2 years.
2 years since Fang had taken that freaking bullet. 2 years since his death. He died on impact and it proved to me that even the bravest and most loving person (even if he doesn't show it) isn't invincible.
My insides are turned to ash
So slow
And blow away as I collapse
So cold
The February wind was blowing on me. I still couldn't believe it. It was so unexpected, so surprising, so painful
A black wind took them away
From sight
And the darkness over day
That night
He had only given me a kiss that morning and held me close.
And the clouds above move closer
Looking so dissatisfied
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing
I had chills going up my spine from the wind. At least that's what I tell myself.
I used to be my own protection
But not now
'Cause my heart has lost direction
Somehow
It was true. I had always been Maximum Ride the indestructible, the invincible. I never needed help from anyone. I protected not only myself but the rest of the flock. But I'm not anymore. My heart has broken into so many pieces that it can't heal. They can't find the way back to the others.
A black wind took you way
From sight
And now the darkness over day
That night
That bullet was a warning but the wind brought it right to me. He jumped in front and took it. Fang why, oh why did you do that?
And the clouds above moved closer
Looking so dissatisfied
And the ground below grew colder
As they put you down inside
And the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing
It was true. It was as if everything on Earth grew cold and mocking. I haven't soared on the wind since then, simply because it was the downfall of him, of me, of us.
So now you're gone
And I was wrong
I never knew what it was like
To be alone
On a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day
That's right. The anniversary of his death was Valentine's day. It had been perfect just being with him and it was one of my favorite days until the end. Then it became my worst memory. My worst fear was realized and my whole body seemed to shut down.
On a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day
(On a Valentine's Day)
I used to be my own protection
(On a Valentine's Day)
But not now
(On a Valentine's Day)
'Cause my mind has lost direction
(On a Valentine's Day)
Somehow
His grave has an engraved picture of wings. The epitaph? "Fang, you are finally free from the world. Fly on forever."
(On a Valentine's Day)
I used to be my own protection
(On a Valentine's Day)
But not now
(On a Valentine's Day)
'Cause my mind has lost direction
(On a Valentine's Day)
Somehow.
Fang I miss you so much. I truly am alone without you. I love you.