Red life
AN: I apologize for the length of this AN but I feel that it is needed so none become confused. This is a crossover with Twilight and my personal universe. Most likely crossover won't appear until part two, with probably only reference or concepts of vamps/shifters/characters in part one. Part one follows the early life to early twenties of my original character Hollianda Knowles who is the cousin of Isabella "Bella" Swan on her fathers side. In part two Bella, Cullens, and part of the pack debut into Holly's life and turn it FUBAR. Majority of this story will be told in Holly's POV, any other POV will most likely be short inserts while Holly is sleeping or otherwise out of commission. Also for Twilight timeline use 2012 for the beginning of part two. I hated Breaking Dawn and the fact that Bella chose Edward in Eclipse, so to rectify this Jacob imprinted on Bella, yes Jacob/Bella pairing it kind fits in with Holly's situation, and it was Bella that answered the phone in New Moon so Edward didn't run off to Italy, but the Cullens did come back. Basically take Eclipse and Breaking Dawn and throw them out, the newborn fight didn't happen yet and will not happen until well into part two.
WARNINGS: First off I am a lesbian, that being said most of my previous lovers have at least one point in our relationship have called me a kinky bitch, I blame my past experiences which have led to my extreme distrust of men, take that however you want. So because of this Holly will reflect myself. This story WILL contain hints of underage drinking, drug use, and sex. Also this story WILL contain rape, torture, lesbianism, bestiality (sex between a human and animal), and psycho-social issues. Some of these warnings will be graphic others only a brief reference, a graphic scene WILL be labeled with Xx - Scene/lemon xX. If any of this disturbs you, anything of importance in those scenes will be mentioned again at another time. Also be fore warned that there will be blood, language, violence, and there is a slight chance of there being some racial slurs but at this point there isn't any.
DISCLAIMER: Don't own Twilight and unless Stephenie Meyer wants to marry me I doubt I'll ever will. By the way this will be the only disclaimer I'll ever do here.
CHAPTER ONE: Prologue
Xx May. 2 2007 xX
My name is Hollianda Knowles, and I am a vampire. No not really. I am just a regular 19 year old girl, mid back length brown hair, green eyes, pale as fuck white skin with some European features. Last time I checked I stood at about 5'4" and weighed in at a whopping 106 lbs, Dr. Greene says I'm too skinny but I feel pretty comfortable so no brownies for me. I'm also good with my B-cups, suited my gymnastics lifestyle. Oh all most forgot about my fuck-awesome frames for my glasses, I love these bitches, they're thick and black-cherry red, my favorite color, they make my green eyes pop. Clothing wise, well mom says a dress like a guy but I don't really like anyways so she can go suck my imaginary dick for all I care, I prefer to wear my ripped jeans and black baggy T-shirt but I'll wear any dark color. I only wear sandals. Period. Anyone says something they can suck my dick too. Though right now I'm wear white sweats, barefoot, working a straight-jacket for trying to gnaw my mother's throat out with my teeth, and locked in a padded isolation cell at St. Jonas's mental health clinic. Maybe I should explain.
Xx Jul. 4 1993 xX
"In two days I'm a be six! Six Mommy six! I'm a be a big girl, right Mommy?" I sang. I was so happy then, carefree, innocent ... and so naive. "If think your going to be a big girl then you need to speak correctly! It's I will be six and and I will be a big girl. Haven't you learned anything at that school?" My mother spat out. Bitch. Why doesn't Mommy ever says nice things to me? Mrs. Anderson also is so nice to her little girl. Doesn't Mommy know I love her? "I'm sorry Mommy I was just happy. I love you." I whispered, letting a tear fall. "Are you crying? You better not be crying! Go put your dress on so we can go to your Uncles party." She yelled. "Okay Mama." I said as I rushed up to my room before she could see more tears.
Closing my door quietly I sank to my knees silently sobbing. She hates me. Yep she hates you. But I love you. You have to love me your me. I giggled to Scarlet my best friend, my only friend. I'm not you, I'm me! Then who am I? Your you and I'm me! But if I'm you and your me then how can I be me too? I'm going to bite you. Does that mean your going to bite yourself? Should I bite myself to bite you back? I giggled as I slipped on a yellow summer dress. Grrrrrrrrrr! Grrrrrrrrrr! Right back. "Hollianda are ready yet!" The slut, mean mother called up to me. We should run away. Where would we go? To Daddy's silly! He lives to far away, Mommy would just catch us and we'ed be in trouble. Baby. Meanie! I retorted as I followed Mommy into the car.
