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"Now I'm all yours, I'm not afraid
and you're all mine, say what they may
and all you love I'll take to the grave
and all my life starts now"
-Eclipse (All Yours) by Metric
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I was officially married to my one true love. My soulmate. My other half. Even as I went over those descriptions in my head, none seemed appropriate. None accurately described just how much Edward meant to me. All seemed transparent, and paled in comparison to how I felt for him. I'd probably never be able to explain it in words.
We had landed on Isle Esme a few hours ago. The house was every bit as beautiful as I'd imagine—no, scratch that. It went far beyond my imagination's capabilities. Edward had taken me on a tour through the immaculate bedroom and the kitchen, and I was taken by the scenery. There were glass windows everywhere, looking out over the clear blue ocean and sand. The house really felt like home, because the design was so similar to the Cullen's house in Forks. My husband guided me out onto the deck out front, where lawn chairs were drawn together waiting for us.
He motioned for me to sit, and I did, simply content to stare at my Adonis, with heavenly topaz eyes and skin too smooth to be real. I reached for his hand, which he obliged.
Edward watched me stroke his fingertips absentmindedly. I stared at his marble hands, so perfect, so delicate despite being hard as stone. I'd gotten so used to their temperature that it made me feel I was the odd one, with my warmth, not my vampire husband.
And even stranger, calling Edward my husband was what sent butterflies turning in my stomach. Never mind that he sparkled in the sun, was completely perfect, and was entirely devoted to me.
He was mine. Between he and Jacob, there really hadn't been a choice. With Edward, I felt whole. I knew who I was, all because I'd met and fallen in love with him. No matter what Charlie, or Renée, or Jacob, or anybody said, there was no one else I could imagine spending eternity with than Edward Cullen.
Edward chuckled, "What is it?"
I ducked beneath my hair under his scrutiny. "Nothing."
"Bella." He groaned in an incredibly sexy way. Who was a kidding, everything about Edward was amazing, even his frustration.
"What?" I replied innocently, finally letting go of his hand. He gave me that look, like he was torn between scolding me and dazzling me senseless.
"You know how the fact that I'm not privy to your thoughts pains me. Please, I beg you, ease my torture."
"Oh, come on, you big baby! Suffer like normal people, for once!" I said, but at his expression, I relented, "I'm sorry. But I promise you, the majority of my thoughts are totally boring. Not even worth listening to, really."
"I truly doubt that. Bella Swan, you are the most fascinating creature I have ever known in nearly a hundred years. Your thoughts could be no less remarkable, as they are yours."
I couldn't stop the blush from building on my cheeks. "Bella Cullen." I said sullenly, turning my head. I had to bite back a smile at Edward's obvious adoration. Sometimes, it was just too much for me, to be loved so much. Rather inconceivable that I was so incredibly lucky.
"Bella Cullen." He agreed softly. His thumb ran across my cheek and I looked away in embarrassment. He kept watching me, so I enjoyed his touch while losing myself to the beauty and mirage of colors on Isle Esme.
"I wouldn't trade this moment for anything." I murmured a few minutes later, not bothering to raise my voice. I knew Edward could hear me.
"This is all I've dreamed of, Bella. Us being married, together like this."
"But you didn't anticipate our bargain." I said, breaking the spell.
His eyes narrowed. "No, I hadn't. But I made you a promise, Bella, that I intend to keep."
"I couldn't bear to grow old without you, Edward Cullen. I know that you think I'm throwing my life away, but I need this. I can't be happy until I know that I can be with you forever."
"I feel the same way. But I just wanted to protect you, Bella. I don't want you to make a mistake that you can't reverse. Because I would never, ever leave you, no matter how many years passed with you remaining a human." He admitted.
Under different circumstances, I would have appreciated Edward's chivalry. But I'd heard this tune too many times. I wouldn't stop and gain wrinkles, not just because Edward was worried for my soul or that I'd regret it.
"Do you think Rosalie will still hate me when I get back?" I asked suddenly, visualizing the sour blonde. She'd only been increasingly foul tempered up until the wedding, mostly due to me and my soon-to-be-gone humanity. In my opinion, she could say what she wanted, complain as much as she liked, but nothing would shake my resolve.
"Why are you thinking about that?" He asked, taken aback. He'd probably expected his sister to be the last thing on my mind.
But I was thinking of all the people I'd hurt to get here, to be by my husband's side. Rosalie was just one of many who disapproved. "No real reason. I just know that she thinks I'm making a mistake, too. And I am going to be living with her for the rest of eternity, so I'd rather we came to an understanding."
"Rosalie cares about you, just like the rest of the family. She's just more… vocal about it." Edward said wryly.
"She'd just more honest," I said, frustration welling up, "Everyone wants to decide what's best for me, how I should live my life! You all think I'm making some huge mistake… but I know who I am, and I know what choices I'm going to make!"
"I know you feel that way, Bella…" Edward started in a soothing tone.
"Yes, I do feel that way! And I love you, Edward, but I need you to support me. I need you to be the only person who believes in me. I need you to be the one person who doesn't doubt my choice to love you for eternity." I said, tears pricking my eyelids.
"Oh, Bella," He said, pulling my head against his chest, "You know that I'd be anything for you. Do anything for you."
"I'm all yours, Edward."
Thank you, Edward. I'll take your love with me to the grave. And carry it with me into my new life as a vampire.
Now I'm all yours, and I'm not afraid.