Hooray, I've been bothered to put this up.

I've been so lazy lately, to be honest.

What with a certain person intriguing me more and more these days... *cough* Change subject...

So, here it is... Heartbeat, Heartbreak.

(In the beginning, it's crappy, but the grammar improves near the end of Chapter 2).

Disclaimer: I don't own Persona 4, Atlus, or anything related to it.

Okay, done. :D

Chapter 1

"No way! This can't be happening!" Yosuke held his head in his hands in despair. "What have I done? What have I done?!" Yosuke sobbed out loud as he watched Souji bleed out profusely.

"Yosuke, I'm not... dead yet." Souji coughed and spluttered up blood.

"I just wanted to tell you... that even though I won't be able to lead the team anymore... I want you to lead everyone." Souji gasped between words. "I want you to know that... I'll always love you Yosuke." Souji reached up and touched Yosuke's wet face.

Yosuke sobbed louder and held on to Souji's hand desperately.

"Souji... Souji don't leave me!" Yosuke cried. "I don't know what I'll do without you, Souji. I'll never be able to laugh with you or talk with you. I had fun with you, I'll never be able to do that ever again." Yosuke coughed and hiccupped as he cried.

Souji laughed a little and looked into Yosuke's eyes.

"You'll find someone else. You'll forget me and be with someone else, you'll be a lot happier without me. I'm certain of it." Souji smiled wryly.

Yosuke wanted to die alongside his boyfriend but wanted to live a full life too.

He was torn between the two.

"Souji, I'll never love again. Once you die, I'll never be with anyone else, I promise. You were and are the love of my life." Yosuke choked on his words.

"Yosuke, this hurts so badly. I don't want to die but... if it's to keep you alive... so be it." Souji closed his eyes slowly.

"I'll always love you...Yosuke Hanamura..." Souji whispered as he shut his eyes completely.

"S-Souji...?" Yosuke whispered, feeling for a pulse. Yosuke tapped Souji's face softly.

"Souji!" Yosuke became more and more panicky.

"Souji, please! Please don't do this to me!" Yosuke rested his head on Souji's lifeless body. Yosuke cried and bawled into Souji's t-shirt.

"SOUJI!" Yosuke screamed as he held Souji up in his arms.

His screams ricocheted off of every wall in the dungeon.

"Huh?" Chie and Yukiko looked around.

"Yosuke-senpai?!" Kanji looked around worriedly.

"Y-Yosuke? What happened?!" Teddie asked.

"S-Souji's..." Yosuke stopped to breathe in. "Souji's dead!" Yosuke screamed and everyone heard it. Everyone took a minute to register it, then all hell broke loose.

"Souji-kun!" Yukiko charged to where Yosuke was.

"Seta! No!" Chie shouted.

"Senpai! This isn't real, is it?" Kanji battled his way through every Shadow and darted to Yosuke's location.

"Sensei?! Wake up Sensei!" Teddie called.

"Ted, he won't EVER wake up! When will you get it?" Yosuke cried out.

"Sorry Yosuke, I know he meant a lot to you." Teddie said quietly.

"You have no idea Teddie." Yosuke whispered.

Everyone had finally reached Yosuke and looked at the two boys sorrowfully.

"Yosuke, we're sorry for not being here." Yukiko said, holding back tears.

Yosuke kept crying into Souji's lifeless body, searched in Souji's pockets and took out a large deck of cards. Yosuke looked through them quickly, found one, then stood up quietly. He threw up a Soul Food for himself.

"Yosuke, what are you doing?" Chie said, wiping her eyes.

"Ishtar, please... heal him." Yosuke slashed the card with all his might, then Ishtar appeared and used Samarecarm but it didn't work.

"Damn it. Come on Ishtar, this has to work!" Yosuke said as he slashed the card again.

The same thing happened over and over again. Yosuke fell to his knees and cried out loudly.