Every year Uncle Todd host a Fourth of July party at his house cause he has the biggest pool. Usually it's just him, Mommy and me-excuse me I, Uncle Mike, Aunt Kelly and their two sons Ben and Corey, but this year he invited a whole bunch of people for the bank that he works at, he's a teller. Normally this would be fine but I don't do so well in crowds, still don't. "Mommy w-w-who-o ar-r-re all th-h-hea-ase peop-ple?" I stuttered out. "Your Uncles coworkers. So you better not embarrass me, I might find you a new daddy in there." Watch out folks there's a cougar on the prowl. "Mommy I don't want a new Daddy. I already love my Daddy!" I declared. "Yeah? Well I don't, besides I haven't gotten a good lay in almost three months." Whore. What's a "good lay" mean? I think that's when Mommy takes those boys into her room and we hear those noise. Oh yeah! Mommy sure does scream really loud, it must hurt. I wonder if it means she gets a spanking?Does that mean Mommy wants a spanking? Probably she's weird. Yeah.
I follow Mommy out back to where Uncle Todd stood with some men that he works with I think. She greets him with a hug and kiss to the cheek. "Sue! You guys finally made it. I was beginning to think you guys got lost." He said with a drunken smile. "We would have been here earlier but someone took her sweet time getting ready." She blamed me again, what a surprise. "Well what do you expect my little Holly berry has look when she comes to see her favorite Uncle." He slurred as he picked me up and gave me a sloppy kiss on cheek, another inch and it would have been my lips. I have never liked Uncle Todd, he's always trying to hold me and give me kisses. I don't like his kisses, they taste like beer and smoke. He's gross! Mean too! I squirm my way out of his arms and back behind Mommy's leg. "Sue, let me introduce you to my manager Joe Fields. Joe this is my baby sister Susan Wyrms." My Mommy and Daddy never got married, but I glad I have his last name, Holly Knowles sounds better then Holly Worms! Ewwww! Worms are gross too! "Holly go mind Uncle Mike and see if you can play with Ben." Well I guess Mommy can't get a "good lay" if I'm holding her leg in a death grip. Why can't she just hold me doesn't she realize that I am scared of all these people? And she wants me to go by myself? I'll protect you. Promise Scar? Sure if they try anything l'll bite them. Giggling again I made way through the crowds. By through the crowds I mean keeping a ten foot distance between me and every one else.
I finally found Uncle Mike and his wife over by the coolers, having a whispered conversation. "When are we going to be able to go Mike?" "Sweetie we have to at least stay until seven for the fireworks." Wait a minute, that's like uh... One... Two... Almost eight hours from now! It's going to be forever before I get to go home. "Mike I really don't want to stay that long, I mean I have a feeling something really bad is going to happen, can't we duck out early?" Aunt Kelly pleaded. "Ok Baby if you feel that strongly we can leave a few hours early." My Uncle conceded. What was that saying Mommy said? Kitty whipped...or something? "I'll make it up to you Mikey. I sure you can think something." My Uncle just looked like he got a new toy or something when she said that. Think he's going to get a "good lay?" Maybe.
Okay enough playing spying lets go say hi. I thought as made my way to the other side of the cooler. "Hi Uncle Mike! Hi Aunt Kelly! Hi Corey!" I whispered to the six month old baby in Aunt Kelly's arms. "Hello Holly." They greeted back, well except Corey he's still a baby so he can't talk but he gurgled so I'm taking it as a hello. "So Holly are you enjoying the party?" My Aunt asked. To tell the truth I am not sure how to answer. I mean do I lie and say it's great or do I tell the truth and say that I'm scared and I want my Mommy to hold me. Do you think she'll hold me? I bet it wold be nice. "No there's to many people and Mommy's busy." "Awww co'mere." Aunt Kelly said as she pull me to her after handing Corey to his Daddy. I was right it is nice. Very nice. I wish Mommy would hold us like this. She wouldn't do it right. I know.
