Forgiveness before I leave
Sometimes I just wish, I could run away and hide.
But I know I can't… wherever I go MI6, Scorpia, everyone, will find me. Hiding is impossible.
No matter where I go, these feelings stay inside. feelings of guilt, regret and endless pain. Guilt for all the people who died because of me…because…because I had to go and be a spy, Alex Rider teenage Spy Extraordinaire…
Its all my fault. Not that I wanted to be one but my fault anyhow.
The overflowing fountain of regret that I feel every second of the day. Regret that I couldn't have tried harder to protect all of them, that I didn't find out who Ian was and stop him from going Cornwall then none of this would have happened. If I had then I would be living a boring life with school, homework and girls like every other NORMAL teenage boy.
Instead I wasted my teenage life going on dangerous missions and missing schools and can I stay here and live each day a lie, a lie that keeps growing and evolving into an even bigger one but what can I do. If I tell them the truth then I can be guaranteed that they'll be in even more all I want to do is close my eyes and…. And die?
I see the pain I cause everyone around me, withevery tear I shed, I ask for forgiveness for what I'm about to do, for taking the easy way out but I just can't bare it anymore which ever single drop of my tears that fall I say I'm sorry I couldn't protect you all.
All I have left is Tom but who is to say he won't be taken away from me tomorrow. He says he'll always be there but how does he know, how can I believe that when everything I care for disappears before my eyes. So I plead with you tom, let me go instead I can't stay with you so please let me go.I wish I could be with you , in a happy place where everything was okay, I wish I could take you with me but I want you to stay here for me' live your life for the both of us but I can't stay I want to go to that special place where there all waiting for me… Mum, Dad, Uncle Ian, jack. Whether it exists or not, it is time for me to face.I ask for your forgiveness. It may seem ungrateful, but this life's not meant for me I just want to be you for all your love and care , for all the fun times we shared, It means the world to me, to know that someone cared…Bye love you even in death.
The body of 15 year old Alex Rider was found in the Thames early this morning. It seems the teen had committed suicide. Police has revealed that they found a letter for someone from where he jumped and will be contacting…
Tom Harris sat shocked at his kitchen table staring at the TV. Everything was eerily quiet and it seems for once his parents weren't arguing.
It had to be a joke or…or another Alex Rider, He had to be dreaming. The flashing lights and the sound of police sirens filled his ears. The doorbell rings and without even registering getting up he was opening the door to see sombre looking police officers staring back at him with sympathetic pitying eyes and he knew. It was real… Alex was gone.
A/N
I'm not a really good writer and I just felt like writing this so if it wasn't any good sorry but I had to write it. Review please.