Disclaimer: I do definetly not own Kingdom Hearts. If I did the rating would be much higher because of yaoi.
I know the title is kind of lame, but I seriously couldn't think of anything better...
Chapter 1: First Kiss
"Hey Riku!"
Riku turned around at his friend's voice. He had been standing by his usual spot, leaning against the papou tree on the small island. He watched Sora as he came over and sat down on the branch of the tree and Riku thought he looked a little pale. He seemed very nervous and wasn't meeting Riku's eyes. The older boy waited patiently for the other to speak, knowing he had something to say. But it took a while before the brunette managed to form his words.
"Something weird happened," was still all he said and he sent Riku a quick nervous look.
"Okay?" Riku said, raising an eyebrow. "Are you going to tell me what?"
"Err… yeah, I'm getting to it," Sora stuttered. He sighed deeply. "Well, you see, I was just talking to Kairi. We were just hanging out by the beach and talking. Suddenly she went all weird and started talking about the year while I was asleep. And she said she was sorry for forgetting and everything. I just said it was okay and she started saying things like that we should never be apart again and I just agreed and then she…" He stopped, taking a break from his rambling and looked nervously at Riku once again. Riku just looked back, waiting for the point. "She… err…She leaned – eh – forward and I think she wanted to, you know, maybe, kiss me," Sora looked at the ground as his cheeks became red.
Riku just stared at him. He really didn't see the problem. He knew Kairi liked Sora, and even though he didn't appreciate it very much he had been pretty sure Sora liked her back. He knew it just had been a matter of time before something like this would happen.
"Didn't you want to kiss her?" he asked Sora, finding this subject a bit awkward.
"I – Yeah – I mean, no – or, I don't know," Sora sent Riku a desperate look as if asking for help. Riku raised his eyebrows, trying to avoid thinking about the strange anger he felt towards Kairi right now.
"Well, what did you do then?" he asked, looking at his friend.
"I – I just said I had to go, and then I left," he answered guiltily. "Do you think I hurt her?"
Riku suddenly felt his anger fade away as he felt sorry for the girl. That must have hurt. She probably thought Sora had rejected her. Well, he had. Riku felt a bit of anger towards Sora instead. But he swallowed it. He didn't yet understand what Sora was thinking, but he understood the other boy was probably as confused as Kairi right now. But at the same time he couldn't help but feel happy that Sora hadn't kissed her. But why hadn't he? He had always thought Sora liked Kairi as more than a friend.
"Well, yeah, you probably did," Riku answered honestly. "But why did you leave?"
Sora's eyes were still focused on the ground and he seemed just as nervous as he had when he showed up.
"I didn't mean to hurt her," he mumbled sadly.
"I know that," Riku said truthfully, still waiting for Sora to give an explanation. "Then why did you just leave? Don't you like Kairi like that?"
Riku had always known there was something more between Sora and Kairi then friendship. He had finally learned to accept it too, although he didn't like it. He was afraid he was going to become a burden for his friends, stopping them from being alone together. He hated being the third wheel, feeling like he wasn't wanted. But he couldn't read Sora's thoughts now. Maybe he didn't like Kairi after all? Maybe Riku didn't have anything to worry about it?
"Yeah, I – I think I do, but-" Sora had problems getting his words out, and everything he said seemed to be confusing Riku even more. So Sora did like Kairi? "I was just really nervous. It happened so sudden and I didn't know what to do. I just freaked out. You know, since I've – I've never done it before," The brunette blushed furiously and Riku looked at him with surprise.
"You mean you've never kissed anyone before?" The silver haired boy asked slowly and Sora nodded quickly, not meeting Riku's eyes. It didn't surprise Riku that the keyblade master hadn't ever kissed before. What surprised him was how nervous the other seemed about it. Was that the only reason Sora hadn't kissed Kairi? If so, the situation was nothing but a bit funny.
"Heh. You're really that nervous about kissing?" Riku asked, smirking at the younger boy.
"Shut up! It's not funny!" Sora pouted and folded his arms childishly over his chest and turned his head away, making Riku chuckle. He pushed Sora playfully in the shoulder, making the younger hit him half-heartedly on the chest, pretending to be angry. Riku just smirked at him, knowing he wasn't really angry at all.
If this was why Sora hadn't kissed Kairi, he needn't be concerned about the redhead being hurt. The keyblade master only needed to tell her what he had just told Riku. But on the other hand, this wasn't really anything for him to go all happy over. Because it meant his fears about being the third wheel would come true after all.
He was really getting selfish, wasn't he? Shouldn't he be happy for his friends? He really wanted to be, but he didn't feel any happiness at all.
"How… How's it like?" Sora suddenly asked and interrupted Riku's thoughts. He turned to the younger boy who was looking at him curiously, a light blush still in his cheeks.
"How's what like?" Riku asked confused.
