Dear Diary: (Kirino version)

Disclaimer: Don't own.

I hate romance between a main character of a story and an oc. I apologize for the ooc-ish behaviors, but it's a diary so basically you can confide to it all you want without anyone knowing. It is basically what is shown on the inside of a girl. Loosely based off the first episode. Actually it is a summary of the first episode through the eyes of Kirino and her thoughts. Yeah read at your own risk, this is not like other stories I've written. Not much dialogue, just thoughts. 50% chance you like, 50% you dislike.

Dear Diary…

Today started out as a regular day. I woke up early to go to morning practice, so I couldn't see my baka Aniki. I've called him an idiot in my head for the past, I don't even remember how long it was. Anyways, I had to get up early and it sucked. I mean I love track, don't get me wrong, but waking up early was not cool. Last night I stayed up pretty late playing eroge, I had to finish the route, my conscience wouldn't let me sleep until I did. I was up until 4 in the morning, I woke up at 6. Not cool.

When school let out I rushed home to plop on the couch to wait for my baka Aniki. I could've stayed to hang with my friends but I chose him instead. Weird huh? Anyways the door opened and my heart skipped a beat, I started to talk louder on the phone, obviously to get his attention. I think it worked because he started to stare at me. I glanced at him and he said "I'm home". I ignored him like always and continued my conversation with Ayase. He poured some tea and exited the room.

Well, now that I had seen my baka Aniki, I was free to go hang with my friends. I rushed out of the room. I collided into my baka Aniki and fell on the ground, hard. My purse went flying and a couple things dropped out. I scrambled to put the things back in my purse.

I suppose baka Aniki intended to help me because he apologized and tried to help me pick up. But, I quickly slapped his hand away and hid my face. I was blushing. He hadn't talked to me in years (except for the occasional "I'm back") and the first word he says towards me were "I'm sorry", how messed up is that? Nonetheless I was a bit flushed by the way our hands connected when I slapped his hand away and yelled for him not to touch me. The reason I slapped his hand away was because I didn't want him to find out I was an otaku. What if he shunned me? What if he looked at me with disgust? That would be worse than dad finding out. And it honestly scared me, I would take the whole ignoring over disgust any day.

I picked up my things and went my way, out of the house that contained him, I didn't want to look at the hurt/angry expression he probably carried and I didn't want to feel guilty.

I was missing something, my eroge! Where was it? Did I misplace it? I rushed home, I checked where me and baka Aniki bumped into each other. I searched and searched. I felt like crying, if anybody in my family found it, I'd socially die. I just spaced out by the stairs and carried a horrified expression. Baka Aniki stared at me as he passed by and asked what I was doing, I told him to mind his own damned business.

Later, at dinner, Baka Aniki started blabbing about my precious anime. I knew it was a trap but I started to shiver. Maybe I was scared, Maybe I wanted him to find out. I left the dinner table in a hurry and started to search his room right when he left to go buy ice cream.

I entered his room and was soon intoxicated with his smell. So this is how he smells like I wonder to myself. But, this wasn't the time to smell out his room. I started to search for my DVD. He burst into his room.

I'm so stupid, I fell for it. Like hell the idiot was yelling he was going to the store on purpose. I tried to deny the fact the DVD he was holding in front of my face was mine. I guess my body really wanted my anime back. I was scared, was he going to blackmail me now that he knew?

"Here throw it away for me"

"Huh?"

"It doesn't belong to you, could you throw it away for me?"

He gave it back… and didn't question me any further. I blushed. If he hadn't ignored me for the past decade I might have fallen for him. Whoa. Wait a minute. Forget I said that okay? Anyways lots of things happened after that.

I went back to my room to think what had happened. I decided to trust the idiot. At night I snuck into his room and jumped onto his body. He surprisingly didn't wake up. I kept straddling his stomach while staring at his face, he was kinda cute. To get rid of the heavy blush on my face I slapped him awake and told him to follow me to my room.

I finally did it, I showed him my anime/eroge collection and told him I was an otaku. I even told him that it turned me on when the girls in the eroge called me onii-chan and what not. He wasn't disgusted. He was a bit surprised though. He accepted it. I know the types of little sister's I like are really different from me.

He asked me why I liked them, I replied an "I don't know". I knew the reason, after he started ignoring me, I started to crave attention. And then I discovered eroge, and then imouto eroge. You see where this is going don't you?

When I almost went to talk to mom and dad about it, he piped up and said he'd help me. He asked if I had "Ulterior motives". I called him a sicko but in my head I was thinking about the question hard.

I made him play his first imouto eroge with me today. It was awesome playing it with someone else, too bad baka Aniki sucks hard at it. At this rate he's never going to score with his little sister. Wait. I mean in the game…! Not in real life you sickos. Quit being so damn gross you perverts…! I mean only perverts would look in someone's diary, you know. So Stop Being A Pervert. Disgusting!

End of Episode 1.

I'm sorry guys, I don't think I can make it to episode 15, and beyond. I'm used to writing dialogue and oneshots. I'm not used to suspense of affections and stuff. Basically I'm used to, "I love you." "Oh, I love you too". Honestly speaking, you guys would really be doing me a favor if you guys wrote a review saying where it sucked and how I could correct it. I think I used too much of the episode. I was watching the episode while writing.

Btw it says Kirino because I was planning on doing one with Kyousuke, Kuroneko, and also Ayase. But I'm not too sure anymore, this took a long time and it was hard too!