At the age of sixteen, Lovino realized that being a teenager sucked. You were too old to be as optimistic as a child but too young to cope with all of the emotions that you deal with on a regular basis.
Like envy.
He tried so hard to deny and ignore the dreadful feeling. But of course life never makes anything easy. Every second of the day he heard how amazing, intelligent, artistic, or how adorable his younger brother was. It pissed him off!
Not because he hated his brother or anything, he loved him more than anything else. But constantly hearing about the success of someone younger than you eventually got annoying.
So what if his brother's art was being featured in some gallery, or if he made straight A's yet again! What about his achievements, weren't they important? What made his brother so special? The idiot didn't even try to succeed, he didn't have to.
He was a genius, a protégée.
Something Lovino would never be, he wasn't special and he had to work hard if he wanted anything.
Lovino could draw a pretty decent tree, and his brother could make it better. Hell, he could draw everything surrounding the tree while he was at it.
Lovino usually made B's, and an A if he was lucky. Which is nice and all but Feliciano only made A's.
Few people have told Lovino how handsome he was. Though his brother was constantly being chased by modeling agencies dying to recruit him.
Even his brother's name was better! What the hell was his father thinking when he named him? His brother's name translated to happy, which is what he was and what everyone felt when they were around him. However, Lovino's name didn't even have a meaning, and the closest translation for it was "I ruin."
See where I'm going with this?
The point is, envy was a feeling Lovino was well acquainted with. He envied his brother because he was perfect in everything he did. He envied him because he knew he'd never be as great as him.
Lovino envied his brother because unlike Feliciano, he was a failure and he always would be.
I want to update my other stories but I have no motivation, so I wrote this! Basically, each chapter is about an expierence or feeling many teenagers have experienced at some point. I hope you enjoyed this chapter!