There had been that moment when you looked at me with those pained eyes and I knew what you were going to say, how you were going to say it and why you were going to say it. There was that moment when my heart had threatened to stop when you opened your mouth to speak to me. The words rushed beyond me, continuing through the forest.
"I do still love her, whatever I do is never enough to forget about her."
I had only nodded, trying not to cry infront of you. That was something that you didn't need to see. We both knew that, everyone knew it.
"Kagome?" You voice had shocked me, had you still been talking the entire time?
"No, not now Inuyasha. I need some time on my own now, excuse me."
You had stood there as I walked away. A hurt look covered your face. Shouldn't I have been the one sporting that look? Sango and Miroku were off doing whatever they were doing, how could they have all that love for eachother and the man I loved still loved someone who had died? Shouldn't his wounds for her healed by now? Was I not enough? My cheeks felt wet and I knew that I was crying now, the tears running heavy and obviously.
"Kagome-chan? Are you alright?"
I spun to see Sango. Her brown eyes looked cautious.
"Oh, Sango. Inuyasha still loves Kikyo, WHY?"
She
hugged me and rubbed my back as I stood sobbing into the shoulder of
her kimono. She walked me towards the small stream that was just
outside of the forest.
"Sit down, take some deep breaths. You're going to hypervenilate if you don't calm down."
She was right, I knew that. I closed my eyes and focused on keeping my breath steady. Then I could feel a cool cloth on my forehead.
"Hold that there for a moment. I think that Inuyasha loves you, Kagome, he's just torn between his past and the future that could be his."
I sighed, "Sango, sometimes thinking isn't enough. I need to know."
"How can I prove it to you, Kagome?" You said quietly. I heard Sango stand and leave us be.
"I just need to know that you are willing to sacrifice your past for me. I love you, Inuyasha. Haven't I made that clear yet?"
You then wrapped your arms around me and I could feel you shake, were you crying?
"I'm sorry, Kagome. I do love you, it's just so hard to let go of the past."
I hugged you in return. Our embrace felt so safe that I knew that what you had said was genuine. That was enough for me. I smiled as I dug my face into the red cloth of your sleeves.