This never should have happened. It never should have gotten to this point. You shouldn't be here, holding your head like you can contain it all while trying not to scream.
You had to turn off your phone because Karkat kept trying to call you. He could tell that something was off today. He is the only person you would ever let see you like this. He's an exception to the rules. But not today. Not today.
You can't let the tears escape. That would be breaking the rules. Bro won't come home. He never comes home this early. Dirk doesn't stop by anymore. Karkat is busy with Kankri. Your other friends? They haven't talked to you in ages.
Your chest hurts. You feel dizzy and nauseated. You're losing track of time. You're not sure when you ended up on the roof instead of on your bed. You're not sure when you walked to the edge. But standing here now, swaying, looking out over the city, it seems so easy.
Looking at the sun set behind the city, the pink and orange and yellow hues all blending together and blending together in a wonderful concoction painted across the sky, you stop.
Then you take one step forward.