"You know! Kissing," Sora answered shyly. Surprise hit Riku once again and he stared at his best friend dumbstruck.
"How should I know?" he managed to ask and Sora's eyes went wide. "I've never tried it,"
"You haven't?" the brunette asked, and it was finally Sora's time to be surprised.
"No, who should that have been with?" Riku asked simply.
"I – I – I don't know," Sora stuttered. "I just figured you probably had done it, since you're always first at stuff," Sora shrugged, before jumping of the papou tree and landing on the ground next to Riku.
"Oh," Riku said. "Well, I haven't,"
"So that means if I had kissed Kairi, I'd be first?" Sora asked, grinning widely at his best friend. The other boy snorted at his stupidity.
"Well, you'll still probably be first though. 'Cause you're planning to apologize to Kairi and kiss her, right?"
Sora's smile disappeared and he stared at Riku for a while, before drifting his gaze to the ground.
"Yeah, I guess I should," he mumbled, and once again he had made Riku surprised. Didn't he want to? Didn't he like Kairi after all? Oh, for Kingdom Hearts' sake could he make up his mind?!
"Sora," Riku said, making the younger look at him again. "You don't have to if you don't want to,"
Again, Sora's gaze fell to the ground and he seemed to be in deep thoughts for a while.
"Yeah, I want to," he mumbled at last and Riku's heart sank. "I just – I'm still nervous. What do I say to her?"
Sora looked at Riku with worry in his eyes and Riku quickly hid his disappointment from his face.
"Just tell her what you told me. She'll understand," Riku suggested and Sora nodded, although he still didn't seem sure.
"I don't know if I dare," he said quietly.
"Oh, come on, Sora! Don't be such a sap!" the silver haired boy teased. Sora only sent him a glare, and seemed to fall into thoughts again.
Riku was trying not to think. That would just send him into misery right now. He didn't want to think about Sora and Kairi getting together and him being left awfully alone. Instead he just studied the other boy, wondering what he was thinking. He had completely zoomed out, staring blankly towards the sea. And Riku found it impossible to read his mind. He sighed and turned towards the sea too, observing the sunbeams hitting the waters surface, just to keep him self from thinking about Sora and Kairi.
Riku had always been a jealous person, especially when it came to Sora. He had never liked Sora being too close to anyone but him self. And when Kairi first came to Destiny Island, he had disliked her, just because she and Sora became so good friends. Of course, after a while he had made friends with her too, realising she was an amazing one. But still he couldn't help the jealousy he felt whenever Sora and Kairi did something without him, and he realised a long time ago they shared something he could never be a part of. It wasn't until they all returned to Destiny Island after all they'd been through, he slowly learned to accept it. But even now that he had decided to leave them alone, he couldn't help but feel jealous and upset.
"Riku?" Sora suddenly said, making Riku push his thoughts and emotions back to look at the younger boy.
"Hm?" He turned his head to look at his friend, noticing how he had suddenly become nervous again.
"Could we – I mean – err – maybe try it?" Sora stuttered, looking at the silver haired boy with pleading eyes, making Riku send him a confused look. The brunette was blushing again.
"Try what?" Riku asked, eyes widening, thinking he most have gotten the other boy wrong.
"Well, you know, it'll be easier for me with Kairi then, since I know what it's like. And I won't be so nervous if it's you," Sora explained and grinned stupidly. Riku couldn't believe his ears. Sora was serious?
Even though Sora had surprised him God knows how many times this day, Riku realized he hadn't been aware of what surprise was until know. Or maybe this wasn't surprise. Maybe this was complete and utter shock. All he knew was that it had stolen his ability to talk and think. Sora, on the other hand, still had that ability and he was taking advantage of it.
"I mean, of course you don't have to!" he quickly added. He was blushing like mad now, even though Riku knew it was nothing but his naivety that had caused him to ask. Where the blush came from he wasn't sure. But then again, at the moment he wasn't even sure if this was real or if it was just a weird dream.
"You don't have to of course!" Sora rambled on. "I'm just asking, you know, so I won't be so nervous!"
"But won't you be nervous about kissing me?" Riku had found his speaking ability quickly, but he was pretty sure his ability to think was still lost. Maybe it was better that way, anyway.
"Nah, that'll be okay," Sora grinned, glad Riku finally was responding. "I'll feel safe with you. I always do!"
The brunette was still grinning naively; totally clueless that Riku was fighting a blush too because of what he had just said.
"Heh. Not that I don't feel safe with Kairi," Sora quickly added. "But I don't know what'll happen if I screw up. Maybe I'll ruin everything!"
Riku strongly doubted that Kairi was going to let Sora ruin everything just because of one kiss, but he decided to not push the issue further.
"Hmph," he just said. "But Sora? You realize your first kiss is going to be with me if we do this? And don't you want it to be with Kairi?"
