Breaking Dawn Irina's POV

by ShadowedByDarkness

Please bear in mind that this is my first upload, and that i wasn't sure if people will like this concept or not so please tell me what you think and not hate me for making the first bit so short. the title says it all enjoy :

I have never gotten over loosing Laurent. It rips me apart every time I think about it. It has not been long. I must avenge his death, against the wolves that killed him. Our love was short lived, only a few months a year at most. He was one of the only people that understood me. My pain has only just begun. I can't carry on without avenging him. I must go and see for myself, the wolves. This means a visit to Carlisle and his family. They will be as happy as ever for my visit. Their joy and peace does sometimes get on my nerves. I left the coven a couple of days ago. I needed space to grieve and to think. There's nothing I want more than Laurent back, my Laurent. I have been wandering. Wandering without purpose, an aimless stroll with the breeze, sun and the whole of nature in your face and behind your every move. My decision to visit the Cullen's is not set in stone. I have no intention in going back to my sisters yet. Nor do I want to stay on my own for much longer. So I think that I will go and visit the Cullen family. Alice will see me coming of course.

I started wandering in the direction of Forks. I am in no rush; I want my thoughts to be safe for now. I don't want Edward sifting through them at the moment. They have been through much, without my pain on his mind as well. Being recently married to Bella and all. I did not attend the wedding. Laurent understood and accepted our friendship with the Cullen's. He knew that just because we were friends with them doesn't mean he had to be. Now he's gone. Forever. He's never coming back. I winced at the thought of Laurent, a pile of ash. There are only a couple of hills to go now. I stopped at the base of one and sat down. If vampires could cry, I would be wallowing in tears. There is nothing left for me here in this life. My mother, gone killed by the retched children. My sisters don't understand. Laurent is gone. "Aaahhh" I screamed. I let the pain start to take over. "I hate this! I hate it! I want to cry! I want to age! I want children of my own! I want to be a mother! I want Laurent back! I want to HAVE to breath!" such strange things such simple things. But I want them all oh so desperately.