My Darling Will,
It's so hard to believe it's been two years since the night I last saw your face. So much within me has changed since then, but the moment I saw you again, I realized that I'm exactly the same. You didn't see me of course. I could never allow that.
As much as I want to come back into your life and pick things up where we left off, I can't. I will keep my promise to you.
I know how hard this has been on you, and I'm more sorry than I could ever say. I know how hard you looked for me. A few times you got pretty close. But I kept to myself, hiding away, until eventually there was nobody left for you to ask. I was just gone.
I just had to see you one more time tonight. You had no idea, but we were so close, separated by only a window. You look good Will. I'm glad you've moved on now and I hope the man I saw you with treats you well.
Although after all I put you through, how could it be worse?
You know, I've come so close to calling you, so many times. Sometimes I don't know if I have the strength to stay away from you for another minute. Sometimes, all I want is to come to you and admit the truth.
That I'm a liar.
I lied to you that day Will. I never stopped loving you and I know now that I never will. I thought it would get easier with time, but the truth is... every day just keeps getting harder and harder. I don't know if I can hold on much longer.
But I can't really tell you this. You can never know the truth...
It's better this way.
Yours forever,
Warren.
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Sadly, Warren looked over the letter one last time. As he descended the tree outside Wills bedroom window, he ignited his hand, changing his words into dust. He turned to stare up at the light in the window, allowing himself just one moment to imagine how easy it would be to walk back into that world. All he would have to do is knock on the door right now. He let out a heavy sigh, knowing that he couldn't.
So he turned and walked away.
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AN: I couldn't resist making it just a little bit more tragic. So yeah, this is set two years later, obviously. At work today I began toying with the idea of what could come next, but I don't know for sure. Part of me wants to move away from Warren and Will, but part of me is starting to think that the ending I went for wasn't really the ending.
It's funny how all I wanted to do was finish this, out of some sort of sense of duty, but after writing the last four chapters, I feel so attached. So who knows.. Lets just say I was making some notes today and leave it at that. At least it will keep you checking :p
-Dylan