'Okay, so once again, thank you so much for subscribing – I love you guys and I promise to make more videos, more often.' I smiled into the glossy black camera lens. 'See you soon!'
After waving my right hand slightly, I shut off the camera, sitting back down on my bed with a high pitched creak from my mattress.
One million subscribers… Wow. One million different faces that had someone found my odd little ten minute videos interesting and significant enough to sign themselves up to a lifelong chain of them. A video a week I'd promised my 'fans', and as much as I found all the adoration in the comments enjoyable, it had always got to me. I didn't like to think of myself as an idol… a celebrity crush for all those teen boys and young males out there who were constantly tweeting and blogging about me – my hair, clothes, eyes and body.
Two years ago, Everlin Lily Blue had been a shadow that lurked in the background – always an afterthought – a black and white picture with no colour or experiences to add to her life. But now…? That shy little shadow had grown – solidified and strengthened into the face that now looked back at me in my reflection on the camera lens.
My personality wasn't the only thing that had changed in those years of video making for You-tube; so had my reputation. I was an internet role-model, a girl that many teens looked up to with wonder and aspiration. That had been me, once. But hadn't it been everyone with dreams?
Well, dreams can come true, I guess, I thought softly.
Reality brought me back down to earth as I noticed the brief moment of reflection had almost distracted me away from the many unaccomplished tasks I had to complete before my date with Ed. I smiled at the sound of his name in my mind.
Ed and I had been together for four months now… A record for me. Boys had always seemed to have many issues with me; the main one being that the boys before Ed had used me – shallow and gullible I'd been led to believe that they actually loved me - and of course, stupid, foolish little me had given her heart away time after time. I suppose now it was just a small, weak organ in my chest, stitched together with messy cotton and tape, covering up the cracks and splits from when it had been abused, broken and hurt. Ed was now repairing it for me. I was sure that this time, Ed Oliver and Everlin Blue were meant to be.
Quickly, I pulled myself out of my daydreams and packed up my camera equipment, sliding it away into the small black suitcase I kept it all in. I would upload the '1 million subscribers video' a bit later – the fans knew how I worked. I was lazy and did things in my own slow little world of procrastination and idleness.
Of course they deserved better attendance from their idol, but right now I couldn't get Ed out of my mind and he wasn't going to leave my river of thoughts until I saw him.
Before I got ready, I checked my laptop, just to look at a few more comments on my channel and maybe to re-blog some pictures on Tumblr. I grinned stupidly as I saw my stats on YouTube – instead of the 1 million subscribers I'd seen a few minutes ago, I now had 1 million and one subscribers. It sounded almost silly – 1 million and one.
Almost like an improper number.
I shrugged and looked at the newest subscriber. Dan Howell – Danisnotonfire or something. I was almost sure I'd heard of him on Radio 1 or something, but I was too excited about Ed to really care about this 'Dan' guy.
I subscribed him back, barely looking at his channel, shut my laptop down and got ready for my date with Ed.