A/N - This bit of fanfic is based of a prompt I was given, so I hope this fulfils what you wanted even though it isn't connected to my other story :)

This is a two chapter fic, the other chapter is already written and will be posted shortly after I've edited it :)

Disclaimer: I don't own Hollyoaks, this fanfiction us based off a prompt

Enjoy :D xxx

"This is one thing that I'll always regret. It's the one thing that I'll never forget. What I did, to my family, to my brother, it's the worst thing anyone could do. I'm Jason Roscoe and I plead guilty,"…

…Jason can barely contain his excitement as he runs towards the house, certificated in hand. He'd just taken his driving test, first time and he'd passed. It'd taken Joe three attempts to pass his and Freddie took four! Even with Ziggy he'd had to try twice, but not Jason. Jason had passed first time. Jason quickly unlocks the door and walks into the living room. Every ones there, Sandy and Freddie are in the kitchen, Sandy's trying to cook and Freddie's doing everything in his power to stop her, Joe and Lindsey are sat on the couch snuggled up together, and Ziggys sat opposite them with Robbie, grimacing at their public displays of affection. They all stop what they're doing though when they see the proud look on Jason's face as he swiftly enters the room. Freddie and Sandy walk in from the kitchen, Joe and Lindsey look up towards him and separate, and Ziggy and Robbie stop laughing at them and focus their attention on an excited Jason. Robbie feels proud as he sees the happy look on his twin's face, knowing what's happened before Jason's told anyone. He'd like to say it's twin telepathy (he'd always liked the sound of that) but he knew because Jason had confided in him about taking his test, he'd kept it a secret from the rest of the family not wanting the extra pressure to pass, but he'd told Robbie. As Jason holds out the certificate to show everyone the rest of the family cotton on, Sandy squeals and wraps Jason up in a proud hug, Joe claps and congratulates his youngest brother, as do the others. "You kept that a secret" Freddie winks at him, giving him a proud tap on his shoulder.

"Yeah well I wanted it to be a surprise" Jason tells them happily, leaving out the real reason, the fact he didn't want that added pressure of his whole family knowing that he was on his test. Being the 'golden boy' of the family Jason's always gotten much more pressure put on him to do better than than anyone else in the family and sometimes the only way to prevent this is by just not telling them.

"Well it sure was, how many attempts did it take?" Joe asks him, having congratulated Jason he was back at Lindsey's side his hand around her waist and he pulled her closer to him. Both of them were smiling happily for Jason. Everyone looked toward him, anticipating his next words. It was kind of a family contest to see who'd taken the least amount of attempt to pass, Ziggy was the record holder, but not for long as Jason announces,

"I passed on my first attempt", his proud grin stretched so far that it began to resemble the Cheshire cats. A loud cheer erupted once Jason told them, and Ziggy's groan of defeat followed shortly after.

"Damn" Ziggy moaned light heartedly, then ran up to Jason and grabbed him in a head lock, ruffling his hair as Jason tried to get free.

"You know you can bully 'im all you want but it aint going to make a difference" Robbie told Ziggy, laughing at Jason's red face and messed up hair as Ziggy let him go. Jason smoothed down his hair before he glared at Ziggy with a raised eyebrow.

"He's right, just coz I beat you it don't give you the right to-"Jason began but didn't get to finish his sentence as Ziggy grabbed him again.

"Alright boys that's enough" Sandy walked over to them to break them up.

"Yeah, we're meant to be congratulating him not killing him" Freddie laughed….

… "Finding out that Darren's our brothers was a shock to us all, Joe especially. For a while we didn't talk to mum. Joe, Fred and Zig were angry, but not me. I was disappointed. Disappointed that she'd felt she had to hide it from us, disappointed that she didn't feel like she could tell us. Robbie didn't understand and he was angry with Darren even though none of it was Darren's fault, Robbie just didn't know who to blame and hating Darren was better than hating mum. Robbie and I would fight about it, I'd try and stick up for Darren when Robbie yelled abuse at him from across the street and I stopped Robbie when he tried to through a brick through the pup window. Soon though the drama began to calm down, Darren had said that he wanted nothing to do with us, and to be honest the way everyone was reacting I can't blame him. Yet once we'd all calmed down so did he. I still remember the day that everyone kind of accepted him as one of us. Of course we hadn't known him growing up, but he's still our brother no matter what way you look at it, and it became clear that he wasn't going anywhere, and neither were we so we either carried on hating him for something that isn't even his fault or grow up and try to be civil with him. After a couple of months being civil, things started to develop, and we found ourselves hanging out with him, going on days out or to the pup as a family, him included. Then there was the trip to the city, the trip that changed everything, the reason that I'll never get in a car again"…

…"Oi Zig hurry up will ya" Freddie called from his car. Ziggy's head pokeed out from the bathroom window.

"I'm going as fast as I can" he yelled down to Freddie before he disappeared back into the bathroom.

"He doesn't even have his shirt on" Freddie turned to face Joe shaking his head. They had reservations at a restaurant in town, and then they were planning on going out to a club. Freddie, Joe and Ziggy were going along with Jason, Robbie and Darren who're taking a separate car.

Joe laughed shaking his head at Ziggy's antics. Hearing a bang both Freddie and Joe jumped out of the car and turned to face the source of the noise, only to find Robbie had bashed the front door shut and began running towards the driver's side of the car. The door quickly swung open again and Jason came rushing out yelling at Robbie to give him the keys. Joe and Freddie gave each other a quick glance, slightly worried that Robbie might actually end up driving. He'd only had his licence a month and he's already gotten a ticket for speeding. Now his insurance had sky rocketed and just one more ticket and it would be unpayable. "Rob give Jase the keys" Joe tells him, using his stern voice so Robbie knew he wasn't joking.

"Aw what?" Robbie moaned but gave a smug Jason the keys back anyway.

"Ha" Jason grined going over to the driver's side. Robbie made a bee line for the front passenger seat, yelling 'shotgun' but Darren beat him too it.

"Sorry mate, too slow," Darren joked, pulling the seat forward for a grumbling Robbie to climb into the back.

Another few minutes and Joe called up to Ziggy to get a move on, quarter of an hour later and Ziggy was down, with the weak excuse that you 'can't rush perfection'. With that they all climbed into their cars and left for the journey.

For the next half hour the car ride was a joy. They listened to the radio, sang along when a good song came on, and laughed at the bad ones. They told each other stories about their lives growing up; Darren told them about the first girl to break his heart. He was in year one and she went out with him for three hours till she stole his Twix and dumped him. The twins laughed at this and took the micky out of him, Jason offered him his Twix bar and Darren laughed commenting on the things he'd do if Jason wasn't driving. After about half an hour though the laughing stopped, after half an hour the whole world seemed to stop…

…. A tear falls down my cheek as I remember that moment. I'm never going to forget it; I have nightmares every night – as far as I'm concerned though it's what I deserve - "It's my fault the car crashed; it's all my fault"….

A/N - hope you enjoyed, coming up in the next chapter, the crash, the survivors, and the jury's verdict :D xxx