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Summary: What happen when you have nowhere or no one to go to? The guilt he carries inside is bigger than anyone can imagine. And it gets worst when he think about it.

Long lost memories

Prologue

Harry felt very lonely; he has never been like this in his whole life. The pain was huge; the cause of this pain was Sirius's dead. In other time he would have probably manage it better but now he couldn't deal with it. He was alone in this world; he has nowhere to go, no one who listens to him. And he was the one responsible of everything, if he had just listen to Hermione, if he had just remember the mirror that Sirius gave him… Now he is sitting in Grimauld Place thinking of what his best friends are doing, how he misses his old friends.

What happened to Hermione, his confident? Well, he messed up with her. He thought that if she hadn't tell him to see if Sirius was in Grimauld Place it would had all been different, that old hag wouldn't had find them and make them lost their time. But then Snape wouldn't have notice that they were going to the Ministry of Magic and they would have die. He yelled at Hermione because he thought she knew something and wasn't going to tell him, something that can probably prevent Sirius's dead.

And Ron, his best friend? Where is he when he needed him the most? Right, he messed up with him too… He accused Percy for his dead, if he would have only help to watch the Department of Mysteries, maybe he wouldn't be dead… And why Ron had to defend him?

Remus? He disappeared after his dead, he run away looking for revenge, something that can help Sirius come back. The other members of the order didn't now what to do with him, Harry. He can see the way they look at him, with pity. They tried to go there and talk to him, but they couldn't stay long, and the Weasley's didn't want to get in there at all, so he was alone again…

What can he do now? Just wait for an absolution that will never come. Can this be just a nightmare? No, it is too bad to be a nightmare. This is hell for him. Maybe he can look for something in Sirius's things that can help him get over it.

He looked in his room, everything was perfect, and it seems that in there the time was frozen. He looked under his bed and found a box that said "Long lost memories."