AN: Hey all! Well, I hope you all enjoy! Please don't flame this. I put my all into this. I was actually feeling like this one time in my life. So please, no flames.
Pairings: Inuyasha/Sango, Eiji (OC)/Sesshoumaru
M/F M/M Shounen-Ai
Let me tell you something, I'm not great looking. Alright, that probably got half of you to stop reading. Now, the ones of you who are reading, let me pose a question to you. Why are you continuing to read? Why even bother? I said I'm ugly, so why are you reading? Well, there could be many reasons, but let me tell you two of the ones that are probably the most common. One, is that you, yourself are ugly too, but not as ugly as me, i'll give you that. or Two, because you believe that a persons character isn't determined by how they look. If you are two, then I am very apreciative. Not a lot of those arouthey are VERY rare, I've never met one to date. Wait, why should you care? This isn't a history about my life, this is just a summary about how I am. Alright, I'm a good-for-nothing hanyou, well, that is the most common thing people call me, humans and demons alike. Well, screw you people, if I'm going to be judged just because of the way I look, then I really don't need you in my life. Sure I've fallen in love with humans, but they just threw it back at me as if it was some sort of joke.
Eiji, a friend of mine at Shikkon High told me that "the hardest thing in life is to see the one you love, love someone else". And I believe it too. A wise one, Eiji is. However, after what happened, I don't know if I'll ever love a human ever again. I've seen it happen. They're little backstabbers, they cheat on each other. They're jumpers, just jumping from one man to another, draining their wallet efficiently as they do. You know why human women don't like me? Well, one is because I'm ugly, but the other is because I won't spend a penny on them. They are experts at draining money. They can manipulate people, and take their things right behind their back. Ever watch Scooby-Doo and the Monster of Mexico? I know Scooby-Doo is really stupid, but the ending proves my point. Charlene was supposedly "in love" with a man who was quite wealthy. So they play lovers-and-friends, but it wasn't until she was caught, that she told the truth. "Love you? HAH! I never loved you! I only pretended to love you so when I married you, I would recieve all of your inheritance." see what I mean? now, i'm not saying ALL women are like that, I'm just saying most of them are. Some are just all in it for the money. I don't buy that crap though. You can get your own crap, you're not getting a dime out of me. I'll treat you out, that's all. I'm not gonna buy you your favorite necklace or you high-heel shoes. Shoot, ever heard of earning? Why don't you just get off of your femine rear-end and work around the house and get some money yourself instead of relying on others to get them for you? Once again, not all women are like that, but the ones i've met are.
For now, I think I'm safe to say that I'm sticking to myself, and only myself. I never socialize with anyone either. Socializing...wow, great thing isn't it? yeah, some say that socializing is the essense of living. If you can't socialize, then why live, right? Wrong. I was never accepted, no one ever wanted me, I was a reject in the society. I wasn't a human OR a demon, i was a hanyou, something everyone hated and made fun of. Boys jumped me, girls laughed at me, I've had enough. No more, so I haven't made a single friend for years, maybe a few, but that's all. At first, I sat up all night, wondering, why was I so hated? And then, that's when it hit me. It wasn't because I was a hanyou, it was because the society judges you by your looks, and not your personality. If not socializing kills, then why am I still standing here? Screw it, if you people are going to judge me on how I look, then I don't need you in my life. You want me to go back home? I would if I could, but I'm on this earth too, and no one is going to bring me down. If I'm going to be a loner, that's fine. Besides, less friends means less commitment, less commitment means I have more time to myself. Greedy right? Wrong, YOU are the one who is greedy. All of you just take take take, and never give in return. When was the last time you donated to a homeless on the street, or anyone at that? I can almost guarentee never, you know why? I know why, because they're "lower" than you, because you're higher on the chart, because you mean more than them, because you have "better things" to spend your money on. Yeah right, what? Prono? Prostitution? Drugs? Video games? Give me a break. I bet they're way better people than you'll ever be. You want to judge me on the way I look? Fine, be my guest, but I won't let you pull me down from my dream. I have a drive to reach my goal, my dream, but it'll never happen here, know why? Because I don't have the "looks". Without the looks, I can't get the job I want. Not evenmy homeland will accept me, no. So here's my message out to all of you people who say "looks count first". If I'm not socializing, then why haven't I died yet? Why haven't I gone insane? Answer that.
AN: So, how'd you like it? Please R+R!