"So Holly, how's school?" My whipped Uncle asked, while his wife kept me on her lap and ran her fingers through my hair. Soooo very nice! Purrrrrrrr! "Um...uh it's okay. Mrs. Burns says I'm smart like really smart cause I can read books for older kids and I can spell really well too. But I am really bad a numbers. Mrs. Burns says when school starts again she going to talk with my new teacher have they're going to give me a special test." I hate numbers. It's not fair I can read books for fourth graders but I can't add or subtract without help. "You know Holly I'm a school teacher myself and it sounds like you have Dyscalculia or a math disorder. Basically you have trouble using and learning about numbers." Explained my Aunt. "Does that mean I'm stupid? Oh no! Their going to put me with the dumb kids and everyone will laugh at me and Mommy'll hate me." I started to cry. "No! No, no sweetie your not stupid! They'll probably put you in a regular class and when it's time for math they'll either bring in a special teacher or give you a different assignment. Your not stupid, just different. And nobody is going to laugh at you, unless you do something silly, and your Mother loves you very much, and she always will." Aunt Kelly soothed, as she held me tighter and rubbed my back. "All better now?" She asked. I just nodded whisper that I loved her. "Love you to baby girl." I wish she was our Mommy. Holly listen to Scarlet mutter her agreement. "So Holls you make any friends in school?" Uncle Mike asked in an effort to change the subject. "One. Her names Scarlet, she my best friend. We play together all the time."Your my best friend too! I giggled again, she always knows how to cheer me up. "That's good. Hey there you are Ben! Why don't you and Holly go and play out in the yard?" "Come on Ben let's go look for snakes!" I said, dragging him by the arm. I might have been a little excited, but I mean come on snakes are awesome! They can shed their own skin! How cool is that! Not to mention they can move with no arms and no legs! Woot!
Xx Time skip Jul. 4 1993 4:27 pm xX
Unfortunately Ben and I didn't find any snakes. I told you we needed to look under the bushes behind the shed. Well next time you go and I'll sit back and complain. Deal! No takes back. Fine. "Ben come here its time to go." Uncle Mike called to us. As we made our way toward them we could hear Uncle Todd talking to Uncle Ben. "Do guys really have to leave so soon? Come on the party's just getting started, plus I think Corey would like the fireworks." Uncle Todd tried to plead with them. "Sorry Todd but I am really not feeling to well and I would like to go home. We'll see you later." Said my Aunt with a tone finality. "Well alright then, drive safe." My Uncle surrendered. No! Please Auntie don't leave me! I pleaded in my mind. And then they were gone, with me left behind.
Oh no! Left me behind. Alone. With my Mommy. And all these people. So many people. Too many people. Way too many people! HOLLY! Calm down right now. Do you understand? "Yes." I whimpered back. Then you are going to do exactly what I say. Okay. First go to the coolers and get a water. Good now get away the crowds and find somewhere to sit. Okay now close your eyes and count back from ten until you feel better. Counting? You know I'm not good at that. DO IT! O-okay. Ten...nine...um..seven? No! Eight then seven...six...five...f-four ...three?...two..
o-o-on- "Hello you look lonely over here." Said a tall blond man that was standing with his friends. No...no..no... go away. "Hey are you alright?" Asked one of the portly women the man was standing with. I-I-I-I CAN'T DO IT! With that I bolted straight to my Mommy and jump right into her lap with my arms in a death grip around her neck. Spilling her drink in the process. "Holly what the fuck are you doing?" Mommy said while trying to pry me off. W-w-why won't she h-hold me-e? "T-to-o-oo ma-any p-p-pe-eople. I-I-I'm scared. Please can we go h-home? Please!" I begged trying to burrow further into her neck. "Jesus Christ Holly! You need to get over this, and I mean like right now dammit! You are embarrassing me and your uncle in front of his bosses." She whispered in to my ear.
"Whats wrong Sue?" Uncle Todd asked. "Oh Holly's a little tired thats all." She responded after finally prying me off. Why is she doing this? I just want her to hold me or take me home. Why wont she hold me? Mommies are supposed to hold you and tell you that your special and that they love you. She's broken.She doesn't have a heart. Everyone has a heart! We're not in hers. B-but she's in mine. I love her! I started to sob. "Tired hun? Well why don't I go put upstairs in the guest room, and maybe read to her a little so she can relax some? I'll make sure to have her down in time for the fireworks!" Said my Uncle, already grabbing my hand. "Thanks Todd, have mentioned your my favorite brother lately?" B-but I don't want a nap I want Mommy to hold me! "Not that I can recall." He called over his shoulder, leading to the house and up the stairs.I don't like this. Scarlet said referencing my Uncles hand on my back. If I knew what was to come you can bet I would have done everything in my power to get a way from this so-called man!
