1Hello, I'm sorry I have been gone for a while and I've had hard times for a while and finally decided to write a fanfiction. So no I present you with my new story, I disclaim any familuar character and setting.

I present to you:

"Amor caecus est"

Konoha was silent and unmoving, including a lone figure as he stood in the street, the orange glow of the street lights bathing him. His golden head was bowed and his cerulean eyes closed. His orange clothes were tattered and torn, blood staining them. He stood his back to a pink haired teen his age.

"Naruto?" She said taking a trembling step forward. "Naruto what happened to you?" she took some confident strides towards him but stopped when he turned towards her.

"Do you hate me?" Naruto's voice was meek and broken. Looking up and seeing her stunned face he asked again, a bit more forcefully "Sakura, do you hate me?!" his voice coming out in more of a yell.

"Naruto, how could you ask..." she was cut off with a glare from the taller teen.

"I heard what you said to Ino, you finally found out about the Kyuubi?" He tilted his head to the side in a very canine type way. For the first time she realized his eyes were red rimmed.

"I didn't mean what I said, I mean, it just came out wrong." she stumbled a little over her words.

"Oh, so you didn't mean 'He's a fucking demon!' eh?" He growled out. "I'm surprised Kiba isn't carrying a sign around sporting a dead fox on it." he snapped

"Where are you going?" She asked in the same worried tone.

"To see Tsunade-baa-chan, then away, to find Sasuke, by myself." he stood straight gazing up at the moonless sky. "You know, this is the night when Kyuubi is the wisest, new moon." he whispered to no one in particular. Turning his back to Sakura once again, he blinked back tears. "Goodbye, Sakura-chan." and he disappeared

Sakura stood hand outstretched towards where her friend had just stood. "Naruto-kun, do not leave me too." she said in a breaking voice as tears fell down her cheeks. "Don't leave me alone." She fell to her knees and stared at the moonless sky.

Hokage Tower

Naruto knew that the old lady was here from the light in her window. Slowly making his way up the spiraling stairs and towards the ANBU guarded office. After being announced he walked into the office and looked at his adoptive mother. Tears threatened to come from his eyes again and he blinked rapidly and then smiled a little.

"Tsunade-baa-chan, I want to take another mission to find Sasuke." he said.

Sighing Tsunade motioned to a chair for him to sit. "Naruto, people are just beginning to heal from your last attempt." she didn't want to crush his hope, but there was no way to do another rescue mission.

"No, not with a team, by myself." he relaxed into the chair. "Kiba found out and ganged up on me with a couple others, I barely made it out."

"It was bound to happen Naru-chan" she sighed a little deeper and seemed to sag down deeper into her chair. "Then I will let you go, but you are now officially a hunter-nin." Her henge cracked a little and she gazed up at Naruto. Standing she pulled something out of a drawer of her desk." This is a hunter-nin mask. It's very special to me okay?" she handing it to her adoptive brother.

"Yes Tsunade-baa-chan. I'll come back, still have to be Hokage you know." He smiled a genuine foxy grin and hugged the big breasted woman.

She watched from the roof of Hokage Tower as he walked silently to the gates and left the village hidden in the leaves.

It had been three weeks of being a hunter-nin and his bingo book was cowering under his frustrated glare. Nothing was easy for him, unlike his Uchiha. Yes, his Uchiha, the only person he knew understood him at least a little. And the precious person he had come to love.

Taking off the mask he sat next to a tree and finally let his breath hitch in his throat. He hadn't cried, truly cried in a very long time. He was a great actor, being able to force tears and laughter when it was comical or expected. The last time he truly cried was when he had thought Sasuke had died, at the hands of Haku.

His tears came in heart wrenching sobs as he clung to the forehead-protector hidden under his shirt. Sasuke's broken one, the last piece he had of his love. He knew he could never be as stoic, smart, fast or as skilled as his love. He knew it was pointless to hope, that just maybe Sasuke would come back, he had killed the Snake-Sannin and become free. But Naruto knew it was hopeless. Sasuke had left Konoha and him, and it pissed him off.

As anger filled him and he screamed all his pain and anguish filling the air around him. Then he was silent, chin resting on his knees as he stared out. He could drop his mask he thought, and be the true Naruto. The one that was dead inside and loved and hated the village that beat him and scorned him forever. Standing with unnatural grace he sighed.

Kit? Are you serene? Said the father like tone of the Kyuubi-No-Yoko

Serene? I feel empty and calm, so yes I guess I am. Naruto answered staring at the leaf covered ground.

Are you going to show your true power? Please tell me that you are Kit...I couldn't take another embarrassment to sooth your imbecilic friends. The Kyuubi's voice was lamenting

No time like the present... Naruto inwardly sighed.

So would you like me to release all of the jutsu back into your memory?

Yes please, Kyuubi-Sama Naruto mentally smiled

Suddenly there was a rush of knowledge and power. And it gave Naruto a even deeper sense of serenity. Standing up and dusting off he looked towards the horizon where the sun was setting slowly.

"No camping tonight, we run through the night." he said to himself and his tenant. Feeling Kyuubi give a metaphysical nod he took off. It was time to put this bingo book and new Jutsu to use.

