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Two months have pasted since our last entanglement with Vampires but the two separate packs never merged back together, I never thought they would, Jacob didn't like to be pushed around and he couldn't do that to Leah either.

I always had a crush on her, I never told her though she always had her eyes on some one else, besides If our minds weren't linked she probably wouldn't have noticed me at all, and yet now we spend most of our days together. Well, together with her younger brother Seth. I thought of her too much back then, Sam was always mad at me for having a crush on his ex, but then again what right did he have after he imprinted on Emily to hold Leah down? Luckily I'd learned to manage my thoughts around the pack before she ever changed, but the damage had been done, at the very least Jacob and Sam both knew I had strong feelings for her, much more then the simple admiration that everyone had for her beautiful body.

The pack doesn't think of her that way now. They only see the hardened side since the break up. She hasn't been the nicest wolf, but I couldn't help but want to help her out, I of course learned to never show it in my mind, never to think about it. I hid it too well some times, some times to avoiding thinking about her I had to play with the crowd, I never led the mental assaults on her but some times I had to laugh with them just so I didn't stick out. I couldn't let it show how much it annoyed me when her and Jacob fought, I didn't mind Paul or Jared, they were just ass holes. It was in their nature. Why couldn't any one else see she was in pain? Why didn't any one else need to help her fix her problems.

The answer was obvious, every one hadn't fallen for her the way I had. I still remember what it was like seven years ago before Sam's first date with her…

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"Jake I don't care if she's older then me, I want to ask Leah out." I said frustrated with Jake's lack of support. Jake shrugged as he skipped another rock across the low sandy beach.

"Emb, you couldn't afford to take her out even if she said yes, you barely have enough money to get clothing" Jack replied picking up a couple rocks from the sand.

"Listen, Jake I'll find a way, I'll cook for her if I need to, but I really like her, she's really nice and pretty" Jake tossed a pebble in to the ocean. Jacob finally stopped and put both his arms on my shoulders looking him in the eye

"Emb, you know I love you like a brother, I just don't want you getting hurt, that's all." I looked back in to his eyes. Some times I forgot how much I loved Jacob.

"I know Jake, I just..." I didn't know what to say I just looked back at him. he turned around and continued walking with me.

"How were you going to ask her out?" Jake asked trying to be support. I just shrugged and pulled out of my pocket a small smooth rock from the beach.

"I don't know I was thinking about giving this" I held the rock in my palm, it was smooth, round rock, almost the color reminded me of the brown color of her eyes. Jake laughed.

"It's not quite flowers, but it's a nice looking rock" I shrugged returning the rock to my pocket.

"Did you find that today?" I shook my head in response.

"I found it the first day I met her, it was on this beach." Jake getting tired of walking threw the rest of his rocks in to the ocean.

"Well let's give it to her, come on you should ask her out." I looked up a bit excited that Jake was agreeing with me, I didn't understand I thought he liked her too.

"If you don't ask her I'll hear about it until you do."

So that's what it was. I understood then. We made our way up to her house and a very excited Leah answered the door.

"Hey guys, what are you up to today?" Leah said almost bouncing. I didn't say anything but Jake did.

"What is it Lee? Why you bouncing off the walls?" Leah was beaming as she stopped for a moment.

"Sam asked me out ten minutes ago, we're going out for dinner tonight"

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That was the story of my life, Ten minutes too late. I got fired from my job as a mechanic at the La Push body shop because I was ten minutes too late the day the Volturi came, but since I phases regularly for patrols as it was, I was too tired and too late too often to be kept there. That was the last job I held, unfortunately being a large wolf that rips through clothing when he's angry and eats as much as six fully grown men isn't conducive to making money. I wasn't complaining though I loved being a Wolf it made me bigger stronger and faster then I ever was before, not to mention my body was a furnace, I could wear basically what ever I wanted year round the temperature never affected me anymore. I let out a large sigh as I looked over La Push this cliff had a beautiful view, I went cliff diving here with Jacob all the time before he imprinted on Renesmee, now he was always there. I tried not to be angry at him for changing, I did, but when our minds weren't connected I felt betrayed by my last close friend to leave me like that. I suppose that's how Leah and I got close now. Now we spent nearly every day together in some way, I always wanted to ask her out didn't know how, if it was right, if she was still hurting too much. But I was a fool to think I'd be alone on this cliff, It's a place I showed her a week ago that I went to think. I didn't come here to think alone anymore, as she knew I was here she managed to show up half the time I was. I didn't expect her now, it was the two a.m. I couldn't sleep so I just thought I'd stop by and think for a while.

"Hey Emb, you got enough room for me there?" I was so entrenched in thought that she managed to sneak up on me, whether she meant to or not, I did give a small jump but she just laughed and sat next to me.

"Sorry Emb, couldn't sleep" I turned to look at her and I knew my eyes must have given me away, no one claimed to be able to read me but the she had to be able to, she'd known so much more of me now.

"Don't apologize it's okay, some times it's nice to talk to some one too, and I couldn't have woken you up to if I wanted to." I shrugged.