Sora actually smiled at Riku's question and answered without hesitance.
"That's okay," he said as he walked to stand in front of the older boy. He looked at the ground before continuing. "Uhm… I think I kinda' want my first kiss to be with you. I mean, we're best friends, right? So we should do like first time things with each other,"
Riku tried with all his willpower not to think about what would happen when Sora and Kairi were ready to take their relationship past kissing. He still failed.
"I don't think best friends usually share their first kiss Sora," he said carefully, making the younger blush again.
"Well, if you really don't wanna…," Sora said, looking as though Riku had hurt him.
"No, it's not that!" he quickly said. As he realized how desperate he sounded, he quickly added, "I mean, that's not what I meant. I was just wondering if you really want this,"
"Well I want it. Or else I wouldn't have asked in the first place," Sora confirmed, staring stubbornly at Riku.
Riku gazed into Sora's blue eyes and saw nothing but honesty. Sora really wanted Riku to kiss him.
"Fine, if you're really sure?" Riku said, heart beating faster as he realized what he was going to do.
"I've already told you! I'm sure!" Sora nodded eagerly, stepping a bit closer to his best friend.
"Okay, then," Riku finally agreed.
As he hesitantly put a hand behind Sora's neck to pull him closer, he tried not to think of his ridiculously fast beating heart or what he was doing. He just focused on those pink lips and nothing more.
"Ready?" he asked and Sora just nodded nervously.
Riku closed his eyes as he leaned even closer, feeling a hand grip the edge of his shirt. As their lips met, his heart seemed to be on it's way up his throat. But instead of thinking of that he focused on the sweet taste of Sora's lips that were pressing lightly against his own. He found himself really liking the taste as well as the sensation of their lips meeting.
Soon, he could feel Sora's hand slid around his waist as the brunette actually started licking Riku's closed mouth. He barely managed to not gasp in surprise. But he parted his lips, only to push Sora's tongue carefully back with his own. Sora moaned slightly, making shivers run up Riku's back, as the silver haired boy started caressing the inside of Sora's mouth with his tongue.
Suddenly the kiss had become much more aggressive. Sora was trying with all his might to push his tongue past Riku's and inside the others mouth, but Riku wouldn't let him and so they were fighting violently for dominance. Soon, Riku had tangled his one hand in Sora's hair, and put the other around his waist and Sora had slid his hands up Riku's back, pressing himself against the other's chest.
As Riku felt the incredibly good sensation of Sora's violent tongue against his own, he decided to let the other boy have his will for a while, and Sora took the opportunity eagerly, pushing his tongue inside Riku's mouth, licking at every spot he could reach. The silver haired boy didn't regret his decision at all as he felt the younger boy's assumingly natural tongue skills. But after awhile he decided it was his turn to explore again and managed to roughly push Sora's tongue aside and press his own back into the brunette's mouth.
Riku completely lost himself in the kiss and it wasn't until he realized Sora had slid his hands under his shirt and was caressing his nipples, making Riku moan, that he pulled away in shock. What were they doing?!
He pushed Sora away a bit more roughly than he had intended. The other boy hit the papou tree and nearly tripped over it as Riku took a small step back, careful not to fall of the cliff and into the water surrounding the small island.
Both boys were breathing heavily as they looked at each other with wide eyes, Sora blushing violently and he seemed as shocked over his own actions as Riku was. Both of them stood in silence for a while, staring at each other while catching their breaths. The silver haired boy realized how awkward the silence was and he didn't think he and Sora ever had shared a silence like this. But he really didn't know what to do or say to make it more comfortable. He wasn't sure what had happened either. But it sure wasn't just Sora's fault. He had been as lost in their kiss as the younger had, not thinking too much about what he was doing.
"I – I'm – I'm sorry," Sora muttered, confusion in his voice. "Dunno what happened,"
Riku just nodded, unable to say anything. He was thinking of his swollen lips and how he wanted nothing but to press them back against Sora's and feel those hands touching him again. He swallowed those thoughts quickly and tried to pretend he had never had them.
"I better go find Kairi now," Sora exclaimed and Riku didn't even have time to reply before he had jumped over the papou tree and ran of the island. He couldn't find his words anyway, but he really wished he had stopped the other. Sora probably thought Riku was angry with him, since he had pushed the younger away so roughly. He cursed himself inwardly for doing so. Now Sora was going to find Kairi and explain why he had left her. And afterwards the two would kiss and make up, and finally get together like they had wanted to for so long. And Riku would become the third wheel.
But even if he had stopped Sora from running away, what should he have said? That he didn't want him and Kairi to get together because he was afraid of being left out? There was no way he could have said that. He had no right to stop the others from falling in love with each other. He should leave them alone and be happy for them. And that was what he intended to do.
A/N: I might add another chapter to this. I'm not sure. But if I do I'll probably change the title. But please tell me what you think.