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Captain Jack Harkness' POV:
Everything is normal in the Hub after finishing the case. Tosh was working on her computers, Owen was examining some medical thing that I probably
wouldn't understand and Ianto was making some of my "industrial strength coffee". Gwen well she was just outside with her… fiancée Rhys. God, I hated
thinking that. She was to give him the Retcon that I had handed her so that he would remember nothing about Torchwood or the Hub or the alien life form
that he had seen. When suddenly the doors opened and Gwen ran in with a wild, desperate look in her eyes.
"I'm not doing it! I won't drug him!"
Tosh turned to look at her and spouted probably the first thing that popped into her head.
"You have too!"
Followed by Owen more slowly and calmly, staring intently at her,
"We can't allow him to remember."
Of course Ianto had to put his two cents in so that he didn't feel left out.
"It's the rules."
Gwen heard all of this, I know that she did. I saw her frown as her eyes flicked around the room assessing the situation and she nearly sobbed out,
"But none of you have any partners outside of this."
Finally I spoke hoping that maybe I could defuse her anger. She may love Rhys but she came to me to talk about work, if he were to know what she did…
Not only would he be a safety risk he would take the one thing I had left of Gwen.
"But we understand how you feel."
"No, you don't! No, you don't Jack. You all think it's cold and lonely out there but it isn't for me because I have him! He matters and I've lied to him for
long enough! What he did today was so brave, braver then any of us because we signed up for this! But he didn't, he did it because he loves me and I won't
take that away from him. I won't! And if that means that I have to quit or you Retcon me or whatever then fine, fine!"
I strode over to her with just a few steps angry beyond belief. Did she think that I would mess with her mind that way again?
"You really think you could go back to your old life before Torchwood?"
I begged her with my eyes to not put me through this, to not make me choose between the safety of my team and the happiness of the woman that I
loved.
"I wouldn't know anything different."
That nearly broke my heart when she said that she wouldn't miss me if she was Retconned, that her soul wouldn't feel the absence of my soul and cry out
for it.
"I would!"
I would know everyday that she hadn't loved me enough to stay, that me being there for her wasn't enough and I couldn't allow that. I wouldn't be able to
keep myself from her again if I had to drug her. I had already done that once but had regretted it before, during and after but then she had found me! She
had made herself remember! After that I knew that I was never going to let her go. Not completely, sure she may be engaged to Rhys but during the day
and parts of night she saw me, I was the one with her then.
"Give Rhys my love and I will see you tomorrow."
She left as quickly as she had come and I shut myself in my office watching as she kissed Rhys like she should have been kissing me and then she walked
out of the screen's range. I sighed exhausted from our day and the emotion of seeing that poor animal die and then the roiling emotions that Gwen always
aroused in me. God, I needed a drink.
Author's Note: I really wish that there was a group for me to give people my ideas for a story and then they write it for me so that I am surprised when I read this new awesome story. Alas there is not and I have to write them myself. Read and review please!