When doubting.
...go to the library. No way. The answer was not in a book. This is not something one writes about in a book. There is a much simpler way : forget you ever doubted, don't think about it.
Month of June, 1981.
"So are you ready to believe anything? A Hogwarts teacher goes mad and you bring to me your fears that anything she said could be true?" The deatheaters all took a step backwards .
"I am the most powerful wizard ever, and well on my way to immortality. I have nothing to fear from anyone ! Don't ever doubt me. Crucio." The newly recruited deatheater collapsed to the ground, writhing.
This one would not last long, he had already made too much mistakes, either he would be catched by the ministry in the coming months, or he would be killed by The Dark Lord. Voldemort did not like failure, and above all, he did not like one challenging his powers.
" But to prove you that you that you were wrong... I will personally kill the possibly dangers-to-be." The Curse ended, leaving the boy lying on the ground. "Make a list of the names." The boy still managed to nod, not too bad, perhaps would he last longer then.
"My Lord, I am personally concerned." Interrupted the man standing in the front middle of the two rows of deatheaters.
"I know my friend. Have no fear. According to what this fool claimed, the danger shall be coming from a child that would be Gryffondor at heart. Your son is the last likely to fit that description, isn't he Lucius?"
"Yes, My Lord. Thank you."
"Good, the same to you Crabbe, and you Goyle. You all are more likely to father Slytherins than a child that would go in any other house." And then he added, playing on the accents of the words, making each of them resound emphatically. "And after I have dealt with this little problem of yours that you think could be mine, I expect more trust from you. Don't ever doubt me."
Doubt. As if one could doubt. There was absolutely no doubt in him. He had joined to fulfil his goal of making the world be ruled better. The muggleborns, the mudbloods were only causing mayhem in the wizarding world, mayhem indeed, they should not be able to get a wizarding education. Voldemort was only doing them justice. Muggleborns could not be trusted, here ,among the deatheaters only, he had found friends and understanding. Voldemort was the best thing ever to happen to the Wizarding World, after Paracelsus who was one of the first to bring method and logic into the complex art of brewing.
1 Beginning of July 1981
KcKinnon
Prewett
Potter
Bones
Longbottom
Weasley
.
.Nothing to wonder about, there almost is one Weasley per year. The list is long, it is going to be the Slaughter of the Innocents .What ??
He began to reread the list more slowly.
KcKinnon
Prewett
Potter.
Potter. So he had a child. A smile formed to his lips. And it is very likely to get him killed. Too bad. He smiled even more.
A small voice at the back of his mind tried to intervene: you shouldn't think that after what he did for you, he sav...
I HAVE the right to think that, especially after what he did TO me. her. Her child, it is her child too, she is in danger, he is totally unable to protect her, she will get hurt.
What if so? She is a muggleborn after all.
But it's Lily.
I have a doubt there. I should not. I shall not. I have to sort this out. Never mind her, she didn't love me, I swore to myself to forget her. Here I have real friends. Do you?
No, each deatheater followed his own ambitions, his own path to glory, they would betray if the price was high enough. He had no friends.
Why would Voldemort kill babies, purebloods, or of two wizarding parents? Has he gone mad? If we want to decrease the amount of muggles among us, we should not diminish our ranks. That is mathematical.
I have a doubt. What should I do? Do not, you swore obedience to Him. Do not think, obey.
But I cannot stop thinking, there are enough idiots among us like that.
"Don't ever doubt me."
I do now.
Right, think. Be logical. State facts.
Voldemort is about to hurt Lily, who I still love.
Damn FACTS, no feelings. Facts.
I have joined the deatheater when she decided to live with Potter.
Not relevant, if you mix things with her, you will not be able to think straight.
I have joined Voldemort to help him make things right in the Wizarding World, to restore the purity of the Wizards, and wipe the Mudbloods out.
That is a fact.
I have now a doubt concerning.the morality of his beliefs and of his followers.
(I have spent too much time not thinking, I have lost my hand at it.that I shall not let happen again)
Now he is going to kill purebloods and children of witches and wizards, because a fool doubted his power. That is against all we are supposed to believe in.
I don't have any beliefs anymore. I don't live for anything anymore. That is now clear.
What should I do with that now? Logic. I believe Voldemort is now wrong since he does not act according to logic. I shall then do what is right and warn the wizards families.
Who will believe you? You are from Slytherin.
I will warn the Ministry of Magic. Not possible, they are not organised enough, and there are some of us, some deatheathers among them. Who could believe you AND be powerful enough to act accordingly to the situation, to protect these families.
Dumbledore.
That is clear, when in doubt, go to Dumbledore.
