DISCLAIMER: I would love to say I own all the sexy men and lovely women that are in this story, but alas, I do not. Oh no, but the BEAUTIFUL Stephanie Meyer does, I'm just playing with her toys!

BELLAS POV.

It had been just over 6 years since I had last seen Edward, I had run away and didn't want to return, he had contacted me several times and the discussions were brief. They ended with me in tears and him begging for me to return. I did still love him, with all the bones and blood in my body I yearned for him. But it was too much as the time. I could have returned but it hurt so much to even think about him. It pained me to think he was capable of marrying me and then inviting Tanya to move in with no notice, just a swift kick up the arse(metaphorically of course) it all made me feel like it was all a lie, like they had conspired against me the entire time. The last time we were face to face, we had just come home from the most beautiful honey moon I had ever seen, we were making our way up the drive way..

Edward turned to me and smiled his eyes full of adoration and a brilliant smile spread across his face. "I love you Mrs Cullen, forever and ever"

"And I love you to Mr Cullen, more than I ever thought capable"

We shared a brief but passionate kiss and continues our way up the drive. Edward turned to me and took hold of my hand; he gave it a gentle squeeze before opening the door to our home. Something wasn't right. I couldn't see anything of mine, my coats were gone, my books that I always had on the coffee table were gone. It wasn't right.. And then I saw her.

I felt horrid for leaving things like they were, I hadn't had the chance to listen to him explain. We never got a divorce so we were still married, but it felt like a connection wish we could cut loose it was something that tied me to the past and I wanted to move on. I so badly just wanted to forget about everything. For the day I started working with him to the day I left him in our home with such a pained look on his face. Every night I closed my eyes and for the rest of the night I would toss and turn and think back to what had happened. I had to see him one more time though, at least once. It wasn't just him that I had left, I thought about heading to Esme's house and collecting Carlie, but I didn't want anything to do with Edward and in my haste I had abandoned my one and only child and had spent the past 6 years alone in my home wishing I could take back everything I had done.

I hadn't even spoken to Esme or Alice; they both emailed me monthly to ask me if I would pay them a visit. But it was heart breaking when I considered it and I had to tell them no. When they asked if I would at least call the, I told them I would but it never happened. It was rude and ignorant but I just couldn't bring myself to dial the numbers that used to be on speed dial on my phone. Eventually I got a new phone, but I told them that I still had the old one, so for all I knew they were still asking me to call or still trying to call themselves but to no prevail.

I knew Carlie would be turning 7 soon and I knew I had missed all her birthdays, I doubted this one would be any different. I didn't even send her a card or present. The day her first birthday arrive was only a few months after I had left, and I was prepared to get her something, I even considered going back just to give it to her but I couldn't do it. I came so close to getting in my car and driving to her but I collapsed under the weight of my emotion and couldn't do it. On her second birthday the same thing happened again. It was bad enough I had missed her first words and first steps but to miss her first full sentences almost killed me. It just made me think of how I had run out on her with no goodbye, no 'I'm sorry' or anything, I just ran and left her with no mother.

Was it finally time to go? Or should I wait longer? I mean getting into contact again couldn't o any harm and I'm sure they still had the same email and number. I knew their number off by heart and it was out of my control when my fingers began dialling. I held it up to my ear and my breathing stopped as the ringing began. After 3 rings there was a rustling sound and then an all too familiar voice spoke. "Hello?" She sounded tired and out of breath. Laughter rang in the background and I realised just who it could be. I froze for a second. "Hello? Who's calling?" she began to get a little agitated.

"Esme? It's Bella" I managed to choke out through my tears. It was painful to even hear the voice of the woman I had classed as a second mother. What would I say to her? I hadn't even thought about what we would talk about I had just called without any thought about it and now I was wondering if this was a big mistake. If the whole idea was just stupid. I vaguely heard her gasp. Her name was called out from someone. It sounded like Carlisle. I listened closely and heard her stutter out what she wanted to say.

"I- it's B-" she took in a deep breath and then started again. "It's Bella" Something smashed and I flinched slightly. I heard her whisper. "Go after Edward!" With the mention of his name I hung up and sank to the floor in a mess of sobs and tears over the man I loved. It was only an hour later that I heard a loud knocking on my door.

I walked towards it and without thought I yanked it open. There stood Alice with tears streaming down her face and an expression that matched sad but happy. I didn't have time to react before she pulled me into one of her vice tight hugs and whispered in my ear. "Don't you ever leave us again." I could only hug back. I didn't know what to do or say to her. She pulled back and broke the silence before I could. "It's been six years Bella, six fucking years. Do you know how many times we had to keep Edward under supervision. He was fucking suicidal! And you left Carlie. Edward showed up and he looked fucking broken. None of us had ever been so worried about him. We almost kept him from taking her home, but you hadn't come to pick her up so something was wrong. And then you call! My mother was almost in tears, she didn't know whether to hate you or love you, thankfully it was the latter you were like a sister to me and a daughter to her and you took off without a word. We know what happened Bella but you need to come back, Carlie is asking about who her mother is and you need to give her answers." She wasn't angry. She never showed any signs of anger. She was relieved and upset at the same time but not angry.

My heart shattered when she told me Edward was suicidal. I couldn't leave him like that could I? And my daughter was starting to ask about me, I had to be there to give her answers. I had to be there to see her grow up, I couldn't leave her any longer I had to go back. It was going to be hard but I had to do it, it was inevitable. It was finally a turning point for me. I was going back to my only family. I really hoped this would work out. I grabbed Alice by the hand and pulled her into her car. "By the way. How did you find me?" I pondered.

"My brother is in the CIA. We have our ways. He's desperate to see you Bella. You don't understand what he went through after you left." She frowned slightly before smiling. "Please tell me you're going to change that?"

"I'm going to try. Listen Alice I'm sorry."

"We're sorry to, Emmett told us to give you space but we needed to keep in touch, and then you go and change your number! But it's all over now. We can go back to how we used to be. Right?"

My heart swelled as I realise I could go back to Edward. I had so much to be sorry for. Leaving him and not even letting him speak. It never occurred to me that Tanya had just been scheming all along. But after I had left it hit me. I never went back because I thought it was too late, I though Edward would hate me for what I had done and he would never want to see me again. But with all this new information I was ready to go and see him. I'm sure it would be awkward at first but I had to see him. It was something that I didn't want to avoid I wanted to be with him again, I wanted to go back to what used to be. And I could. Finally I spoke. "Right. Now let's go. I've missed 6 years; I don't want to miss anymore!" And with that Alice hit the gas and the car shot forward, taking us closer and closer to the family I ran from.

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