Her Only Hope

I know the definition of pain. I lived with it for almost a year. So when I heard that his imprint left him, I know I had to save him from that agony. When someone you love rips out your heart and it's the person you love more than anything it makes you numb to everything, cold to the people that want to help you, but more importantly it makes you feel worthless. All I wanted was to save him, not fall in love with him, but he made me. He did what Jacob tried so hard to do. He made me forget Edward. It's just too bad that he doesn't feel the same. His imprint would come back eventually and Edward …Well he never let me go.

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Chapter One the invitation

I needed to go to La Push and see Billy. Ever since Jacob's run away Billy's been on his own of course he had the pack but they had enough to deal with. There was only some much they can do expects now that Emily's pregnant. There was only two very annoying problems stopping me from going and their names are Alice and Edward. Every time I tried to talk to him about it he would say no and Alice would agree with him. When I tried to sneak to La Push Alice would see me (no matter how hard I tried not to think about it) and tell Edward.

No matter what I did I couldn't get passed them and it angered me to no end. It was times like this being human really sucked. What was a weak fragile human to do when the only person on your side is married to a vain snob who doesn't like you? The only way I could make them suffer was not letting Alice play Bella Barbie and not letting Edward in my room.

Every night before I went to bed I would close and lock my window and whenever they would try to invite me over I would refuse to come over. Which is driving them both crazy? Alice wanted me to break in a pair of high shoes for my wedding but I wouldn't come over and I would leave when I knew she was coming over. Needless to say they were not very happy with me but on the bright side my dad's happy. He could sense I was mad at Edward and he loved every second of it. He would walk around with the biggest smile on his face and when Edward came over to see me his smile only got bigger. One night I overheard Charlie talking to Billy about how Edward and I were fighting.

He sounds it like a preacher telling his congregation that he saw the face of the lord. I know I should have ran out of the kitchen told him that he shouldn't be happy that Edward and I were having problems and that we were getting married whether he liked it or not but I didn't. Why I didn't do it, I don't know. My thought was interrupted by my cell phone. I looked at the caller I.D well I prayed it was Edward. I let out a sigh of relief when I saw Seth's name. "Hi Seth". "Hi Bella "he said sadly. "Seth is something wrong"? "You sound off." It broke my heart when Seth was sad. "Don't tell me that Quil and Paul are making fun of you again"? Oh, they are so going to get it." I thought.

"I'm going to get my crow bar." "WAIT BELLA "Seth yelled"! "They didn't do anything this time". "Then what's wrong with you"? "It's about the invitation you sent Jacob." "What"? I said completely taken back by what he said. "I'm sorry Bella. I know you didn't send it but Sam made me ask so Leah would shut up about it". "Jacob… got an invitation to my… wedding" I whispered. "Yeah, Leah won't stop talking about it. She keeps going on and on about but I know you didn't do it because you're Bella." He said the last part happily.

"Thanks Seth. "You're the best." "Yeah, I know. Now only the rest of the pack was as smart as you." He mumbled." Now back to the matter at hand if you didn't send the invitation to Jacob who did?" It was the obvious but painful answer. "Edward." I whispered. He had the most to gain and he made it clear that he didn't want me around the pack.

Doubt started to creep its way into my mind, which scared me because I've never doubted my love for Edward. Memories of the times I cried my eyes out while Edward held me flashed before my eyes. I blamed myself for Jacob leaving but Edward would whisper in my ear so sweetly that it wasn't my fault and he was right. It was his fault Jacob left..

"Hey don't be sad Bella I'm sure he had a good reason." Seth said trying to cheer me up. "I doubt it." I said. "Maybe you two need some space." Great idea Seth for I live in Edward is a vampire if he wants to see he can and he would never agree to that." "Then come to La Push we all miss you." Yeah right I thought. Leah's made it clear that I that she didn't want me in La Push or around her brother. I'm positive that if she found out Seth was talking to me she would freak out. I would love see to Seth but Edward won't let me come.

"No offense Bella, but Edward sounds controlling." "He…" I wanted it defend Edward but Seth was right. I love him Seth. I don't know what to do any more I whispered. "Just come La Push Bella it's the only place Edward can't come and get you". "You'll be safe to think without any interruptions." "I don't know Seth". "Please Bella I really miss you he said sadly"

. It's impossible to tell Seth no because you know you were going to break his heart. "Okay" I said reluctantly. "Yes" he yelled. "But I have to go talk to the Cullen's first". "Promise you won't let them talk me out of coming". "I promise Seth". "I now it's going to hurt. But you're right I need space to think". "What Edward was wrong and what kind of friend would I be if I let him hurt the people I love". "Do you want me to go with you"? "No I have to do this alone". "I need to be strong for once. Just do me favor could you ask Billy if it's okay if stay with him for a few days". "Sure Billy's going to ecstatic when I ask him but what about Charlie." "Charlie's going to be jumping with joy".

"Wow he really does like Edward". "He still calls him Edwin" I admitted sadly. "Well I have to go Bella I got to go". "Yeah I'll see you later". "Bye Bella". I hung up and throw my phone on the bed. I can believe he would do this. "Yes you do a little voice in the back of my head said. You know the moment Seth said the invitation that it was him. You couldn't even defend him. I looked down at my engagement ring and slowly toke it off. It felt so good to have it off. Like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

It pathetic how you let him rule your life. Those were the last words Paul Lahote said after I chose Edward and he was right. I am pathetic but I don't want to be. Then grow a backbone Swan. That what he would say and that exactly what I going to do. So I grab my duffle bag and pack everything I'm going to need. I pick up my ring that at some point I sat down on my bed and stuff it into my back pocket and went down stairs to tell Charlie that I'm staying with Billy.