This guilt is eating me alive. I did not mean to do it, it just happened and now...I do not know what do. Everyone treats me like everything is okay but I can sense they are thinking otherwise.
They all smile happily but deep down I know they hate me for what I've done. I've started this revolution and I have to end it. They must feel as if I've dragged them into my problem.
However, my smile...I hide all my feelings, swallow them into my unsettling stomach that churns with the guilt I have indirectly brought upon myself. I just going through the motions of the day, holding back my ready to fall tears and my negative emotions, it is just too much. So I ask...
Why am I feeling guilty?
I just wanted to bring something back to its original being. Nothing more, nothing less. They all probably just hate me; look at me with scorn behind my back.
They say they are going along with me because now they understand what they must do for the sake of soccer but I am unsure if that is true. I cry every night asking myself if what I am doing is right. They say that I helped to fast forward things and thank me for it.
However, I do not deserve it.
I am guilty because that is what I am feeling. I clench my hands, my tears spill but even so, I still feel it. I hate this feeling, I've said sorry so why hasn't it gone away? Is it because they say there is no reason for it?
If I hadn't came to this school:
Minamisawa would still be here.
Kudou would still be out coach.
There would be no fighting.
Tsurugi's brother would be walking again.
Shindou would not have gotten hurt...
That is all because of my existence.
However, I have been told to look at the bright side.
If I had not come here.
Endou would not have been our coach.
Kidou would not have been out trainer.
I would have never found good friends.
Real soccer would have been only a myth.
Ishido would still be the holy emperor.
And...
We would not have achieved real soccer and we would not have become a family...
Nevertheless, my guilt...its still here, even after all this happiness. Why do I still have the need to cry? Why do I still feel guilty? Why…Why! I don't understand. I just want this pain to stop. I don't know how to stop this pain…
Therefore, here is my fic. Now I am feeling guilty for something I did not do so I wrote this to transfer that guilt. It is kind of like Tenma feeling guilty for the revolution, even though it is not true. I DO NOT OWN INAZUMA ELEVEN!