Chapter 1 – An Unwanted Ending
And An Unwelcomed Beginning

I stood there looking down upon the lifeless body of a young girl. She was my childhood friend Kagami Sumika. She looked like she was in peace just lying there holding tightly onto the wooden Santa rabbit that I had given her not so long ago. Seeing this only made me feel more depressed. It had been already 5 minutes since I had asked Kasumi to leave me alone with Sumika's lifeless body. I had already cried enough that I couldn't cry any more. I continued to stare at Sumika's body before I looked up and remembered the events that had happened up till this very day. The Combat Skills Evaluation, the coup d'etat, the XM3 Incident, the Sagadoshima Hive campaign, the Yokohoma Base attack and finally the operation that had happened only a moment ago, the Original Hive infiltration.

I looked back down at Sumika's body and remembered Kasumi's words. For the very first time in my life I felt a longing to be a "Casualty Conductor" once more. Sumika probably would think I was an idiot for thinking this way after all; I had suffered greatly because of this cruel fate. I had witnessed Alternative V itself be activated. I remembered seeing the final shuttle leave with Kasumi in it as well as the person I had fallen in love with in that loop. I saw the G-Bombs being dropped and most of the Earth being forever destroyed. I remembered fighting till the very end before I was killed.

This endless cycle was all brought to me because of Sumika. She had lost the me of this world right in front of her eyes and could not accept it. She brought me from that world, my original world, where I had a peaceful life living as a normal student being surrounded by my friends and goofing around with my best friend Mikoto. But then I woke up in this hell bent world. A world where humanity was up against extraterrestrial beings otherwise known as the BETA. In this world I had experienced both happiness and sadness.

"Shirogane-san." I turned to look at the back of the cockpit and saw Kasumi standing there quietly. I knew already that she knew what I was thinking about and how I felt.

We both looked at each other's eyes before I looked back at my childhood friend's dead body. "Hey Kasumi. (What is it Shirogane-san?) Do you think that…..there is a way for me to return back to the beginning even if I am no longer a Causality Conductor?" I then turned to look back at Kasumi and straight into her eyes.

Kasumi's eyes had widened a bit though it wouldn't have been noticeable for most people but to me who has known Kasumi for god knows how many loops could easily tell. "Shirogane-san…..I don't know. (I see.) Sumika-san was the one who made you a Casualty Conductor then there is a very low chance that you would return to the very start. It doesn't matter now though. (W-What do you mean?). Both worlds are already back to normal so you will soon be returning back to your world."

I would look at Kasumi and sighed. "I see. I guess that was pretty obvious." I then looked at Kasumi in the eyes with a serious face. "Hey Kasumi. If there was a chance that I could return to the very start then I would take it for sure. (Shirogane-san.) I can't accept the way that this loop ended. Sure the Original Hive is gone and this could be the first step into a new path for humanity against the BETA. But I really just can't accept the fact that Meiya, Ayamine, Tama, Mikoto, Class Rep, Marimo-chan and all those people I met in Valkyrie Squadron were killed in such a manner. There had to be a way that I could have saved them all." I wondered if this was survivor's guilt. It probably was and it felt terrible.

Kasumi would place her hand on my shoulder. "Shirogane-san. There is no need for you to cause yourself anymore suffering. You have already suffered more than enough as is. I'm sure that no one would want to see you cause yourself anymore suffering than you already have felt. You can finally return to the world that you belong to. You can return to that peaceful world that you longed to return to. (I-I know that.) Then please. Just return back. We can deal with the future of this world ourselves. You have already done more than enough."

I sighed and smiled at Kasumi. "Kasumi." I was well aware of what Kasumi was telling me. She was telling me to go back because it was what everyone would have wanted me to do. I knew that they wanted me to live a happy life even if I would end up losing my connection to them. That was just how much they cared about me. Yet even if I knew that…I just couldn't leave now. I bet that would make me seem like a stubborn kid playing a video game and finishing it only to get the Bad Ending. "Kasumi. I have been to many loops already. In each of those loops I had forgotten. I had forgotten about what had happened in the previous loops and all I remembered was waking up from my original world to this world not knowing that I had gone through this more than I remembered. Then I received this once in a lifetime opportunity. An opportunity I thought I wanted to use originally to stop Alternative V from taking place. Yet here I am. I did complete my goal and have destroyed the Original Hive but at what cost…..the lives of all my squad mates and many more people who I did not know. Now all I can think about….is finding a way that I can both complete my goal as well as make it so that none of my friends would end up being killed. Sumika imprisoned me in this prison. Now I will gladly make it my own prison until I complete my goal. (Shirogane-san…..why?) Because it is something only I can do. With great power comes great responsibility. I remember that quote from a movie I watched in my original world. I have the power and now I must take responsibility in it. I will go through as many loops as needed in order to change the future. I will not let any of my squad mates….no my friend die and I will never let Alternative V succeed. I will find a way! Yeah…..I will find a way."

I looked at Kasumi and saw that she was focusing on me intensely. I knew already that she was probably reading my mind. I knew that she could see my determination to do this all over again as many times as needed. I would shoulder a burden that will grow larger the more loops I went through….the more loops in which I have failed. Maybe this would last for all eternity but truthfully I did not really care. I would do this over and over again until I finally find the ending that I wanted in this screwed up world. I will make sure that I will both annihilate the BETA and make sure that every single one of these people who were important to me would survive to see the bright future. I really don't care if everyone grows to hate me but I will find…..no I will create a future where everyone can be happy. Yeah….this is what I truly wished for. The thing I wished for the most is a bright future in this dark and shady world.

Kasumi would look at me and nod her small head. "I understand Shirogane-san." I could hear outside the thousands of cheers awaiting me outside. All of them were awaiting the eishi who gave hope to humanity at the cost of losing all those who were truly important to him. "Is there any way that I could help you with?"

