Disclaimer: I do not own 'VicTorious or anything but this plot because most of the plot is based off my personal experiences.

It all happened so fast. One minute Jason was with Mom, Dad and I. The next, I was jumping out of bed at 4 A.M, screaming bloody murder and waking Mommy and Daddy up. I was just 13. I had just started going to Holloywood Arts. I could not believe my older brother, tormentor and best friend Jason had been killed in a car accident.

He was 18.

He was leaving Senior Prom.

We were all asleep at home.

He wasn't even driving.

Two cars collided on September 22 2010.

8 people were involved in the accident.

Only 2 lived. And the one is legally brain dead while the other is blind.

I saw the videos online. There was a terrible fire. My brother and I are/were asthmatic. He died long before those cars exploded.

The following two weeks were crazy and blurry. Before we knew it, we were burying my 18 year old brother. My parents were devastated. My father went into depression while my mother fell critically ill.

20 December 2010. My parents 20th wedding anniversary. Also the day my mother died from multiple organ failure. Two people I loved, gone, within three months.

My dad built himself an even bigger empire. And I was his princess. But then I started dating Beck and he changed me so much. I began drinking and smoking but the one thing I never did that pissed him off was have sex with him.

Contrary to popular belief, I am still a virgin and I am a Christ-Follower. I don't worship the devil. Never have, Never will.

I'm Jade West. I am battling with clinical depression. My father Reginald West loves me but he won't show the world in fear of me being taken away from him too. I sing. I dance. I act. I write. And I direct and everyday, I put on the best performance of my life, for the world. I never show the world how broken I am because, everything that I am screams everyday that I should get up, and kick butt.

Because I am a survivor.

I am a West.

I am Jade.

AN: Hi! I just wrote this at 00:39. I cannot sleep. and I hope you like it.