the other player, mine was Rebekah, Klaus had …. I can't remember, and there I won the kiss from Valerie, a French girl, that's it. "

"Hm…but in your dream you ran away from Damon into this Speakeasy and then you saw this girl. This has to mine more Stefan."

He needed to say something, fast. "It was just a good kiss, seductive and passionate. "

"Have you often dreams about this night, the girl or the kiss?"

Stefan sighed, if he lied half here, it would be better for both of them. "Rarely, like other pieces of my life as well. "

"Hm…" she was not content with his answer, no good sign. He was getting concerned about it too, but he didn't need to be concerned, right?

" Maybe you felt the sexual liberation here. " Katherine suggested. "You should live it. You told me you woke up when you saw her face? Did that happen again?"

"Yep. "He didn't need to lie here, even better.

"Did you have a boner after this dream?" Katherine asked with a smirk on her face.

"What….good bye Katherine." This was too private and more Stefan could handle right now.

"Oh, come on Stefan, don't be such a prude. Nothing I haven't seen before. I won't tell anybody. I promise." She was having hell of fun, he could hear it in her voice. " So your hottest sexual fantasy is a kiss with a now dead girl named Valerie. " Katherine giggled. "Why was this kiss so mind-shattering? Did you hook up with her in front of everyone?"

Typical Katherine. "No, sorry to disappoint you Katherine as I said, just a long kiss. We are never going to have this conversation again, do you understand that? Good night. " Stefan shook his head and shut his phone. This woman was driving him crazy, but not as crazy as this facial expression from Valerie. It felt like her view were burned in his mind and made him wake up instantly.

Katherine was sitting in her car, clearly Stefan was hiding something and she would find out what even when Stefan didn't want her to find out. Maybe it was time to call Damon. It had been a while since she had talked to him and he had access to Stefan's journals. With a satisfied grin on her face Katherine went back to her latest boy-toy, he was really beautiful and tasty and she was really hungry, but unfortunately he had not much more to offer.

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