"No, Souji... I...I...!" Yosuke cried.

"Yosuke-senpai, we've got to leave him." Kanji put a hand on Yosuke's shoulder but Yosuke shrugged him off furiously.

"How can you even suggest that?! What kind of friend are you?!" Yosuke shouted at Kanji. Kanji stepped back, ashamed of what he'd said.

"You guys have to carry on alone. Souji said, before he died, that he wanted me to lead the team. But I can't, I'm not strong enough." Yosuke croaked, his voice sore. No one said a word, but they nodded and ran deeper into the dungeon. Yosuke dragged Souji's body to the entrance, and dragged him into the Velvet Room.

"Ah! Master Yosuke!" Margaret looked horrified.

"Please Margaret, is there anything you can do?" Yosuke gasped as he rested Souji on the floor.

"I'll see what I can do but I cannot guarantee anything." Margaret stood up and then knelt beside Souji's body.

Margaret lifted a hand over Souji's body and kept her eyes shut tightly. Her hand began to glow a deep purple but suddenly turned red. Yosuke bit into his knuckles nervously as Margaret's hand continued glowing red. Margaret opened her eyes and gasped, so she stopped hovering her hand over Souji and shook her head grimly.

"I'm sorry, there's nothing I can do." Margaret said regretfully.

"No...!" Yosuke squeaked.

"Master Yosuke, leave his body here. I shall find a way to revive him." Margaret lifted her hand and Souji floated onto Margaret's lap.

"Thank you." Yosuke croaked as he left the Velvet Room.

Yosuke sat by the TVs that led to the Junes electronics department, with his head in his hands. The rest of the group approached Yosuke cautiously.

"So Yosuke-senpai... where did you... put his body?" Kanji asked, prepared for another outburst.

"In a safe place. Somewhere that no one can find him." Yosuke said quietly. The group stayed silent as Yosuke stood up and walked over to the TVs.

"Come on. What are you waiting for?" Yosuke croaked. The group blinked at Yosuke in confusion, and Yosuke rolled his eyes as a response.

"I'm going home. I... need to sleep." Yosuke snapped, but not as angrily as usual.

"O-Okay Yosuke-senpai." Kanji stuttered.

"Y-Yeah Yosuke... l-let's go home." Yukiko looked down at her feet. Chie stayed silent but looked at Yosuke with sympathy.

Yosuke smiled sadly and went through the TV. Everyone followed him, stunned and dazed. They all emerged into the Junes electronics department and offered to walk Yosuke home.

"No, it's okay. I'll go alone. I have some things to think about." Yosuke sighed, waved a hand and walked off.

"He's not okay, we need to look out for him. He's lost the only person that he's loved since Saki-senpai." Yukiko said, sniffing.

"Yeah. We need to do our part too." Chie pitched in, her eyes a bright red.

"We can do this, no problem. Yosuke-senpai will be fine once we're done with him." Kanji added positively.

Yosuke was the opposite of positive, however. When he was walking home, he had the urge to run to the Samegawa River and drown himself in the cold water.

"No, this isn't what Souji would have wanted. Would it?" Yosuke questioned himself multiple times. Yosuke reached home unscathed but was still unhappy.

"Why did this have to happen to Souji? Why now?" Yosuke felt tears prick his eyes but tried to hold them back. He went up to his room and buried his head into the pillow that Souji had slept on, sniffing his musky scent.

"Souji, I'm sorry. You can hear me, right? I'm sorry that I never protected you when I had the chance." Yosuke muttered into the pillow.

"What kind of boyfriend am I? Living when I couldn't let you live yourself, and now..." Yosuke stopped talking and began breathing abnormally.

"I-I can't help b-b-but think that... you never w-wanted to d-die." Yosuke stuttered more than normal.

"Y-You would be here if I had protected you." Yosuke told himself. Yosuke closed his eyes, his face buried into the pillow.

"I'm sorry for being a coward Souji."