Xx Rape Scene xX
My Uncle led me up the stairs, passed the guest room and straight into his. "I thought I was going to the guest room?" "My beds much more comfy." He pulled my shoes and socks off so he could picked me up and set me down on the middle of his huge bed. Then to my confusion he closed his door and locked it before pulling his own shoes and socks off. He sat next to me with his back against the head board. I squirmed away to the edge only to be pulled back against him. "Where do you think you are going my little Holly bush?"
I stayed quiet hoping he would go back downstairs. He didn't, instead he lifted my dress from knees and started to rub his hand along my thigh. I didn't understand what he was doing but I did not like it at all. "I'm going to make you feel really good princess, do you want that?" he breathed into my face, I could smell the alcohol and rot from his teeth. Holding my breath I shook my head no. I just wanted him to leave. "Oh you like it rough hun, that's good cause I like that to." He said reaching into my panties. "I'll tell." I threatened. For a moment he stopped and I thought he was going to leave, but once I saw his face I knew exactly how wrong I was. "Your going to tell? Who? Your Mommy?" I nodded. That got him to laugh, and not a nice laugh either. "Little girl do you know who's outside? I have friends out there that'll like nothing more than to take your mom down to the basement and do things to her to make her scream and beg for death before they killed her. The only thing stopping them is me! So do what I say and no one will touch your Mom. Do you understand?" I sat there crying and nodded my head. "Good. Stand up and take your dress off." He commanded, while taking his own clothes off. Soon he was naked on the rubbing this thing between his legs, and I was there standing in just my panties.
"Would you look at that my little princess is wearing princess undies! Do you see what I am rubbing?" Again I nodded, still crying. "This is called a dick. It goes inside little girls like you." That goes inside me? Gross! How will fit it's so big? It'll rip me in half! I started to cry harder. Looking back I realized His penis really wasn't that big, maybe 4 1/2'', but to a tiny five almost six year old that's huge! "Stop that crying and come here it's time you learned how to please a man." I did as I was told, and crawled to him. "Take your hand like mine and rub it like this." Why is he doing this? I don't want to does this! As he makes me rub him, he begins to pant and his dick becomes harder. "Huff... that's good Holly. Really good. Now suck it!" Huh? "W-w-what do you mean?" I asked confused. "Suck it. Like a popsicle. Do it now!" I lower my head to the tip of his dick and began to suck it like he said. "Go lower. Put more in your mouth." I do it. Now I have about an inch of his thing in my mouth. Eww this is gross. And it's so stinky. "Go lower. Put it all in your mouth." All of it? I can't fit all of it! I fit as much as I can without gagging in, but apparently that wasn't enough. "I said all of it you stupid girl!" He yelled at me. He grabbed my hair and started forcing it all down my throat. It's getting hard to breathe. Oh god I can't breath! Some help! "That's it princess take your Uncle's cock. Take it all! Ugh! I'm about to cum and you better swallow it bitch!" Cum? What does that mean? I pondered as he started to pound my face harder. Then it happened and I was choking. What is that? Did he just pee in my mouth? I want my Mommy! He pushed me off him as I began to sputter and cough. "That was great princess." He complimented me, I just feel dirty. "Can I go to Mommy now?" I whimpered. It just cause him to laugh. "Princess we are just getting started."
I look at him in fear. What does that mean? There's more? I think I'm going to be sick. He yanked my arm to him and pinned my under him. "What a-are you doing?" I stuttered become even more scared. "Well my little princess, I going to make you a women." A w-w-women? He slammed his mouth onto my already bruised lips. Is this what he meant? Wait! What's he doing! He shoved is tongue in to my mouth and with his hand removed my panties. One hand is fisted in my hair his other is squeezing some clear stuff on his thing. "Now we're ready." "Ready f-for w-w-what?" "This!" With that he slammed his dick to the hilt in me causing me to scream. He cover my mouth with his hand to muffle my screaming and crying. "You stupid little cunt! I told you not to scream! Now I am going to have to hurt you." He balled up his dirty under ware and shoved it in my mouth, and roughly bruised my hips in his grip as he pounded in to me. OH GOD! It hurts so bad. Mommy...Mommy...Mommy...help? Why me? Is that blood? Why is there blood? Did he really do it? I'm dying! He ripped me in half. "God baby your so tight. You feel so good baby doll. Doesn't it feel good?" No! Nononononononooooo! It hurts! I continued to cry. I'm sorry Holly. ...Scar? I'm here Holls. It ...hurts. I know. I'm sorry I couldn't protect you. It's not your fault, I love you. I love you too. For what felt like hours he pumped into me, but really it was only minutes. "I'm cumming baby doll!" He shouted as he peed in me again. Finally it's over. I lay there quivering in pain wish I could just wake up and it have all been a bad dream. All I could think was thank God it's over and now I can go back to Mommy and try to get her to hold me. Then I heard it. The thing that sent me right back into the inferno. "Well princess you still have another hole for me to fill. Ready for round two?" I want Mommy.