"If you ever need me, just climb in to my room and wake me up, easier said then done, but once I come to listen." I laughed and realized how awkward that sounded. Leah didn't though, or if she did she didn't mention it. she just sat down closer to me then she usual.

"You know if you ever need me I'd do the same for you?" she leaning on my shoulder with hers. I laughed quietly, but apparently not enough for her not to notice.

"Why is that funny?" she said leaning away obviously offended.

"I can see myself doing that and you back handing me and calling me a pervert" she laughed a bit and went back to leaning on me, I looked and saw one of her rare smiles.

"You know I've seen you naked a fair amount of times."

"Yes, but you'll still call me a pervert" I responded quietly.

"I don't sleep naked or something" responded but didn't deny my claim completely, something I did notice. With most people this would be extremely awkward. After what we've all been through it's just been conversation. granted no one looked at her that way anymore, she was a fool to think it was because she wasn't beautiful anymore, hah quite the opposite, none of us wanted to catch her wraith for sneaking a look. I was probably the only pack member who could sneak a look and not think about it.

I'd gotten that good at changing my mind set, but I never would. People started catching on when I started singing "Oh Canada" in my head more then one night a week. Sam caught on pretty quickly but didn't say anything, Paul and Jared the idiots they are didn't catch on at all until Sam told them I was obviously hiding something. I'd gotten better though, every now and again I'd picture walking down the beach as a little kid with Jake. All the other guys thought I was a freak for thinking of that so often. Jake noticed the memory I picked a bit too often and I thought he knew why I picked that one. I had to switch memories again. It was significant to me. I would have never broken her heart that way. In my own opinion Sam was just setting the table from the first date to the big heart break.

She'd never see it like that, she'd probably hate me if she knew how much I thought about it, how much I disliked Sam for it, and how much I wanted to help her. I could help but see the ways she'd become more and more like one of the guys, though it wasn't a horrible thing I liked spending time with her, but deep down she thought she lost her beauty, acting like she wasn't a woman anymore. It seemed ludicrous to me. The reaction she had when she was forced to cut her hair I never understood, but it was genuine I could see it in the pained look in her face. And because of that I couldn't help but hurt for her. I saw her now and her short hair was messed up cause she just woke up, but I couldn't help but see the beauty in it.

"You know you think way too much… you know that don't you?" Leah said who had obviously noticed the silence.

"Maybe, but theirs plenty of people, pack included who don't think enough." she smiled, muttering the names of pack. I smiled, each one being less true, last ending with her brother Seth.

"You've got a great brother, some times wish I had a brother like that." I said wistfully. She snorted

"He can be a real pain too, you should borrow him for a week, or a month... maybe a year." I laughed again. Diving deep back in to thought. Not intentionally, I was kind of tired to so I wasn't all there either.

"There you go thinking again." She said as if it frustrated her. I didn't really understand where she was coming from though.

"It's better to be thought a fool, then to speak and remove all doubt." I said quoting Abraham Lincoln.

"Well that's stupid, every one knows you're the smartest one in the pack." Leah said obviously rolling her eyes, even though I couldn't see them. I put an arm around her shoulder and hugged it tightly.

"Well maybe smartest guy, but not smartest one." I said trying to make her feel better.

"Yeah, might have believed you too before Sam." She said bitterly. I shrugged again thinking about another quote, but that "It is better to love and to have lost then to never love at all" wouldn't go over like a led balloon. I chuckled to myself quietly. She noticed but didn't say anything at first.

"What you were thinking of?" I smiled at first, I figured I might as well tell her, it could be much worse.

"Nothing, just thinking of a quote you'll think is complete bullshit." I knew she'd ask what it was anyway so I said it before she could.

"It is better to have loved and loss, then to not have loved at all." She shrugged and stood up.

"You're right though, it is complete bull shit." I joined her standing looked in to her eyes and her in to mine. I could have stood there for hours, but I regrettably let go of eye contact before she got suspicious. Something in her eye recognized something didn't say anything.

"Want to race?" I said trying to change the subject. Leah looked at me trying to understand for a second before walking off while removing her shoes.

"No, I meant as humans, it wouldn't really be a race phased." She smiled and put her shoes back on. She nodded and raced down the hill. I kept my self at her pace, knowing full well in this form I was faster then her. This annoyed her to no end. Her frustration got the better of her as she went far out of her way to shoulder me in to a tree. At that time I decided if she was going to cheat so was I. I waited. Just stood there and waited, she knew I was okay so she kept running. I looked at the view and breathed deeply, if this wasn't three hours before the first person on the rez got up I couldn't do this. I took three bounds and jumped off the side of the cliff. I caught a tree branch to slow down my descending and landed past our unofficial finish line only seconds before Leah did. I could see her frustration in having lost, she hates losing, but she couldn't say anything because she knew she cheated as bad as I had.

She shouldered me as she passed me on the way to her house. I caught up with her, she was feigning much more anger then she usually had.

"Next time we phase first." I chuckled again, she really hated losing.

"Yeah, next time." I said knowing that I'd be happy to lose, as long as there always was a next time.

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