...go to the library. No way. The answer was not in a book. This is not something one writes about in a book. There is a much simpler way : forget you ever doubted, don't think about it.
Month of June, 1981.
"So are you ready to believe anything? A Hogwarts teacher goes mad and you bring to me your fears that anything she said could be true?" The deatheaters all took a step backwards .
"I am the most powerful wizard ever, and well on my way to immortality. I have nothing to fear from anyone ! Don't ever doubt me. Crucio." The newly recruited deatheater collapsed to the ground, writhing.
This one would not last long, he had already made too much mistakes, either he would be catched by the ministry in the coming months, or he would be killed by The Dark Lord. Voldemort did not like failure, and above all, he did not like one challenging his powers.
" But to prove you that you that you were wrong... I will personally kill the possibly dangers-to-be." The Curse ended, leaving the boy lying on the ground. "Make a list of the names." The boy still managed to nod, not too bad, perhaps would he last longer then.
"My Lord, I am personally concerned." Interrupted the man standing in the front middle of the two rows of deatheaters.
"I know my friend. Have no fear. According to what this fool claimed, the danger shall be coming from a child that would be Gryffondor at heart. Your son is the last likely to fit that description, isn't he Lucius?"
"Yes, My Lord. Thank you."
"Good, the same to you Crabbe, and you Goyle. You all are more likely to father Slytherins than a child that would go in any other house." And then he added, playing on the accents of the words, making each of them resound emphatically. "And after I have dealt with this little problem of yours that you think could be mine, I expect more trust from you. Don't ever doubt me."
Doubt. As if one could doubt. There was absolutely no doubt in him. He had joined to fulfil his goal of making the world be ruled better. The muggleborns, the mudbloods were only causing mayhem in the wizarding world, mayhem indeed, they should not be able to get a wizarding education. Voldemort was only doing them justice. Muggleborns could not be trusted, here ,among the deatheaters only, he had found friends and understanding. Voldemort was the best thing ever to happen to the Wizarding World, after Paracelsus who was one of the first to bring method and logic into the complex art of brewing.
1 Beginning of July 1981
KcKinnon
Prewett
Potter
Bones
Longbottom
Weasley
.
.Nothing to wonder about, there almost is one Weasley per year. The list is long, it is going to be the Slaughter of the Innocents .What ??
He began to reread the list more slowly.
KcKinnon
Prewett
Potter.
Potter. So he had a child. A smile formed to his lips. And it is very likely to get him killed. Too bad. He smiled even more.
A small voice at the back of his mind tried to intervene: you shouldn't think that after what he did for you, he sav...
I HAVE the right to think that, especially after what he did TO me. her. Her child, it is her child too, she is in danger, he is totally unable to protect her, she will get hurt.
What if so? She is a muggleborn after all.
But it's Lily.
I have a doubt there. I should not. I shall not. I have to sort this out. Never mind her, she didn't love me, I swore to myself to forget her. Here I have real friends. Do you?
No, each deatheater followed his own ambitions, his own path to glory, they would betray if the price was high enough. He had no friends.
Why would Voldemort kill babies, purebloods, or of two wizarding parents? Has he gone mad? If we want to decrease the amount of muggles among us, we should not diminish our ranks. That is mathematical.
I have a doubt. What should I do? Do not, you swore obedience to Him. Do not think, obey.
But I cannot stop thinking, there are enough idiots among us like that.
"Don't ever doubt me."
I do now.
Right, think. Be logical. State facts.
Voldemort is about to hurt Lily, who I still love.
Damn FACTS, no feelings. Facts.
I have joined the deatheater when she decided to live with Potter.
Not relevant, if you mix things with her, you will not be able to think straight.
I have joined Voldemort to help him make things right in the Wizarding World, to restore the purity of the Wizards, and wipe the Mudbloods out.
That is a fact.
I have now a doubt concerning.the morality of his beliefs and of his followers.
(I have spent too much time not thinking, I have lost my hand at it.that I shall not let happen again)
Now he is going to kill purebloods and children of witches and wizards, because a fool doubted his power. That is against all we are supposed to believe in.
I don't have any beliefs anymore. I don't live for anything anymore. That is now clear.
What should I do with that now? Logic. I believe Voldemort is now wrong since he does not act according to logic. I shall then do what is right and warn the wizards families.
Who will believe you? You are from Slytherin.
I will warn the Ministry of Magic. Not possible, they are not organised enough, and there are some of us, some deatheathers among them. Who could believe you AND be powerful enough to act accordingly to the situation, to protect these families.
Dumbledore.
That is clear, when in doubt, go to Dumbledore.