Ok here is chapter one for my Awkward Fanfic. Tell me what you think Mates.
Lately I have been having second thoughts about choosing Matty. I mean, don't get me wrong Matty rocked my world in more ways then Jake ever has, but there is something about us that doesn't fit. Maybe it's the way we start the morning with a casual bumping of uglies in the sanctuary, or maybe it is seeing T with Jake. Whatever it is, is sucking some serious ass. Take this morning for example, we got to school early and he leads me to the sanctuary. "Matty, can we just talk for a moment?" I ask as he goes at my face like a hungry lion attacking his prey.
"Later Jenna," he says heavily as he takes his shirt off. After the pregnancy scare I thought he would be more carful. But I guess I was wrong. "Jenna, condom?" He asked avoiding using full sentences.
"No, in my purse at home." I told him. "I'm not on the pill, and I think I'm ovulating. We should probably just wait until we get a condom." I said hoping that would slow him down.
"Yea, you are probably right." He said as he put his shirt back on. "Talk to you later Jenna." He said just leaving me there alone. I scramble to get my shirt buttoned up then stumble out of the sanctuary, only to trip over a pop can and fall onto Jake.
"Careful Hamilton, boyfriend just walked away. Wouldn't want him thinking your cheating on him." Jake said then kissed me gently. Did I forget to mention that Jake and I are together too. It has been confusing, and quite frankly making things a little bit AWKWARD.
It all started about a month ago. T and Jake just had gotten into this huge fight, and Matty was still mad at me for not tell him about the pregnancy scare. We were both a bit drunk but our quickie in the backseat of his car was more passionate then anything I have ever had with Matty. Sure I was a bit buzzed but I knew it felt good. "Jenna, I think T thinks something is up." Jake said as we walked into the back corner of the sanctuary.
"No, I talk to Tamara every night, there is no way she knows. Matty is clueless. Although he does seem to be demanding sex a lot lately." I add.
"Oh, Jenna, having sex with my best friend and telling me about before I try to have sex with you. Not pleasant." Jake said cringing up his face. "If I banged Tamara I would tell you before we do, it's just unpleasant." Jake joked around.
"I have been with holding sex. This time I told him I was ovulating, and didn't have a condom. He put his shirt in and left." I told Jake. "I though after the pregnancy scare that he wouldn't be so willing. But I was wrong."
"Seriously Jenna, your making me jealous." Jake said as he sat me up on the lid of the trash bin.
"Don't worry Jake, I think I'm dumping Matty. I have thought about it and he just isn't into the relationship anymore. He just wants sex, sex, and more sex. My Vag is beginning to go raw. Then there is you, you call me and message me. Bring me flowers to my back door. No pun intended." I joked around.
"Ok, let me know when you do." He said as he kissed the top of my head. "We better get going before Tamara and Matty notice that we are gone." At home that night I had a disk on to make.
"What to title today's episode, of Jenna's Life?" I questioned to myself. I typed in the title box Suckfest 2013.
Today sucked some serious ass. Start off making out with Matty, then with Jake. To choose is hard. Jake has always been nice to me, but Matty tried to hide me when we first spent the passionate night f*cking at summer camp. Jake gets me in ways Matty never will. When I'm with Jake everything is ok. I guess I have to take then advise from my moms letter and stop being a pussy and just choose.
I closed my laptop just as Matty walked up to my door. "Hey sexy," he commented as I let him in. "What do you say, want to go to your club house and reminisce in old times?" He asks suggestively.
"Matty, I really need to talk to you." I said shoving him off of me. "This is serious. You are treating or relationship like I'm some escort you pay to be with you. I'm tired of it, I hate being used just for sex Matty." I come clean.
"So what, are you breaking up with me?" He asked me. "Jenna, I know I'm not the perfect boyfriend but I can change. I didn't realize how much it hurt you. Give me one more chance." He begged me.
Somehow in someway, I couldn't refuse him. Maybe dumping him isn't the right choice after all. "Ok, but you have to go, my mom is in the next room, I can not have her walking in on us... Again." I gave him a peck on the lips as I shoved him back out my door. And as if on cue my phone rang. "Hey hey hot stuff." I answer the phone.
"Jenna, I'm out by the clubhouse." Jake said then hung up. I put my phone down and walked out to the clubhouse. When I opened the clubhouse door there were candles lit and a small table set up with a pie on it. "I figured you had already ate so I brought desert." He said holding up whipped cream.
"For the pie or for me?" I asked grabbing the spray can out of his hands. "I could dump him Jake. I don't know why, I was ready to dump him and jump you but something stopped me." He pulled me close for a hug and kissed the top of my head.
"That's ok, how about we move the table and I show you why you need o dump him for me." Jake said as he held me tighter.
"Or we can go to my bed, my mom is out of town with my Aunt Ally tonight." At that point we were too caught up in each other to move to my bed, but some who we made it to my bed. After that we laid in bed for a while just listening to each others heart beats. "Jake, I love you." I said finally. Jake promptly avoided answering by having spontaneous sex. "Jake, condom did you put another one on?" I asked looking at the waste can where the first one had resigned. At that point it was too late to do anything.
"Jenna, I'm sorry. I forgot, it was stupid of me." He says after we finished. "I should have put one on, aren't you on birth control?" He asked me.
"No, my prescription hasn't came in yet. I just went to the gyno the other day, so it will be another day or so. But it's cool, tomorrow is Saturday we can go to the drug store and pick up the morning after pill. No big deal." I tell him as I lay my head on his bare chest. "Tonight can be perfect, and tomorrow we can deal with that." I said acting like it was no big deal, but some part of me knew that it was.