I should have knocked. I should have called out. I should have done anything but what I did. I walked into your room, wanting to surprise you. Instead, I was the one that got the biggest surprise, as usual. I only ever managed to surprise you once, and that was when I had met Dr. J. I never got the jump on you again.

But you've gotten me again.

Did you even see me in the door? I don't think so. I was quiet, and Duo was...not quiet.

Duo was making the sort of noise I always imagined I would in your arms. At least I was right about that. And right about you being gorgeous...well...both of you are gorgeous naked. I...I looked for a moment before shutting the door as quietly as I could. I couldn't help but look, both of you are so beautiful. Even though it hurt, it was also somehow a perfect image.

You'll just have to forgive me this stolen image I think I will keep close to me.

Now I'm standing in the park in the middle of December, freezing. But not from the outside. It's cold, but this chill is from inside. From the broken dreams that shattered around me today. And the fear of having to find new dreams. The unknown is so much scarier than the known, no matter how unattainable.

I never saw it coming.

I should have seen it. I should have realized that only reason you smiled at Duo at all was for love. You never smiled at anyone else. I thought it was just his charm, his unfailingly cute joker ways...

Well, it was that wasn't it? And it must have taken Duo strait to your heart.

Because I don't see you doing what I just saw unless you love, unless your heart and emotions are involved.

I can't be angry, I just want you to be happy. Both of you, really. Duo is a wonderful person, and I love him dearly. I think...I think he and Quatre are my best friends.

I'd just hoped it would be me. I thought I had a chance. That one day I would lay under you like that, making just that sound.

Surprise.