Basic Info: Brooklyn centered one shot. Poetic form.
Warnings: Self-harm. General depression.
Disclaimer: I could never ever own this masterpiece.
Author's Note: I wrote this back in April. I can't complete it and I feel like some thing's missing. But I decided to post this now. And I'm truly sorry for my inactivity.
He woke up again. Unable to sleep. To rest.
This has been happening for several nights now.
He could not sleep.
He could not breathe evenly.
He could not live.
He got up from his bed and approached the bathroom.
Slowly he opened the door and faced the only thing in this world that brought a smile in his face.
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The razor.
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With a wicked smirk he picked it up and twisted it within his hands.
With a quick move he grabbed the razor with his right hand and raised his left sleeve.
He placed the razor horizontally down his arm,taking a deep breathe.
That situation had become a reality now.
A necessity.
A part of himself.
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He drew a line down his arm with the razor, not even flinching from pain.
Pain was not important.
Pleasure was important.
What he would feel when this process was done.
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He kept smirking, drawing more lines down.
Blood was dropping on the bathroom floor now.
Red.
Bright red.
Full of life.
A life which was slowly drying out.
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How had he come to this place?
Did he really have a reason for this?
What was that he was missing from his life?
Did he need people by his side?
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No.
This is what people bring.
Pain.
More and more pain.
Endless pain.
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But after all these he has seen,
he understood that friendship is not important.
Not,when it comes to this.
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Because he feels dead.
Alone in a world that he never wanted to live in.
There is no chance to move on.
He was forced to let go a life he never really wanted.
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Why can't people ask us if we want to come to life?
Not everyone is strong to survive.
Others do not even have a chance.
This has to end.
Because life is a nightmare.
Because there is no reason anymore.
Because he is a coward.
And he knew it.
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Everything is going to fade away.
Everything has been in vain.
Because he is loser.
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Frozen,he stares blankly at the wall with a wicked smile on his lips.
That was it. Reviews are always welcomed.