I wanted you, body and soul. I wanted to give you the world. I wanted you at arms length while I lavished you in riches beyond your imagination. I wanted you apart of my world. I wanted you with a need I never thought I would crave to fill.
But you wanted nothing of it. You laughed in my face and refused my offer to make you the ruler of my universe, no, master of it. My own personal master of my very limited universe that was closed to the world.
Everything I wanted for you, you threw back at me. No gift was good enough for you. You defied me and taunted me. I wanted your absolute obedience and I wanted to love you absolutely.
Oh how I wanted to love you. You were a breath of fresh air, a drink of cool water after a blistering day in the hot desert. I longed to have you at my side and I found myself, suddenly, acting my age. Oh to be carefree and young without a problem to worry about. It was very seductive and I craved it every minute we were separated.
For the first time in my life, I had finally felt free. You freed me from my darkness. I was suddenly bathed in light and it was the only thing to ever warm me. It was intoxicating and additive. I never wanted it to end, but then the light was torn from me.
I was left in darkness, blind and groping for your warmth but you were gone. The light deserted me and I am sinking in darkness filled with a hungry emptiness. The vast, hungry emptiness you left behind when you left me. I am not a man no longer, but a heartless, husk of one, barely surviving each new day you are gone from me.