Authors Notes

I wrote this about my life and I'm using my experiences and focus them on the story. I hope you all like it! I'll try to add more chapters often. Please Review!

Annabeth's POV

Pain is all that wells up in my chest as I see him sit across the room from me, nect to Grover and Luke. He looks in my direction for a mear second before he rolls his eyes and looks away like I was beneath his social status. I was teary eyed in less than a second. He had that effect on me.

I tried to stop him, I really did but it seems that the more and more that I try the more he pushes me away. He tries to grab onto her, that girl who has made my life a living hell. All I wanted to do was grab him and tell him exactly how I feel, that I was sure that I was in love with him.

I rub my arms up and down and feel the cuts, the tiny bright red marks that cursed my entire body. The bruises that cursed my life and the bite marks that found prominence on my arms. I lowered my sweatshirt over them and looked at the ground. He stares at every other girl besides me; cause's me so much pain to know that we were once friends. Best friends in fact. We used to do everything together, but since he found out how I felt he ignores me like the plague.

Was it really that horrible for him to think for one second that we could be together if he would just open up to me? I stare across the room into his eyes for a second before breaking off and looking down and the blue dog tag on my next, Percy gave it to me.

I felt so insecure about myself nowadays. Felt that I could crumble away with a gentle blow of the wind. One push in this already cracked surface. My heart couldn't take another blow, but he doesn't care. He'll just keep on pushing me until I finally break down in front of him.

I remember when things used to be easier, when we could sit next to each other and hold hands on the beach and tells stories about our familys, but ever since Luke came around all he does is distance himself from me. I wanted to cry for hours, but I kept strong for my friends and then I would take it out on my own body. He makes me want to kill myself, and I've tried before.

It's not like anyone but Thalia would notice though. She's the only one that actually cares about me. Everyone else just pretends to so they can get the credit for "saving me from myself", and at one point I believed that they actually did care about me because I was so desperate for a friend, for someone who would listen to me.

My arm's hurt and all I can think about was him, his sweet voice the sea green eye's that pierced through even the most gruesome of moments. The smile that he shared with me in so many ways, the laugh that made me happy in just seconds. I used to have it all and then Luke came and I ruined it all.

Percy hated me after that, he makes me so mad, that even for that one second I'm so angry I'm vunerable and I turn to pain. I bleed to know I'm still alive.

I don't think he means it though. He used to be so sweet to me so nice, my only friend, but now we stand on opposite sides of the room and I can't even bare to look at him. All I have left are the sweet memories, the picture in my head of how it's supposed to be, the nightmares that keep me up every night and the scars all up my body.

Oh how I wish that he would give up on this fighting, and finally return to me and wrap his arms around me like he used to. Return the warming smile again.

Thalia sat next to me and put her hand on my thigh. I turned to her slightly not taking much notice while also not trying to look up even though it's burning in my head to see if he's still staring at me.

"You ok Annabeth?" Thalia say's with a worried expression painted across her face. I nod to her, and rest my head on her shoulder. She whispers some things to me like that it was going to be ok and that things were going to get better but how could she know that? She didn't know Percy like I did, he would never be my friend again and no matter how much I tried, I couldn't convince myself otherwise.

I let the tears run down my face for the first time in a long time. He pushed me away he calls me weird and disgusting and all I can do is go back to him because I love him with all my heart. What else can I do? Forget and move on? So not going to happen when I'm already this deep in pain and hatred.

I try to convince myself that I hate him and I'm successful at it for a few day's at most and then he comes around and try to smooth talk me and be nice and I actually fall for it. No matter how hard I try, I just keep running back to him whenever he wants me and I sit there and let him beat me up over something that I have no control over.

I love Percy Jackson and there is nothing that anyone can ever tell me that can convince me not Thalia, not Chiron, not even Luke..

Well that was somthing huh? Please Review and let me know what you think! This is my first story and I'm going to try really hard to update every Saturday or so. Bye guy's!