"Strike Out"

A quick shaky sigh,

How could I possibly not cry?

I stroke the Chairman's fur,

And smile sadly as I listen to his purr.

Alec used to purr like that for me.

I suppose we were just not meant to be, honestly.

I enjoyed his company,

Though his puns were not at all funny,

I still laughed nevertheless.

But now without him here, I am a disgusting mess.

I did not deserve someone as amazing as him,

I swallow the lump in my throat as my tears fill my eyes to the brim.

How am I to live on without my significant other?

After him, there will not be another.

No matter how much they may persist I will stay single if I must,

But whom am I to trust?

The last person that I trusted, that ended badly.

I had to set them aflame, sadly.

There will be no one after you, my Dear,

You leaving me was one of my greatest fears.

And now it has come true, I must admit.

I was going to steal you for my own selfish benefit.

I can no longer bare to live without my long lost lover,

But how am I to hide my feelings for him, what kind of cover?

Tell him that I am seeing someone else, no.

That won't make things better; it'll just make his anger grow.

I adore my dear boy,

He at one point in life, brought me happiness and great joy.

But now that we are apart,

Everyone around me can see how much it breaks my heart.

I long to protect you, and care for you, and be there,

But if you don't want me, I'll get out of your hair.

Just know that I will never leave you, unless you want,

Remember blue eyes, don't forget to flaunt.

Flaunt the fact that you are beautiful in every way,

I always tried to tell you, every day.

You are beautiful inside and out, Lightwood.

And if I could tell you right now, I would.

I would spill my guts out, pour my heart out at your feet,

If this is going to happen, where should we meet?

I'll make sure to bring tissues, because I'm emotional,

Do you want me to bring the lotion?

Sorry, old habits die hard.

Just always know I will never be very far,

And I will always be here for whenever you need me,

But please Alec, don't leave me be.

I want to talk to you all the time,

Even if all you do is whine.

I will still love every word that you say,

And I will try to prove it in every way.

Alexander just promise me something,

Never forget that you are my king,

The only person that I would bow for you,

I was honestly hoping that one day I would hear the words "I do".

Do not harm yourself in away way, got it?

And whatever you do, do not quit.

Don't quit living or breathing,

I don't want to walk in and find you bleeding.

So please don't do that,

Because Babe, Do you want to upset my cat?

I hope you don't do this,

Believe me, you will NOT have a bit of bliss.

I know you don't believe me, but please don't doubt,

Because I love you, and I do not want you to Strike Out.