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It's my own translation with a correcting by SalieriSin. A big thanks to her
« I love you »
The first time Mickey said these three words, the situation was desperate. Ian had kidnapped his son so he said them on the phone. On his voice mail. Did he think finally telling Ian would make him come back? Maybe. But it was mainly because he was in such distress that they had come out of his mouth. He had been thinking it for a long time but he had never managed to say them out loud. Mickey also paid no attention to his hooker of a wife behind him who had raised her head in surprise on hearing it. Svetlana had understood a long time ago but she would never have thought that one day he would actually say it. She did feel the anguish twisting Milkovich's guts, though.
« I love you »
The second time these words came out of his mouth, Mickey was looking Ian in the eyes. The Gallagher had disappeared for some time and he had just called to tell him to meet him at his house. Mickey had run until he was out of breath to get to him. He had been worried sick, he had to see him as soon as possible. Yet, again, it was the the situation that made him say it. Ian thought Mickey didn't love him anymore, he'd told him he didn't know him anymore and it just came out. What better way to prove his feelings towards him than to say it? Looking back on it, he knows he told him because he had the feeling that there was something wrong. And there was, Ian had broken up with him. Mickey's voice had broken at the same time as his heart.
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The third time...No, there won't be a third time. Mickey can't say it anymore. Oh of course, he said other words instead, he told Ian he had him under his skin and there was nothing he could do about it. Maybe that was stronger than an "I love you" but it didn't change anything in the end, his redhead couldn't go all the way. Then Mickey will never be able to say these three words again to anyone, because his heart belongs to the Gallagher and that's not going to change any time soon. Because now that he's crossed that line, he's alone. Because Ian will never be near him again. Because Ian will never make love to him again. Nevertheless, these words will continue to run under his skin, to course through his veins, to ignite his heart and to destroy his mind. Because now what the hell is he going to do in Mexico without the man of his life?
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Mickey wipes furiously away the tears that run down his cheeks. One day he will be able to say them again, one day Ian will hear them again. Never say never. Mickey will shout at Ian his "I love you" and this time nothing and no one will be able to keep them apart. It might be in a week, it might be in ten years. They will find each other again, the Milkovich will do everything for that and to hell with those who might try to stop him.