The Heart Wants What It Can't Have

Chapter 1

"Aominecchi! Let's play one on one!"

"Not today. I'm gonna grab a burger with Tetsu."

The dream team had just finished their basketball practice for the day. The air in the locker room smelled musky with sweat, suffocating Kise Ryouta further as he felt his heart tightened at Aomine's answer. It had become apparent to Kise that the phrase 'the heart wants what it cannot have' is very much real by now. He had joined the Teikou Junior High's basketball team for over a year now, and yet he still feels a little bit self-conscious with the other members as he was the last person to join their team.

Loving Aomine had been a hell of a ride for Kise. At first it was tolerable, Aomine had paid enough attention to Kise to make things bearable for him. Aomine used to tease him constantly, stealing his food—they had played one-on-one after each practice almost every day, and even went out with him for burgers or popsicles by the end of the day; but something feels different now. Aomine had changed. He will try to skip practice whenever he can—regardless of Akashi's constant lectures, his mood was always sour...and he only hangs out with Kuroko Tetsuya after practice—when he actually attended practice that is, which is getting very infrequent by the day.

"Can I join you both then?" Kise asked, flashing a smile that looked too fake—too happy, and quickly added, "My treat."

"Nah. You're too noisy. Too annoying." Aomine answered curtly and slammed his locker shut.

"I don't mind if Kise-kun wants to join us, Aomine-kun," Kuroko smiled at Kise, but to be perfectly honest, it simply made the situation even more unbearable for the poor blonde who was now feeling quite ashamed and rejected.

"No, that's okay Kurokocchi! Maybe next time!" Kise avoided his gaze from his teammate while keeping his fake smile on. The familiar heaviness in his heart was getting too much to bear, he could feel tears threatening to fall from the corner of his eyes and clouding his vision.

"I'll go with you if it is your treat, Kise-chin!" Murasakibara retorted, blissfully unaware of the blonde's distress.

"Maybe tomorrow, Murasakibaracchi! I just realized that I've got a photoshoot lined up for me in a while! I need to go now! See you guys tomorrow!" Kise slung his bag over his shoulders and nodded at Akashi, "See you tomorrow, Akashicchi!"

Kise shivered a little at Akashi's gaze. The captain seemed to have realized what was going on. After all, it is rare for Akashi to have missed anything at all.

Of course there was no photoshoot waiting for him.

'Meet me at the usual place in 15 mins.' Kise texted a familiar number from his contact list.

Nobody knew about Kise's dirty little secret. A dark secret that he had started after his love life had gone downhill. He had been sleeping with a string of strangers who looked similar to Aomine—it had been easy for him to find a person to fuck. His job as a model allowed him to meet with a lot of attractive males; and as long as the person shared a similar physical attribute to Aomine, he would do.

The first man he approached was named Takahata, one of the models whom he had a photo session with in some random girly magazine that he could not even remember about. The model's skin was tanned, just like Aomine, and his voice...it was deep and husky—just like Aomine. They had been flirting throughout the shoot and before Kise truly realized what was going on, he was a crying mess, writhing in pleasure while being pounded mercilessly by the taller man into the sheets, crying out 'Daiki' over and over again until he reached orgasm.

It was after the event that he realized he had lost his virginity to some guy that he had met for less than a day. After that, it became easier. He was willing to sleep with anyone that resembles Aomine.

And he is about to do that right now.

Author's Note: I haven't written any fanfics for a while now.. Looking for beta readers. I have planned this story to be divided into five chapters. Reviews/Favourites/Follows will make me update faster. Sorry for the angst. Next chapter will most probably involve Murakise as a side-pairing. Friends with benefits :p