A/N: So if you aren't caught up with The 100 just know this takes place after Lexa dies. The City of Light is not a factor here and no one has taken the pill. I hope you all enjoy this story and let me know what you are thinking!

Thank you to my amazing beta reader and friend Lindsgay. If you are a single girl hit her up, if not follow her on twitter she's great!

That's not what was supposed to happen. It was purely unbelievable that whatever greater being there was choose to do what it did. There were no explanations for what Clarke had just witnessed.

Up in the Ark she had read these wonderful fairy tales about how one finds their soulmate and live happily ever after. The man would whisk his lover away to finally proclaim their love for each other in the most profound way. After her father died she was convinced those stories were just figments of one's imagination.

That was until she met Lexa. For a moment all those stories seemed to be true. Being in bed with Lexa just moments ago finally filled a hole in her since her father's passing. She was always too busy to find how to close up that gash. Only Lexa had done it without her noticing. Time and time again she had slipped herself into her heart and patched up.

After Clarke had shut the door of her room she realized how strong their connection was physically. Her fingers tracing her skin set it on fire and her desperate breathe ringing through her ear sending her mind to another planet. And the worse you ask? Its when her lips brush against hers emitting a curse of a beautiful disaster through her body, leaving her not wanting but needing more.

But just like the snap of a finger it was all gone. Titus had taken away the one person who finally understood her pain, a pain she didn't have to explain. Suddenly her world was crashing around her as everyone froze in place realizing what had happen. Lexa was dead.

The tears kept coming and coming. Even if she wanted to stop, how could she? Had she said enough, did she say the right things? Why didn't she tell her she loved her? Out of all the things she could have said she couldn't even tell her the one true thing she sure of.

Now Lexa was gone.

"Clarke." Titus' voice rang behind her. It was taking much self control not to rip his throat out. His hands locked on her shoulder wanting to complete the rest of the ritual.

"Clarke." He sounded again this time evoking a reaction. She gawked blankly though. The man who killed her love had her blood dripping down his head. No ritual could justify that.

"Clarke, you must listen. There is a tale of a woman, a healer, who can bring the dead back to life. It is said she lives only a day ride from here."

"Why are you telling me this?" Clarke cried softly. It was absurd to even think that were possible and that kind of hope was disgustingly dangerous.

"In all my years of Fleimkepa, I've never seen one like Heda. I feared her actions were driven with heart and not head but it's what made her reign stronger."

This was unbelievable and cruel. Bringing someone back to life? Now that was some fairytale line scripted out of one of those books she had read. Titus must not take death well or he was truly desperate. To kill someone and then offer a way back to life reeks of distress.

"How do I know you aren't trying to rid me?" Clarke wiped away her tears as she searched for little strength she had.

Titus pulled a book from his cloak and handed it to her. It was an old small book carved out with symbols on it's cover. The beige book could be her only ticket back to happiness.

"This will lead you there. The story says she has ten days. Once that time has passed, her body can no longer be salvaged. I will keep her body hidden, for now."

"This isn't a hoax?"

"You can see for yourself."

Clarke looked at the man who stood with pleading eyes. She was unsure whether this was to rid of her or he was afraid of who will replace her. Odds are Ontari would be the first to take action to revenge the Ice Queen. That did not look favorable for either of their people.

"What if I don't go?"

"Then everyone will think you killed her."

With a nod of her head, Titus went into action mode quickly cleaning up himself then Lexa. "I can prepare your departur-"

"No, I need to return to the Ark first."

"Your time is limited."

"If we do this, we do this my way." Titus only nodded resuming what he had started.

Clarke had arrived at the Ark with an escort from the Grounders. From the hill she could see everyone working hard and preparing. Pike wanted to go to war and risk all these innocent lives for what?

This feud between them was absurd. All everyone wanted to do was live and why couldn't they do this in harmony? Lexa was supposed to keep this peace, she was the only one that could. Titus knew this and how powerful the Sky people are with their weapons. Clarke now had to find a way to keep everyone safe.

So she had to do this. Not for her, but for their people. Gratefully Clarke knew the secret entrance and made her way towards the Ark, keeping hidden from view. The lights from the guard's gun flashed in the open field.

Carefully Clarke kept low to the ground with her own weapon in hand just in case. Finally she arrived at the edge of the Ark where she had escaped before. Sneaking in she bolted to the one safe room she knew.

To no surprise the woman was in a control room working on a gadget of some sort. She wish she could just talk to her and just be a normal teenager for once. That wasn't the case now nor will it ever be.

