I can't help feeling that this poem needs a bit of an explanation. I wrote the beginning of it sometime during my third or fourth viewing of Victoria's Secret - oh, and there are sorta spoilers for that episode... and this has kinda got Victoria in it - as you will see, it started with the idea Fraser vocalised, that he and Victoria had known each other for "a thousand lifetimes". Well, I never had anything definite in mind for where the poem was to go - I didn't even know whose voice I was writing when I started - but it's mutated. Now, well, I'm not even certain what it is, but I do like it. I'd really like to know what you think of it, on this piece more than many of my other works, so please do let me know what it's like.
All characters alluded to within are the property of Alliance; no infringement et cetera et cetera et cetera. Creative content is mine. Written sometime in 1999.
Candles in the Window
by Chastity
Across a thousand lifetimes
and through the void of space
comes the feeling that I know you,
that I'd love you anyplace.
It feels so familiar,
everything feels so right,
lying here beside you
curled safe against the night.
I know life's never perfect,
I know nothing's always true,
but one more truth I know is that
I could be happy with you.
Candles in the window, tears burning in my eyes;
One of us is silent while the other one cries;
I don't know what to do but continue my lies;
All I can do is say my last goodbyes.
You should be here with me –
I know I could make it work
if we could push away the shadows where
the demons of our past still lurk.
The best thing in life to do, they say,
is forget, if not forgive –
mistakes of the past aren't important as
knowing when to let go and live.
But without you, I can't do that,
'cause I don't understand letting go –
not after we held each other so tight,
so long beneath the cruel snow.
Candles in the window, tears burning in my eyes;
One of us is silent while the other one cries;
I don't know what to do but continue my lies;
All I can do is say my last goodbyes.
I don't know what you did to me,
nor can I know what I've done,
all I know is, I miss you;
it seems my heart is won.
Alone, my life is so empty
when memories of you come along –
how could something so wonderful
in any way be wrong?
I can't keep living like this,
there's so much that I lack;
I can't keep living without you –
I'm coming to take you back.
Candles in the window, tears burning in my eyes;
One of us is silent while the other one cries;
I don't know what to do but continue my lies;
All I can do is say my last goodbyes.
Candles in the window, tears burning in my eyes;
One of us is silent while the other one cries;
This time there won't have to be any lies;
And now I can take back those last goodbyes.
And now I will take back my last goodbyes.