Disclaimer: I do not own YYH or the characters.
So while studying last night, I was watching the fight between Yusuke and Toguro more clearly and heard some things I didn't remember from the other I don't know, ten times I watched it. Yusuke lectured Toguro on the cost of what he gave up and how he would never make the same mistakes he did. Toguro said that everything he did was his choice and that even if instincts led him to the kill, it was ultimately his choice that he let it happen. So I was inspired to write this very short one-shot. Let me know what you think :)
So this was it, my own personal hell. When I demanded that Koenma send me to Limbo I did not expect this. Torture and physical pain, fine, I could handle it. Yet instead, I was met with the worst pain of all.
I got to watch them, watch them all, live happy lives with the ones they chose to be with and I would continue to watch on as their children and children's children continue on with their choices. It would last 10,000 years. In hindsight, I was warned.
Yusuke, a boy I grew to love as a son and hate as a rival, was right. I would have never admitted it until now. He lived many happy years with the girl he had come to love and cherish and I watched as they celebrated their love with humans and demons alike, including her.
I now understood what I gave up. Yusuke had said during our fight that he would grow old with the woman he loved, never giving up what I had. He had judged me for taking the life of Genkai, which I said was unjustified since I felt an even deeper loss. Funny how we can cause the pain to the ones we love and yet feel like we ended our own lives. I guess that's what separated me from them.
Genkai lived on twenty more years and, though I resented her passing up the opportunity to eternal youth, I realized that she too was happy with her decision. She became a mentor to all of Urameshi's children as well as Kuwabara's and even Kurama's. Hiei, too, had found some sort of relationship with a human girl.
Day after day, something new and wonderful would happen to each of them as I longed to go back in time and rethink my wish. I wanted to take it back, yet the damage had already been done. There was now no going back and by the time I am to get out of here, my chance with the woman I love will be gone; I will have left behind no legacy; I will have no one.
How ironic, that I am here by my own free will. I chose this path on the very day I made my wish. It was selfish and a mistake which is why I wanted Yusuke to kill me. It was my choice to kill Genkai and tear his emotions apart. And it was my choice to place myself in this nightmare. Who knew that one's happiness could be someone else's hell? Well, I'd better get used to it. Only 9,970 more years to go.
This is an edited version from the chapter I posted last semester. I'm studying for another exam and re-watching the fight (oh the irony) and I remembered the different aspects I wanted to point out. Also, I'm considering writing a fic that takes place after Toguro leaves Limbo with this new outlook on life and the lives of the ones he cared about. There will be other familiar faces as well even though there's a huge time gap (they are all demons, after all). Let me know if you're interested.