Raven heard footsteps at door causing her head to jerk up. She watched as Clarke frantically closed and locked the door making sure they were completely alone.

"We have a problem."

The blonde was quick in her actions ignoring whatever Raven was demanding of her. Of course Clarke needed her help but she wasn't sure she wanted to give it. She left without explanation as always and left a lot of things here undone.

"Lexa is in trouble. I need to go-"

"Clarke I won't help you."

"We are in trouble. Raven you have to understand."

"I don't."

It was no different from now. Clarke would demand something of her without explanation then run off to try to save someone. This time Raven was not going to fall for it.

"Lexa is dead."

Fuck.

"Alright everything is packed to go." Raven had put the last of it in the bag as she tightened it up. Doing a mental checklist, there was not too much to pack. Afterall it was only a day away.

"Why are there two?" Clarke put hers on as she lifted the other.

"You think you are going alone?"

"Raven-"

"Quiet Princess. It's not for me it's for Laura."

"Whose Laura?"

"Long story, ask her another time. All you need to know is that she is a hundred percent Griffin supporter, only person I trust with you that we don't need here."

Clarke momentarily froze baffled by the statement. How could Raven trust someone she hadn't even met? Two soft knocks on the door came followed by the opening of the door. An unrecognizable girl quickly waltzed in then locked it behind her.

The brown haired girl was dressed in a dark green tank top and black leather jacket to cover herself up but not her wide smile. Her cargo pants revealed a slim figure promising she was athletic of some sort.

"Hi, I'm Laura Hollis! It's so wonderful to finally meet you! I've kept up with everything you do. I know I'm not like a badass like you but I really appreciate this opportunity. I am here at your service."

Her hand was reached out but Clarke only stared her up and down. Despite not wanting any help, she could use some company on the journey. If Raven trusted her then she could too.

Laura herself checked Clarke. She was not dressed like them but like grounders. Her clothing was darker and longer, easily blending in with the forest. It was a double take look for someone who is an original hundred. It made her check herself.

"Am I underdress? Overdress? See I didn't know what to pack last minute and-"

"Laura quiet." Raven spoke handing both the girls walkie talkies.

"My journey, my rules got it?" Clarke raised a brow to challenge Laura but that did not seem to stop her. Still eager, she nodded her head and grabbed her walkie talkie.

Great, Raven was sending her off with some annoying child to look after. She will probably get a headache within moments of their journey. This was for Lexa. She had to continue to remind herself of that.

"Laura." The petite girl turned to the blonde who held out a gun for her.

"I-I-I don't know if that's a good idea. I've never used one. I mean yeah I probably should know since we live in a post apocalyptic world but my dad always kept me away from them and now I don't know how to use one. Don't they have like an afterwards bang. Do you think I'm strong enough? I can lift some heavy weights you know."

The excessive talking was something they were going to have to work on. "I'll teach you the basics but I need to know something."

"Anything. Shoot!"

"We may not come back and I need you to be fully on board because one second thought could be the difference between survival and death." Clarke held out the gun waiting for her to make a decision.

Laura looked at Clarke for a moment and took in the sad expression on her face. The swollen blue eyes had seen far too much that what she could handle. From the stories she heard, it surprised her that the girl could still feel so much emotion because those eyes looked as if they had already experienced death.

It hurt to look. Clarke Griffin needed her help, so she was going to be there. Even if her father might kill her if she gets back, she knew she had to be doing this for a good cause. So she took the gun despite not knowing what she was in for.

The three had made it to the back unnoticed and planned to go under the fence where the horses awaited them. Titus insisted she take a grounder with her but she refused it. After much argument the grounder soldier would only help them begin their journey, from there they would retreat.

Laura had begun putting things through the fence as the two friends said goodbye.

"Alright when you need to get in contact with me just beep twice, three times if it's urgent. And don't respond if you don't hear my voice."

"Octavia knows the deal being presented, make sure she warns them when she arrives. Titus will keep things under control in Polis until I get back."

Nodding their heads they both took each other's advice knowing at this point, anything could happen. Raven watched as the girls began to make their exit only to see Clarke stop midway.

"I should accept the fact she's dead, shouldn't I." Clarke whispered, knowing it was the truth.

Raven sighed with a heavy breath moving closer towards Clarke. "If I had chance to save Finn like you do now, I wouldn't mind facing the consequences later."

That was the reassurance she didn't know she needed. No one knew about Lexa and her like that. Except Raven knew there was something more the moment she told her she was going on this trip.

Clarke hugged her friend goodbye before she led herself and Laura on a journey that could change everything. Only they weren't home-free yet.

"TRAITOR!"