I would think for a bit but nothing would come into mind. Suddenly a flash of my memories from my past loops would appear before me. I then realized something that needed to be done before my next loop that is if I had a next loop. "Hey Kasumi. (Yeah Shirogane-san?) This may be difficult for you to do and truthfully it will most likely hurt you very much but (No matter what it is I'll do it Shirogane-san.) I would be stunned by this but then I smiled and then laughed a bit. "Well then. What I want you to do are to place all my memories of this loop and all my previous loops into my head. I want to remember everything that has happened to me throughout the countless loops that I may have done. Put all my sad memories, my happy memories, my painful memories and all the rest for those memories are what have made me into the person that I am today."

Kasumi would look at me and tilted her head. "So you want me…..to place all those memories of your into your head? (Yes.) Would you like me to place the formula into your head as well? (I would be very grateful if you would.) Very well then Shirogane-san. I'll also give you a small little gift to go with it but that will be a surprise." Kasumi gave a small smile. "Now Shirogane-san please lie down. (Why?) So that I may do what you asked me to do, of course. (Oh alright then.)"

I then lied down on the floor of the cockpit and closed my eyes even though Kasumi didn't tell me to close my eyes. "(Are you ready Shirogane-san?) Yes I am Kasumi." I then felt a great pain in my head as I saw my memories appear one after another. I remembered waking up into this world and thinking it was all just a dream. I remembered how amazed I was when I first saw a TSF next to my house which had crushed Sumika's house. I remembered how difficult it was to do all my training to be an Eishi and how I was just a burden to everyone especially in the Combat Skills Evaluation where I had caused us to lose so much time because of being bitten by a stupid snake. I remembered the HSST incident and Mount Tengan's eruption. I finally remembered the final shuttle leaving as I was forced to say good-bye to the very person that I had fallen in love with as they went on the final shuttle and sometimes when we all stayed behind. I remembered the G-Bombs destroying the world shortly after the colony ships left and the last moments of my life in that loop.

The next thing I remembered was my time in my original world. That peaceful world with no BETA yet where there was war happening outside of where I was but even so I was still living a very peaceful life. I saw everything about my relationships with all the girls that I've been close to in that world. Those were really fun times. I couldn't help but smile at these fun and happy memories. The one thing though that shocked me was the fact that even in my original world I seemingly have been looping over and over again. I didn't know how or why but it didn't matter. What was in the past was in the past. What I needed to create was a new future for everyone.

Soon after I started to remember thousands of symbols, formulas, equations and other things that were most likely Yuuko-senseis 100 page formula. I probably would have no clue on what each meant so in the end I'd have to write them down and show it to Yuuko-sensei on my next loop. She'd definitely understand it. It then all stopped. All the memories would stop flowing in and my head would stop hurting. Well that was not entirely true since it still ached a bit but it was not enough to distract me.

I opened my eyes and saw Kasumi looking at me waiting for me to say something. I sat up and smiled at Kasumi. "Thank you Kasumi. (Your welcome Shirogane-san.) I guess there is only one thing left to do. " I took out my medical kit and took out some triazolam. I remembered having to make a decision on whether to give it to her Highness or not. In the end I did not do so. I smiled at Kasumi as I took the triazolam.

Kasumi looked at me with a small smile. "Hey Shirogane-san you know….. (You know?) I don't know….whether this is…..my feelings… or Sumika-sans….but….I did love you. (Eh.)…(I see.)….(Thank you Kasumi.)….see you Shirogane-san. (Yeah see you.)." A small tear dropped from her eyes.

Everything began to darken. I could feel myself drifting off. My eyes closed and then everything turned black. Sumika if you can hear me. Please listen to this selfish request of mine. Please. Send me back in time once more so I can make things right.

October 22nd - Shirogane Takeru's Room

I opened my eyes to find a familiar sight. It was a very familiar sight. What I saw was my old room. It was the room that I had slept in for my whole life while I was in my original world. I looked out of the window and immediately saw the thing that I was hoping to see. It was a broken down TSF. If I remembered correctly it was probably a 1st Generation Gekishin or possibly and F-4 Phantom. I wasn't really sure but it didn't really matter. I jumped out of my bed and then put my Hakuryou Uniform on and packed up some things since this room was going to be demolished when I exit. I picked up my Game Guy and some games as well as some comics which I may feel like reading when I'm bored. I then noticed a few packs of instant noodles. I felt like it would be a waste to leave it here to disappear. I'm sure I could bring it into my room to use as a midnight snack. I then placed them all into my duffel bag. I picked up my duffel bag and walked outside my house.

I turned to the right to look at the demolished TSF and my eyes widened. What I saw in front of me was something that I did not expect. This had not happened in any of my previous loops before but why did it have to happen now when I have just gained a new resolve. In front of me standing there staring at the broken TSF was a young man who should be around my age wearing a Hakuryou Uniform just like me. He had red hair which reached up to his ears. He seemed to be holding a sword sheathed into its scabbard. It looked really expensive. He seemed to be staring intently at the TSF. I rubbed my eyes hoping that this was all just an illusion but when I opened my eyes the person was still there. I wondered who it was and I took a step closer. The young man would move when I stepped forward and his head turned to look at mine. His red eyes staring straight into my eyes.

Author Notes: Well this is my first fanon and I might as well do it on Muv Luv which is a Visual Novel I really enjoyed. Hopefully it will be enjoyed by many people but if not…..well doesn't matter. I'll just finish it till the very end. Well I'm going to have a non-canon person appear in this story so if you don't like stuff like that then you'd better not read on. Also apologies in advance if I don't get their personalities right. If I mistook their personalities feel free to inform me