(Miley's P.O.V)
*2009 Teen choice awards; green carpet*
I stepped on the carpet, looking like the most confident person alive. It was all a lie. I was sick, upset, and worst of all; I was heartbroken. About one month ago I left the one person that could ever make me happy, and now I'm seeing him for the first time tonight. I don't know how ill be okay, or how I will survive this moment. I still loved him, with everything in me. I still needed him, like a rose needs the sun. But I couldn't stand for him to only be with me in his heart, we live so far. I don't see him unless its a day like today, and it seems that these days, I cant keep it together. I miss everything about him, and I still want him. I went through so much with him, hes my entire world. And I made it so that hes not mine. And I still haven't told him, I never will. I blew the chance of ever holding him at the end of a storm when I left him, through the phone to even make it worse. I remember the moment exactly, I dialed the phone with several tears in my eyes. With pain in my heart. He didn't see it coming, in fact it was even worse because of that. I called him during a break that I got on my set, and he thought i had called to tell him he was on my mind. When I was on the phone, I never told him how much i loved him and how much it was killing me to let him go. But I never spoke of that. I never told him that I would be sitting on my floor, crying, regretting, and hurting for so long. I never told him how sorry I was, and I never told him how much i loved him. I never even told him why i was leaving him.. but he did understand. The second time around, I'm realizing that it could even hurt more when you are the one leaving the person. You need to walk around knowing that you left without their heart. I continued walking on the carpet when my eyes finally met his. His dark brown, big eyes, his curly hair that had just been cut, and his flawless face. It was all right in front of me. But no longer mine to take, which I hated. He looked at me with a gentle gaze on his face, nothing more or less than his usual. We weren't around anyone but his brothers, and my little sister. Umm, Ill give you guys a chance to talk, Joe said. Noah, would you like to come meet some people with us? Frankie's here! Joe said, trying to give me and Nick a little time to talk. You look really pretty, Miley. Nick said with a quiet voice, and a little like he was about to bust out in tears. I'm sorry, Nick. What are you sorry for, Miley? Nick said starting to get not angry, but maybe a little frustrated. I'm sorry I never told you. I'm sorry I held it all in. I'm sorry you didn't know how much I love you, because, I do love you. More than Ive ever loved anyone. I finally had that moment, where I could tell him everything. That I loved him. And that I never meant to hurt him. Not that anything would truly changed, I still had set him free.