I love the way she walks; I love the way she talks. So bossy and authoritive, I wonder what she's like in bed, is she the same? Jo you must stop thinking like this. Thoughts, they are wonderful aren't they no-one can ever know what your thinking in your head. Like when she talks to her, her mouth open and all I'm really thinking is how much I'd like to stick my tongue into it. Another great thing is the female mind, you can process information while thinking of something else, like sitting in the briefing Sam…well DI Nixon pointing to the board and informing us on the latest developments in the fraud case when all I'm thinking is oh how much I want her pressed against that board. Unlike men, most men at that, I can keep my hands to myself. When she walks by I just want to reach out and stroke her smooth leg especially when she's wearing that grey skirt but I resist my temptation and let my lust take over once I'm home, all alone.
My desk is in the best position in the office, it's positioned so that if you tilt your head slightly to the left you can see through the blinds into Sam's office, I'd prefer it inside her office but this is good enough for me. I can just sit and watch her all day, hmm Jo you're starting to sound like a stalker, I must get on with some work. I can't help Sam invading my thoughts twenty four seven. I don't think it's a lesbian thing, maybe it's a Sam thing, the way that Stuart and Phil both drool over her, at least I can be more suttle. I wonder if they think the same thoughts of me? Probably not after all they are men aren't they. They think with their dicks, all about sex however for me it's all about loving her and what she wants. Just to hold her in my arms would be heaven. She's coming over I must finish my thoughts about her and stop staring at her as she's walking over here, maybe she's coming to speak to me…
I think I'll have a couple more minutes of staring Phil has caved her in, trying to flirt. I wish I could flirt with her openly. The white t-shirt she's wearing suits her so well, it clings in the right places, her breasts look edible in it hmm how many times have a thought about licking and nipping those breasts The ways her hips sway is magical, enticing, intoxicating. I wonder if there is an Anti-Sam medicine available. Hmm Jo rethink that thought just because I can't have her; doesn't mean that I don't like the things she makes me feel. She makes me feel like I've never felt; she makes me feel on top of the world, she makes me feel like I've never felt before. I have to ask would it be the same if we were together? I'm glad we'll never be together then I'm not heading for disappointment. I wonder when she's near me if she can hear my heartbeat, it certainly feels like an earthquake when she's near. Nottingham was meant to be my medication but as they say distance makes the heart grow fonder which I totally agree with now, although not the same for me and Tess although I think she knew I had been brainwashed well allowed myself to be brainwashed by Sam both her body and her personality. Hmm her personality, I should think about that later as she's walking over here now. Head down Jo, head down, stop staring!