Pain
Pain. That was the only way to describe it. Pain. Not hate. Never hate. In fact she loved him! And that was what was causing the pain. Love. It's not like he knew he was causing her pain. Boys are so clueless sometimes. Especially him. She was good at hiding her feelings, but she had slipped up. When she saw her with him it was like getting the wind knocked out of her. All her feelings from the first time they met till now just exploded out of her. She wanted to smack him or her or just the both of them for causing all this pain! But the problem was he could never do that she just loved him too much to hurt him. Maybe she is hurting him now that she realizes it. She's hurting him by shutting him out. But maybe it's for the best right! You have to do what is best for the ones you love even if it all causes you pain.