Xx End Rape Scene Jul. 4 1993 6:39 pm xX
It's over. For real this time. He told me so. "Ahhh now that was one of the best lays I've ever had. Here you that to clean up. Then get dressed and come down stairs. Got it? Oh and don't do any thing stupid downstairs, like telling, or I'll introduce your Mother to my special friends. Understand?" He said throwing an old T-shirt at me. I just nodded. "Lay?" That was a lay? Mommy wants one of those? I think that was a "bad lay". But he said it was one of his best? He's a bad man. Very bad. I limped downstairs to find my mommy. I found her, but I wish I hadn't. She was sitting with that Joe kissing him like He did to me. At first I thought that he must be one of His special friends, but then I heard Mommy making happy noises, so I guess she likes it. I decide to just stay near her until we leave. Unfortunately this left me with my rapidly declining thoughts. He was in me. IN ME! He wasn't supposed to. He's bad man. Very bad. Super really bad. He's dirty. He made me dirty. Dirty. Filthy. Nasty. Me. I'm dirty. I don't want to be. I want to be clean. Me clean. Want clean. Need clean. Need to be clean. Have to get clean. So so very dirty. Why am I dirty. Him. He made...me... dirty. He...c-c-came... in me? No...no...nononononononono. He's in me! In me! HE'S STILL IN ME! I have to get him out! At some point in my silent breakdown I began to shiver and cry. I was so out of it I didn't even notice the fireworks, or Mommy giving Mr. Fields her phone number, or the drive home.
I was trapped in my mind. Walk in the house my Mommy asked me if I had fun. I told her no and she asked why? "Because he's still in me." I whispered. "What are you talking about Holly? Who's in you." She asked confused. "U-uncle T-t-tod-d-d. H-he made m-m-me-e t-touch h-him, and h-h-he p-pu-u-t-t h-h-his th-h-hing-g in me-e. H-he told m-me if I t-t-tell. H-he'll hurt-t y-y-you!" I sobbed into her belly. Mommy just stood there and I kept crying, hoping that she'll help me get clean. I really wanted Him out. "What did you say?" She asked holding me at arms length. "I said h-he t-to-" "I heard you the first time!" She yelled at me. Why is she yelling at me? I j-just want her help. "I don't ever want to hear you making such horrible lies like that again! DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME!" She screamed at me, enforcing it with a back-hand to the cheek. "Go to your room, in the morning your going to apologies for make up such a story, and if your lucky I won't tell your Uncle about this. Now go!
I quickly limp up the stairs to my room and into my bathroom. I stripped, throwing my bloody panties into the trash and turn the shower to the hottest setting. I can't tell if I was still crying or not but I think I stopped. I don't know how long I was in there but I do know that it was long enough to rub my skin raw and for the water to turn my lips and fingers blue. Turning off the water I put on a pink night gown, and climbed in to bed. I don't like pink. Me either. Are you okay? No. But I'm happier. Why? I got him out! I thought erupting into a fit of giggles. I didn't know it then but this was the first of two events that ultimately led to my current predicament.
An: Okay end of chapter one. In case you forgot Holly is locked in solitary confinement for attacking her mother, and this and the next few chapters will be her school years. I in no way or form condone rape in any form. It is a curse that lingers for the rest of your life, trust me I know, but for this story it has to happen. There will only be one more rape scene in a few chapters, and truthfully it is going to be difficult for me to write because it is based of my own experience, but like this one it has to happen. Assure you that after that any and all sex scenes will be consensual. Oh just so know Scarlet isn't just an imaginary friend. She is actually a hallucination and delusion caused by Early Onset Schizophrenia. I know that it is exceedingly rare in children under 13 but it can and does happen, and unfortunately do to the traumatic experiences she has and will face it gets worse. Now she wont be permanently be so bad but until she gets to St. Jonas she is basically untreated. So once she become medicate the psychosis that she is going to into will begin to dissipate to were her schizophrenia won't be as noticeable to the untrained eye.