The first person he took out was a S-class assignment, just a hireable assassin of sorts. But he gave Naruto a little bit of a run for his money. But eventually lost. In the proceeding months he took out a few here and there in his search for Sasuke. But was still no where near finding his love.

Kyuubi where could he be? He was already in the wind country and was tired in body and soul. He had gotten clues and rumors but they all lead no where. The tiny village he now was squatting in was quaint and welcoming. But he didn't have the energy or heart to appreciate it. He knew Suna was not far from where he was and that he should go check up on Gaara, but he didn't want to be distracted.

Kit, I have no idea where this Uchiha of yours could be wandering. The Kyuubi sighed and leaned against the bars of his cage, in a humanoid form. Naruto sat in front of his cage cross-legged.

I hate this, I've been gone for just under a year and I've gotten no where.

Kyuubi snorted No where? You was stronger then that stupid sensei of yours, the one with the stolen sharingan. No where in deed, you might even be as strong as Ero-Sannin. Kyuubi smirked and commented You aren't that insufferable brat I thought you where.

You've only known me for two years. Naruto grumbled. You weren't so peachy before this whole take me under you wing thing.

True, but it's my purgative Kit I'm a demon. The sealed fox chuckled at the glare he got from his pupil.

That is what you want me to believe. Naruto snorted at his secret Sensei.

Keh! Get back to training brat! Kyuubi snapped and smirked when Naruto automatically left and concentrated on what his body was actually doing.

The Kyuubi new that the Kit was sad and slowly falling into a deep depression, and could possibly hurt himself and if he ever got out, he was going to tear that Uchiha apart. He sat down on the floor of his furnished cage and frowned. The mind-space, as he called it, was much nicer then in was before hand. It was a like a house except for the large metal bars that held him in. He sighed as he relaxed back and fell asleep.

Naruto finally tired and aching let himself rest against the trunk of a very large tree. He hated physical conditioning, or that's what Kyuubi called it. It was more like torture for the poor boy. Sighing he let himself fall into a restless sleep, filled with a certain Uchiha.

Two years and three months passed and Naruto was now growing tired of his search for Sasuke. Everywhere there was even a hint of the Uchiha it was a false lead or he had been there so long ago it didn't matter. He had grown distant and had somehow forgot the sounds of Konoha and the faces of his 'Precious people' were blurred slightly. He sighed again and finally made the decision that it was time to return to the village hidden in the leaves.

As the gates came into view his heart sped up and his stomach was a party of butterflies. This was nothing like returning with Ero-Sannin. Coming up to the guards they let him pass after asking if his hunting had gone well. And with a nod they let him through, after asking his name of course.

Hokage Tower loomed in the distance and he made a beeline towards it. It was two in the afternoon and the markets and streets were packed as he wound his way through. And when he began to ascend the twisting stairs he got even more nervous and even more so as the office doors came into view. The ANBU guards regarded him silently as he stood at Shizune's reception desk. And when he was let in he realized that he hadn't removed his mask the entire time.

When the door closed behind him he looked at Baa-chan and grinned under his mask. Tsunade looked up and froze. Something sparked in her eyes and he remembered that he had her special hunter-nin mask.

"Naruto?" she squeaked "Is that really you?" she stood and walked, robotic in movement, towards him.

And when he slipped the wooden mask off she jumped at him and caught him in a bone crushing hug. Tears were already rolling down her cheeks as she hit him in the shoulder.

"You brat," she sniffled and hit him in the shoulder again. "I thought you were dead!"

Rubbing his shoulder he smiled sweetly "No matter how much training I do. I will never be ready for your punches." he teased as hugged the only mother he had even known back.

"What have you been up to?" Tsunade asked sitting down and motioning for him to sit.

"Hunting." Naruto said and placed a thick envelope on the desk between them. "That is Konoha's share of the money." He smiled as her eyes got wide. "A lot I know."

"Well you've certainly been busy." she stated she smiled and sighed "Everybody's going to be so happy that you're back, but can I ask you..."

"I didn't even see him, Baa-chan, I couldn't track him. I don't understand I could track all of those missing-nin down, but not Sasuke!" He growled and buried his head in his hands. "I give up, I can't even save my own friend." he all but whimpered.

"That is not the Naruto I know." came the stern voice of the fifth "The Naruto I love doesn't give up and never backs down. Sasuke is skilled and is trying to hide his tracks. It'll be hard to find him." she said leaning back in her chair.

"I know, it's just, almost three years and NOTHING!" he moped

"It is alright, the same thing happened with the third and Orochimaru." Tsunade shrugged "Sometimes even the best cannot find their man." she smiled suddenly changing the subject, "Now, since your old apartment building was destroyed, I'm giving you a house just a block away from the ninja academy."

"A house?" Naruto stared at her, not blinking.

"Yes, it has been in my family for years. I don't use it, so I though you might like to. Though it is a bit large."

outside the house

"A bit large?!" Naruto yelled at the Hokage "This is a mansion!" he suddenly looked a little like the old Naruto, but with longer hair.

Shrugging the fifth smiled "Feh! Who cares! It's yours now." she stated glaring at him.

"Who cares? I CARE!!" Naruto bellowed back waving his arms, as Tsunade turned away.

"Rhetorical question Gaki." was all she said and was gone, leaving a fuming Naruto behind.